Memory Lane

Dear love,

I have something to tell you.

Greeks believed that people are made up of two bodies in which Zeus split into two and let the both of them wander on how and when they will meet each other. It is not what I imagine for myself, really, it's not because it is far from it but because I never really imagined myself finding my other half and feel the essence of being in love, that tinglibg feeking you feel whenever the right one comes across you. Never.

Not until you came and turned my world upside down.

Until you came, it was when you came that I've experienced the feeling of being in cloud nine. It was when you came that I feel like it's not really bad to try on something new, like adding more sugar to my black coffee. It was when you came that I've made every memory of us into treasured golds. Slowly, then all at once.

Do you remember the time when we first encounter each other? You thought that it was stupid of you to drop that g-tech pen of yours while taking the test and you need to borrow one because the pen you've protecting for so long was not working anymore. I wish I thought I was that pen, you know? For some reason that wish somehow came true, and it happens to be me, perhaps I was the closest to you and you had no choice but the big deal was, you never brought it back! I feel kike I have something to own in you even in a form of a ballpen. Is this a crush, maybe? But what we don't know was, it was just the beginning of our story. Our story that the both of us want to last like how I love you in Korean, saranghae, means, let's love until we die together.

Do you remember when you confessed your true feelings to me? I thought it was just a prank you're trying to pull off but little did I know you're really being serious so the shallow me just shrugged it off and walk away. I wasn't able to pick the signs and I guess my luck ran out.

Do you remember when I ignored you for that? You thought I rejected you but really, I was so shocked and my emotions was messed up to even say a word in front of you. Boy, I'm realizing all the signs a bit too late.

Do you remember the time I finally answered "yes"? I thought your feelings have already fade because of the stare you gave me that time but what I missed just as I turned my back was you were already grinning like an idiot and you hugged me more than I expected you to and we both swear to be the happiest couple on earth.

Do you remember our first date as a couple? Not just friends, or maybe best friends who often eat at the fast food restaurants because that's the only restaurant our money, or should I say your money, because you always treat me and never let me pay, could afford. You thought that it was only you who felt that weird chills and then I confessed that I am feeling the same way because you're a big ball of fluff that I really love. We both felt those tingling chills in our spine. How inlove are we.

Do you remember our first fight? I thought that you would leave me after that but you said sorry for screaming at me, you even promised me that it would never happen again and we both said the sincerest I love you's there could be. And promises are meant to be broken.

Do you remember our first anniversary? You thought that I forgot it since I didn't greet you at the morning like I always do during our hundred days or monthsary. Later then that you realized that I planned a surprise for you, with the help of your dork friends, because it was your birthday too.

Do you remember when we promise each other forever? That time we both thought that from that moment on, nothing could separate us because you will be my king and I'll be your queen. And promises are meant to be broken.

Do you remember the time you said I love you like it was the last? I thought that you're pulling some prank on me again and I just laughed it off and said the sweetest goodnight and I love you.

Do you remember the time you said that you'll take care and love me as long as long as you live? You thought it was stupid of you to be cheesy but it sent shivers to my body and I need to remind myself that this was one of the few reasons why I love you. 

I remembered all of that. Even though our relationship was not the perfect one, well, nothing was really perfect in this world but your existence alone was perfect already. Then I remembered, in that very moment that promises are meant to be broken.

Do you remember the time we broke up? It was pure sadness. Sad to know that the person I'm letting go was the very person whom I spent every hour, minute, and second of my life. That the very person I'm letting go was the very person whom I spent what I thought was the best of best experience there could be. But it was all just a thought, a one chance at love. We started off very inlove, slowly, everything was like a daily routine, then all at once, love faded. But there is one thing I'm really sure of; I loved you enough to let you go.

Greeks believed that people are made up of two bodies in which Zeus split into two and let the both of them wander on how and when they will meet each other. But it's not what I imagine for myself, because I never really imagined myself falling in love. Never.

Maybe, in another lifetime.

Yours truly,

Love