Dream of the Son

Dream of the Son

I stepped out into the sunshine and watched awestruck as our huge globe of fire silently slipped out of sight.

Then they came. All the angelic vocalists. Sophia. Wisdom. Holy Spirit. Coming to cheer me on. They cheered me on. They told me:

There is much to come. There are many things left for you to do. There's life yet. Grab on to life, Grasp life. Look up and live. Look up and live.

The Enemy wants me dead. He decided Parkinson's was the way to go. He's told me there's no hope. I have a degenerative illness. Nothing can get better. I don’t want this in my life. I will lose my friends. I will lose my ability to walk and talk. It's all going to be taken from me. And he's laughing. He's laughing.

My friends say I must be sensible. I must take my medication. I must listen to what the doctors say. I must put myself into care. So there. The medics know what is required. So that I have somewhere to go when things deteriorate. I can be happy, and I can do nice things. I can go out and see my friends. Celebrate. But I must be sensible. And listen to the doctors. I must look reality straight in the face.

I want to keep my brain in good condition. I ask for prayer, for a good brain, for good cognition, for no memory loss. My body doesn't matter as much as my brain. I want to stay in charge; I'll be able to control things. I'll be able to think things through. No matter what, I will communicate with my Lord.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

I want her dead. I don't want her to thrive. I want life to be seeping out of her. I want to see her defeated. See her defeated, rolling around on the floor, begging for mercy.

Friends speak to Mia

You can keep yourself well through your efforts. Keep going to the gym, keep eating properly, keep exercising. You can ward it off.

Mia

Where am I? Who am I to believe? God is full of promises. Can I trust him? He can resurrect people from the dead. But would he do so? I know He can heal me. Please, I have trouble walking, talking, breathing, and eating. Even socialising. Love has lost its sparkle. I believe in the Lord, but I ask the Lord. Do you want to rescue me?

Angels announce:

The Lord has done marvellous things. And he will continue to do so. Throughout history, he has done marvellous things. Rescued the people from Pharaoh. He sent his Son to die for his children. He loves his children.

But he does say yes to people sharing his sufferings. What does that mean? Why do they have to share in his sufferings?

The Enemy

There is a very easy way. God takes away all the pain.

Friends speak to Mia

Jesus. Jesus did everything on the cross that needed to be done. You can be healed totally. Just claim it. Just claim it, claim it. Don't give up. What have you done wrong? There must be another way to pray. There must be another miracle worker we can take you to. We haven't read the right books. You haven't spoken about the scriptures properly. If you did things properly, you'd be fine. Just keep at it.

Mia prays

This is too hard.

I am left to spend my whole life trying to get well, to do some more work for the Lord. When I could just happily go home, be with him, and rest and be relieved of further duties.

I'm claiming, I'm claiming, I'm claiming. The healing is still not coming. What's in the way? What have I done? What haven't I repented of? What's in the way? What's in the way?

The Enemy says that healing is for the next life. Not for this one. God is healing us for the next life and not this one. I say who says the healing is for the next life, and not this one. Who's telling the truth? Why isn't it clear from the Scriptures?

Friends speak to Mia

If you're not healed, it must be the lack of faith. You're not doing it right. You're not listening properly. You know, applying it properly. Must be all your fault. Not our fault.

Mia

What's the truth? Who is right? Is it my fault I'm not healed? Is there something I need to learn? Is it something God is teaching me through this?

Angels speak to Mia

God is teaching you patience. Endurance. Perseverance. He is killing your pride.

Friends call out to Mia

You no longer care that you make a bad impression. Your mouth is crooked. You dribble.. When your lips don't move. Your legs don't move. You're not very articulate. Anymore. The ladies laugh at you.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

Look at you, now you're even confused. You've lost the peace that you had when you first believed. Now I've got you. You are just a piece of passive jelly. You don't know what's left or right. You have no connection to God. There is a connection to the enemy. This makes me very happy.

Friends speak to Mia

We don't know what to think. We will stand by you. But it does disturb us. When you can't walk, you can't talk. Can't communicate. You have lost your continence. Can't make it to the toilet on time? We don't tell you, but we're happy to wipe you off our list of friends.

Vera

I just have to hang on to Jesus. Hanging on is not the right word because I'm not even hanging on. I'm just there, he's there. It doesn't feel like there's a connection between us. I tried to pray and call out in pain. He went through it all. He went through the pain. He had alienation from his father. I'm not experiencing anything different from him. His friends couldn't understand the situation. Either. Have to hang on to him. Don't let me go anymore. Don't let me go.

Angels speak to Mia

The Lord grows you. He grows you. You'll be large, you'll be strong. You'll be able to cope with anything. You'll be able to do mighty things for the Lord. You will have no fear. There is no fear of man left in you. Let me know what is left in you. There will be no fear left in you. You'll be strong. People will be amazed. You will be strong.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

Don't bother listening to God, I'm going to kill you before long. It will get you a few infections. Get yourself some good doses of depression. Are you thinking negatively? And you just disappear like a twit. Like the idiot that you are. We don't like you; we don't want you. We hate you.

Friends speak to Mia

You're expecting too much from us. You can't even smile anymore. You can hardly talk, can hardly walk. I need something from you. Come on. Hand it over. We can’t just love you without any return. Hand it over. You can't understand. You couldn't be doing anything right. You must be doing everything wrong. You made your own life a living hell.

Mia

I've lost it all now, just wait for death. I ask for death, wait for death. This will be a relief. This will come. Just do. My death will come.

Angels speak to Mia

You're his everything. He's your everything. You are dancing with the King. He dotes on you. He is devoted to you. He's admiring you. He's proud of you.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

You've got tickets on yourself. You know you are no more special than a slimy little ant that crawls underneath a snail in the front garden. I hate you and I want you dead. You will die before long. Jesus is not going to help you.

Friends speak to Mia

The Lord is your friend. He doesn't. abandon anyone. He'll never leave you.

But you have done us wrong. We're coming to get you. You must pay us back, pay us back, pay us back.

Mia

Where are you, Lord? I need you to come closer. Lord. Glorious Lord, You, the Creator of the universe. You're in charge of all the galaxies. All the stars. All of creation. You care for all of creation. Help me now. Help me now. Take away my

pain. Please take away my pain.

Angels speak to Mia.

The Lord comes with his Angels. He commands his angels concerning you if you need protection. Just hang in there, hang in there, obey the Lord. If you obey, obey his commands, you stay safe.

Enemy speaks to Mia

The universe is telling you what to do. Come on, you can be excused. You don't have to do what it says. You're in pain all the time. You have cramps all the time. You can't walk. You need special treatment. Special exemptions and rules apply to you.

Friends announce

We're coming for our pound of Flesh. She has let us down. She has made promises that she hasn't kept. She doesn't even behave herself, look at her. She is a disgrace.

Mia

Lord, I let you down. I'm sorry. I've been full of pride. I thought I didn't have to do the things that you asked. I thought that I was exempt because I was sick. I'm very sorry, I've treated people badly. I'm very sorry.

Help me to be a better person.

Angel prays for Mia

Help Mia to keep you as the number one. Help her to turn to you first before anything else when things go wrong. Help her not to bury herself in painting. Anything. Or Writing. You're the only source of true comfort.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

Come on, you're entitled. You're entitled to drink. You're entitled to play music. You are entitled to have fun.

Friends announce

Who does she think she is? She thinks she can hear God. She thinks he talks to her; she thinks he is giving her special treatment. She thinks he's teaching her things that no one else knows. It's not true. She is just the lowest of the low. We have seen through her. We've seen her selfishness.

Mia prays

Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do. Forgive them, Father, for they do not know what they do.

Angels

Mia, you are the Lord's. Let it be known that his angels are here. You are being protected. you are being cared for.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

You don't deserve to have anyone stand with you. You don’t deserve to have friends. You will never be the only person that Jesus is going to abandon.

Friends speak to Mia

Can you speak up, please? We can't understand you. Can you stand up straight, please? Looks like you don’t have any self-esteem.

Mia

Look, I'm starting to move again. I am talking. The pills are working better. Everything's getting better. I'm finding I have inner strength.

Angels speak to Mia

Come into my arms, my lovely. Come away with me. The spring has come; winter has passed.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

No, you can't trust him. Things get better for a while, then they get worse. 2 steps forward, 7 steps back.

Friends announce

Healing. Yes, we've seen that before. We've seen it before. We don’t know what to make of it.

Mia

Though he slay me, yet will I trust him and love him? Though he slay me, yet will I trust him.

Angels speak to Mia

Even if things don't feel too good here, he will turn everything to good for you. He loves you; he trusts you. He has your eternal welfare in mind. He died for you. He sacrificed everything for you. To pay your ransom.

The Enemy speaks to Mia

Miserable deluded sow

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Friends announce

We don't know how to stand with Mia. Yet maybe we will try to walk with her each day as needed.

Mia

Praise God. I think things are going to get better. You have things for me to do, Lord. And I'm here to do them with you. I love you.