Her assuring smile

I must be overthinking, maybe they just know eachother because they're in same class last year. Yes it's most likely to be that. Kelvin will never like someone who's a complete dumbo with nerdy glasses. But why do they smile whenever they look at eachother? I'm seriously getting crazy thinking about them.

My train of thoughts got intruppted by my Susan.

"Hazel? You alright? Oh please don't tell me you were thinking about them again"

"What the heck are you talking about? I was just thinking about how to bully Clara today. You got any ideas?" I asked shoving all the thoughts away.

"Really? Well I have some leftover assignments to complete. And I'm lazy you see. So? Let's do what should be done."Susan said with a smirk.

"Roger." I said with the widest smile.I was in class getting all bored, because our only entertainment Clara was absent today. Susan was busy doing her assignment. Kelvin was in bad mood who knows why. I tried asking but he only gave me a cold shoulder. So I decided to not to irritate him anymore and silently started doodling on my sheets. Ofcourse no one focus on lectures here.

Finally it was recess, I tried asking Kelvin to eat with me but he ignored me again. I asked his best friend Tom about what's going on.

"Hey Tom! Is Kelvin alright?"

"Umm, I guess you should ask yourself about that matter"

"Oh, I guess he's jealous because I was hanging out with David. Right?" So he actually does like me. And there was thinking about him and Clara loving eachother. I should have known, after all I'm the perfect match for Kel-

"You remember what you did yesterday? And you still have sense to say that I might be jealous" Suddenly Kelvin spatted from my back with the most angriest voice ever. Kelvin is not the type that gets mad for no reason. He is the calmest guy among all. He never loses his cool, although he sometimes gets cheeky and goofy. His looks were superior, he had golden eyes with brownish tint in them. Sharp jawline, thin lips perfect nose that fitted his face. Actually everything was perfect about him, maybe that's why I liked him. No, I liked him because he was always the one to look up for me. When everyone called me 'bitch' who don't care about other's feelings. He always fought for me, because he understood me. But now those beautiful golden eyes were fuming in anger. His jaw was clenched. His looks said what.. something like disappointment.

"C'mon Kelvin calm down alright. I know you were jealous but now you are scaring the hell out of me." I tried to say without stuttering.

"Oh please Hazel. Let me make it clear for you, I was not jealous of anyone. I'm mad at you." He said trying to control his anger.

"You were mad at me? For what? What I even did to you?" I asked with a little amusement. Like hell he can ever get mad at me. He would never. Well that's what I thought.

"Hazel.. Hazel.. Hazel, so you're not aware of the shit you did. Let me recall you, you and your stupid gang made Clara jump into swimming pool and entertained yourself for freaking half an hour. Seriously? That girl is in hospital damn it." His angered aroused as soon as those came out from his mouth.

"So? Why do you care about that? What's with you and her? Huh? Tell me. Why.do.you.care.so.much?!!" I asked with anger all written on my face. Why? Why is he suddenly putting her over me?

"I will only say this one last time, stay away from Clara." Those were the last words, then he rushed out of the campus. I couldn't swallow all these at once. First thing first Kelvin was mad at me for the very first time. He never got mad at me. He actually never stopped from bulling anyone or doing anything else. No matter what I do he supported my doings. Secondly, the reason of him getting mad at me is that stupid nerd with big glasses and oval face and with no jawline and with no figure at all. He got mad because I bullied that Clara. So there's something between them because I have never seen Kelvin getting this furious. Especially with me.

After few days, I was hanging out with my ladies. To be honest, I don't like any of them. They are just with me for my expensive gifts and never ending popularity. But I don't care about money and fame, actually I hate these. It's because of money, reputation and fame that my parents are not my parents. They are just machines with endless working and no feeling at all. They want me to take on the company after my father's retirement. But here comes the difficult part, that I want to be a fashion designer. I want to be with Kelvin, I want to do fashion designing with him. My parents will never accept that, well it's nothing new they never accept anything of my choice so it's kinda normal for me. They say 'If you don't want to fulfill our wishes you should have born as a boy, so that we could have relied on you. But here you are showing all tantrums even after giving you so much. Sending you to the elite school, bringing you all the elite dresses to wear, giving you money to flex with your friends.' but they just don't get that none of these was my choice.

"Learn some manners bitch" I was taunting to my special guest. Clara ofcourse for bumping into me from nowhere.

"A-am sorry, Ha-hazel." She said collecting all her courage.

"Nevermind, just get out of my way." I wanted to say something else. Something like apology. But my ego was still getting the best of me. But why should I apologise? Afterall it was her mistake to show up with Kelvin everytime. But why does her eyes try to console me? Why whenever I look at her eyes I found myself getting lost in those light brown eyes with big eyelashes. It's like they say to me 'Everything will be alright'.

"Wait!" I said hastily looking at her fading figure. Although she was already too far to listen. What I was I even going to do by stopping her? Was I going to ask her how calm she can be after I did so much to her? How can she still give me a warm smile? Deep down I knew what I did was wrong, but I wasn't actually brave enough to apologise so let my ego cover it up for me.

Passing by a empty classroom. I saw them hugging eachother, Kelvin and Clara. They were looking happy, looking perfect as if they complete eachother's lackness. Looking at Clara closely made me realise she was quite pretty. Pretty enough for Kelvin. Her smile was pure, innocent not like mine one. Mine is filled with the pain that I suffered since childhood and with the pain I give others. Everyone appreciated me because of my beauty and fashion. And those who defied my beauty over my mean heart, I tried my best to make their life hell. I believe I'm special so everyone must please me. Ofcourse those with talent and beauty are the only special ones, there's no place for bookworms.

Ignoring them, I went to backside of the campus to calm my mind. I lighted my cigarette was going to smoke,

"Y-you should not s-smoke, it's bad for your health" A blonde girl said, trying to look elsewhere but not at me.

"Who are you miss?" I said with a questioning look on my face and smirking at the same time.

"Am sorry" She bowed and ran away.

Am I that scary to them? Well, who cares.

I smoked thinking about Kelvin.

Is there anything wrong with me? I can see I'm the most beautiful woman here. With the wealthiest family and I'm talented too. Why is he going after a nerd? Who lack in everything. I never saw her participate in anything. She always wear baggy clothes with big glasses. Her hair is like a nest for birds. To be honest, if we work on her she's a beauty.

My train of thoughts again got intruppted by someone,

"Hazel, can we a chat? Please."

I looked up and found Clara looking directly into my eyes. I was out of energy so I lazily agreed.

"Say" I said with a sigh.

"Hazel, I know you don't like me. Because me and Kelvin are in a relationship. And you like Kelvin. I will never ask you to give up on something you are chasing. I will never stop you from chasing him. Instead we can be good friends, only if you want." She looking away. This is what I hate in her the most, this is exactly why I'm jealous of her. Her charm, how can she try to look this sweet everytime. How can she be pull on that kinda assuring smile without a effort. I hate her because she has no hidden side unlike me. She's true to herself and everyone else, purely true. But I can't fall in her intimidating eyes.

"Whatever, no one wants to be your friend. If you want Kelvin keep him. And what are you telling me to do? Huh? To be friends with you after all this. After bullying you regularly since you came here. It's late, we can't be friends let's try to ignore eachother." I said trying no to look at her eyes.

"It's not late Hazel, it's never late for doing something good. For making bonds, bonds and relationships are gifts of good. If he ever provides you with such beautiful gifts you should kindly accept them, without thinking much. Let's start from start alright? Hey! I'm Clara Robinson. What's your name?." She said being all excited. I laughed at her efforts of acting. I still don't know why I accept the offer. It was a matter of a second, something came in my mind that I need her.

"Hazel. Hazel Linton." I said accepting her hand and her offer.

Then we both chatted a little. She was still scared of me, but managed her fear. I felt a warm feeling in my heart. I felt relaxed with her. A feeling that I never actually felt. A feeling that's hard to describe, kinda like mother's embrace. She felt just like that.

After few months,

"Hey, stay away from her" I shouted at Kelvin who was trying to keep his hands on Clara's little waist.

"Excuse me? She's my girlfriend. Who do you think you're ordering around?" He said smirking at me. I wish I could wipe that smirk off his face. Jerk.

"Whatever, whoever you're. I don't care. I want you to stay atleast 3 cm away from her, or else I will cut you into thin pieces, boil them and serve them to my dogs." I said with anger all written on my face. Don't get me wrong, but this time is different. I'm jealous of Kelvin not Clara. Kelvin always try bug us whenever we get free time to chat. I wanted her to listen to me and my problems and give me that assuring smile. I want her attention. I was whining like a child to get her mom's attention.

"Few months ago I was making a fuss about their relationship because I was jealous of Clara. Now, I'm making a big fuss because I'm jealous of Kelvin."