The Locked Door

Where the hell am I? Why can I not see anything? HELP, HELP,HELP!!! Why can no one hear me? That smell, what's that smell? That smell is very familiar but I can not put my finger on it. It's sweet but yet a tangy smell. Lord are you listening? Is this a dream? What is my name? I am so confused, I can not remember anything. Am I dead? That's it, I must be dead. How did I die I wonder. Did I leave behind a family? Flowers? That smell reminds me of flowers. What kind of flowers? Hmm not sure but it is very familiar. Why is everything so dark? Lord I am scared, can you please help me? I am screaming but yet I can not hear myself. I am looking but yet I can not see myself. This has to be a night mare, ya that is it, I will wake up soon in a cold sweat laughing that this was all just a dream. Oh my goodness, I just realized I don't even know if I am a male or female. This has to be death, what else could confuse a person like this? I am a person, aren't I? I must be on some kind of drug. Ya that has to be it, I must have taken some acid, ya and this is just a real bad trip. Tommy? who said that? Is that my name? Am I a male? Oh god I am so confused. I know I heard someone say Tommy, it could not have been a figment of my imagination, or could it? Wait there it is again, I heard it plain as day, someone said Tommy.

"Tommy I love you" , see I heard that, now I know someone is near. Who are they talking to? Wait! That smell, I think I remember now, That's Helen's perfume. Helen, yes Helen my wife. I remember now, Helen is my wife. HELEN! HELEN CAN YOU HEAR ME? Why is she not answering me? Oh Helen please help me I am scared. Helen I remember you now, your my wife. We fell in love back in high school twenty years ago. I remember when I proposed to you on a hot and breezy summers night by the lake side. Your eyes of blue looked in to mine like I was the hero in your life. Your upper pearly white teeth was clenched to your lower lip like you were a kid waiting to open a gift on Christmas morning. I could see the anticipation in your expression as we both gazed at the moon dancing off of the still water. I could never forget the soft breeze that would gently brush your beautiful blond hair across your forehead. Yes I remember now Helen, I remember you so clearly now. What happened? Did I die and leave you? I want to see you so badly, I want to touch you and hold you like I use to when a stormy night would scare you into my arms like I was the only person in the world that could save you. My heart hurts to hear you cry, I am right here Helen, Can't you see me? I can hear you cry, please don't cry I am right here. I will figure this out. Remember that night you made me promise that I would never leave you? That night you lost your mother in that horrible car accident? I held you for hours while your tears soaked my shirt. You held on to me and would not let me go. I did not lie to you Helen, I will never leave you! What? Who's voice was that Helen? What is that man saying? Did I just hear him right? He said it was time for you to let me go. Wait! Let me go? Why in the hell would he say that?

" Sorry Tommy, I love you. You will always be my one and only."

Helen what the hell are you saying that for?

" I am sorry ma'am but its time to unplug the machine"

No! Don't listen to that mans voice Helen, I am right here, I am still here! HELEN, HELEN IAM RIGHT HERE, HELEN I CAN HEAR YOU! I CAN SMELL YOU, PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO!!!

Oh my god, I remember now. I had a gun in my hands. someone was shooting at me. That's right someone was shooting at me while I was running after them. It was a crook. That's it I was a cop, I was working a case of a missing girl. I stumbled on some information about a local tattoo artist that was caught with nude pictures of that little girl that had went missing. I was close to getting him. That's right I promised you I would get that man. That man had our daughter, OH god That was my daughter, I got to get out of here, I have to go get my daughter! That mans getting away and I am the only hope for our little girl. Dear God Help Me please! HELEN, HELEN please don't let them unplug me! I am still here, its like I am behind a locked door! Just give me a little longer I will get out I promise! Please wait, remember we always said we would never say goodbye to each other? Remember we said we would never give up on each other? I need you now more than I have ever needed anything or anyone in my entire life, our daughter needs you.

It's happening. I can feel myself fading, I have to try and hold on. God please help me hold on. The smell of flowers, mmm the smell of flowers oh how sweet the smell of flowers. Lord I am trying to hold on but the smell of sweet flowers are taking me away. Got to hold on, got to make it out of this nightmare. Helen don't let...