GOODBYE TO LOVE

“Goodbye” Dary said holding me so tight against his chest. He looked at me and I could see a tear run down his chubby chicks, for a moment I couldn’t breathe. He was the love of my life and seeing him hurt tore me apart. He finally got the strength and told me he’ll be waiting for me on the other side. He suddenly fled to the bushes. I knew the men sent to take me were near, they had been commanded to kill Dary should he be seen anywhere near me. I had been trying to convince my dad for so long that I didn’t need to be circumcised but to him there was no better value of a young woman than circumcision then getting married off to a man of honour in the society. I was carried away by four men deep into the forest where I met other girls who were there for the same ritual. Some, like me were brought without their consent while others were so happy to finally be going through this. The night was so long and about 2:00am they came for us it was time for the knife. My body became numb; it was the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced. 

Several herbs were administered to us to fasten the healing and soon we were normal again. No ceremony was held because they feared we could escape. As we headed for the exit several men were outside each waiting for a wife, some were to be first wives others second etc. As for me I was so unlucky i was to be the sixth wife of this ugly man.my dad was only interested with the huge pay of dowry he had received from him, he never cared much about me, it was but an unrequited love. I had met some missionaries before in school who had shown me some light regarding my rights in the government and my position in Christ and I had vowed to myself to never accept such mistreatment from whomever. I started crying as the man called out to me with a sarcastic laugh “Chii its time for me to finally taste your soft skin” I was trembling in fear, i didn’t have words, I felt as if death itself was inside me, I gave up everything and allowed myself to die peacefully, I fell to the ground. 

I arose almost an hour later and found myself on a bed inside a hut I had never seen. I was still looking around before my doom was here. He opened the door from outside and came in laughing as before, I hated everything about him and I could imagine having him for a husband, I felt like throwing up as he started kissing my face, I was infuriated by the way he was handling me like I was an object, I used every energy on me trying to push him away, even picked items near me to knock him. I hurt his face and I could see some blood on his forehead, little did I know I had awakened the devil himself. He held me like I was nothing, used his robes to tie both of my hands on the corners of the bed then raped me mercilessly, I did not only lost my virginity but also my desire for a life. I was in great pain and it didn’t matter to me again if I lived or died ,all I knew is that I was never going to be the wife he bought with a handsome price, I was never going to love him neither was I willing to live with him.

 He yelled at me that I was a shameless wife and that I should correct myself and learn how to behave if not he would call his men to take turns on me then throw me away, after all he was the most superior man no one can do anything to him. As he opened the door I vomited on myself since I was still tied to the bed, one of the guards came in to untie me, I asked him for a glass of water and he said the boss had refused anything be offered to me until I was ready to be a good wife. I dressed up then continued crying as he left. I was locked in the windowless hut for several hours; I kept thinking about Dary, I wondered how he was hurt by the whole ordeal and how I would be having a sweet life with him beside me. I finally fell sleep. At night fall the same guard came back with a piece of yam and some water, I ate so fast as I was dying of hunger, he looked at me and smiled saying “if you behave this way youll get your freedom back.

 I decided to fake it all. “I never expected such a thing to happen to me, first I was circumcised then married by a man I knew nothing of: but it doesn’t matter anyway, I’m now here and I’m rightfully his wife, I will do whatever he pleases”. He laughed then said “you have become wise Chii” and he took off. Before long my husband came in so happy this time, I told him I was sorry for trying to resist him. I could see his sincerity as he smiled and hugged me.he was disgusting but I had no otherwise. He told me to give him a moment and went out. He organized a huge party for my welcoming; His other wives came to help me dress up and guided me on what I should do. The time for exiting my small prison came, I could hardly believe it. I was accompanied by girls who were dancing vigorously instead of guards. I danced with him and I faked my smile all through.

 After taking a lot of drinks my husband was now so drunk some guards assisted me carry him to our room. I used the chance and excused myself to go pee. I had spotted a dark spot behind the room and immediately I was no longer visible, I jumped through the fence and ran as fast as a monsoon wind, I did not feel tired until I was several miles away when I stopped to breath. I looked behind and I could see them looking for me and following my path. They were using fire for light. I knew I had to keep running till I reached anywhere safe. Dary had gone back to the town where he worked as a mechanic and I knew I must get to him because he was the only one ready to help me. It would take me like three days to reach him,. Meanwhile I was to hide myself never to be seen by anyone until I left the village. That first day after several hours of running knew it should be approaching morning and I had to hide till evening. I climbed a tall tree and spent the day there. I saw many people pass by, others were even talking about me, some were merciful to me while others were saying I was stupid to leave such a rich man.at night fall I descended and continued with my journey, before this I was a coward I could walk alone at night but now it didn’t matter what I feared, I had to be either dead or with Dary.

 Three days three nights I could finally see some lights, I knew I was getting to him and I moved even faster than before, I needed him so much. I approached his garage some hours before morning; I stayed at the gate since I didn’t know where he lived. He came early to open up; I guess he had been sent by the angels to come rescue me. “Dary” I called in a soft weak voice. He turned to me so slowly, then I could see his sweet smile, he was dark and had some well-built muscles, girls always admired him and that made me fall for him the more. He lifted me up and hugged me as tight as before, I knew he was the man for me and wished we could be together all our lives. He took me to his house, did some therapy on my bruises and for once I felt true love, we sat by the bed and talked I told him all I went through in tears and he caressed assuringly, then kissed me for the first time on my lips, then deeper, i was so lost in desire and gave myself to him. Afterward I took a very deep sleep. He went to work while I slept then later came back to check on me. Little did he know he was being followed. Devils are indeed fallen angels; they had been spying on Dary and now doubted I would be with him.

 They followed him to the house, immediately he arrived and started talking to me they broke the door and came in a guard first then my husband Mr.Chelong, he laughed again then said “you are mine and this act will not go unpunished, kill him!” They went for Dary, the three guards who came with him. I stretched my hand slowly to reach Dary’s wheel spanner and quickly knocked Chelong (my doom) on the forehead he fell down dead and looking behind me was blood ,my lover had be cut on the throat ,he looked at me as he slowly died I screamed as the guards came for my throat too. I died beside my lover happily I had killed the cause. Love is good but sometimes dangerous, Goodbye to love, goodbye planet earth. I gave up my spirit