What is Normal?

What is normal ? Who defines such a thing?

Webster dictionary describes normal as an example of a pattern doing the same thing , routine , this is normal. But in comparison the definition of Insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. How could two opposite descriptive words ,who define all humanity have similar definitions,but oppose each other . So are those that expose themselves to be normal , really have the correct definition of what normal is?

As an introvert, I have often been labeled as unbalanced or not normal . It's not normal for me to want to be alone in my own home away from society. Psychologist call that depression . I call it coping , healing , saving myself, and society from my thoughts and actions against what people may call "normal". I view as ignorance. I view as insanity , but yet I am the one who is insane because I refuse to accept the foolishness of this world or partake in it .

Once I was an extrovert. I would party with the crowd , I would walk through with my head held high and the confidence of a lioness. I loved being the center of attention . The go getter . Striving for the thrill and adrenaline of attention . But this pattern of life , what people defined as normal or what . I defined as insanity . I was doing the same thing every day , every week , investing my time , my thoughts , my money , my energy , into a life going down hill not doing anything different ,but expecting different results . I was working two and three jobs at a time , going to school as a single parent and trying to have a social life all at the same time . With what results ? None found! I lost time with my child by working and partying . I lost money by partying , and my degree by working and partying . Do all the same things , expecting different results .

When I chose to speak out on my view of this world . Many people think I am not normal , "crazy" even , Because I am bold and blunt about my opinions and my approach on situations . People think I am comfortable with being in crowds and socially speaking to large groups of people . But actually it is the introvert in me that is fed up with not being heard ... Or being ignored. I've learned that ,when you stop trying to change things in people , and concentrate on changing the thing within yourself , then the world will become a better place rather you are an introvert or and extrovert.

Being an introvert was my way out of the dark place I was in. I may sit in the back seat or in the corner somewhere . I may be quiet because I am observing my surroundings. I am listening with my eyes open and my mouth closed. But this is not normal to some .I do have a heart of a giver and a voice of advice and an ear to listen. But I have learned that only a few are worthy of my knowledge and my time .I have taken notice that the ones that notice the storms in your eyes, the silence in your voice and the heaviness of your heart . Those are the type of people you let in. Being an Introvert, I'm my opinion is a beautiful way of being empathetic but misunderstood at times.

But why as an extrovert would a person like me not intrigue you ? Is it not normal to want to be aware of your surroundings? Why wouldn't you be curious as to who I am and why I am sitting alone ? Does your mind not wonder about my thoughts . I ask who is normal ? And what defines it ? The most words of Life comes from the heart, and the most hearted people come from living life. Sometimes in life we have to analyze ourselves in a way that our brain understands life. As it is sometimes we often overlook the things that we walk on or cross. Let's be real with each other, sometimes that's the only thing that crosses our mind. Normal? Is it the extrovert, the one that is popular and known socially, talkative and making irrelevant conversation to all who it sees? Or is it the observant introvert that chooses to stay away from the crowd and listen, learn and slowly make decisions on the choices it makes that affects their own personal well being? I am an introvert ,who often cares for others ,but I would rather do what I do privately. Many people think because I am not afraid to speak in large crowds that I am an extrovert. But I truly prefer to be alone in my own zone . If I have the opportunity to teach and minister to a crowd of people then I must obey my calling . Stepping out of your comfort zone is a part of growth. My preference is an introvert, but Gods preference for me may be an extrovert and I will be ok with that ... I think that may be the true definition of normal . Being able to be transparent and understanding your growth and allowing change in your life.

In my opinion I think normal is being able to acknowledge who you are , accepting who you are , taking accountability for your actions. Knowing that there is a difference between coping and healing . And understanding that your past has determined your present , but it does not define your future. You are unable to repair something,that you didn't damage. Sometimes we tend to try and fix things that we didn't break. Not realizing how it got broken in the first place . Everything comes with instructions. In order to learn we must read , understand and examine ourselves before we can fix and repair a situation that we do not have the understanding on how it was broken in the first place. I think being able to recognize myself as being a transparent introvert just allows me to acknowledge my growth and my purpose in life as an extrovert in the ministry of evangelism for Jesus Christ and not the darkness of the world .