The Red Line

There are so many books I want to read, so many songs I want to listen to, both for the first and seventh times.

I love to read, collect books, and write them.

I love my favorite music artists, and their songs. I listen to them on repeat whenever I can.

I try to keep track of everything, make it all make sense, but I never can.

My playlists are chaotic, I listen to a variety of genres and artists, so different that people don't believe I like them too.

From Big Time Rush to 6arelyhuman, and Arctic Monkeys to Alec Benjamin.

From Dog Man, to Spy School, and The Last Kids On Earth to The Book Thief.

Okay, my book genres aren't that different if I put it that way. Well, they aren't that different actually.

My taste in anime and manga is though.

From One Piece to Maid Sama, and Bungou Stray Dogs to InuYasha.

Every genre, anything at all, as long as it's interesting, I will love.

Horrormovies, Rebzyyx, Luvwillow, 6arelyhuman, SUICIDAL-IDOL, Skypebf, Maxo Xoxo, KANEDA7, Hoshie Star, Big Time Rush, Conan Gray, Alec Benjamin, Cigarettes After Sex, Lana Del Rey, Thomas LaRosa, 5 Seconds Of Summer, Arctic Monkeys, Mother Mother, Nirvana, Måneskin, The Neighbourhood, Beauty School Dropout, Ghost, Hatsune Miku, Megurine Luka, HIMEHINA, oh how the list continues.

Captain Underpants, Dog Man, The Bad Guys, The Last Kids On Earth, Spy School, Ophie's Ghosts, The Girl Who Drank The Moon, Don't Let In The Cold, The Book Thief, No Longer Human, I Fell In Love With Hope, The Midnight Library, you get the idea.

Naruto, Iron Blooded Orphans, Bleach, Demon Slayer, One Piece, Chainsaw Man, Soul Eater, InuYasha, Tokyo Ghoul, Seven deadly Sins, My Love Story With Yamada-Kun At Lv. 999, Ouran High School Host Club, Maid Sama, Kamisama Kiss, Deadman Wonderland, Death Parade, Fire Force, Haikyuu, Kuroku's Basketball, Durarara, Toradora, My Hero Academia, Code Geass, Violet Evergarden, Bungou Stray Dogs, The Promised Neverland, My Neighbor Totoro, Spirited Away, Jujutsu Kaisen, Moriarty The Patriot, Dr. Stone, Hell's Paradise, Dorohedoro, and there's more!

I have a different hyperfixation every month, week, day, hour, it constantly changes.

I like kid shows like The Amazing World Of Gumball, Adventure Time, and Regular Show, but I also like Dr. House, and . . . and . . .

I also forget things a lot.

I like to make jokes about dumb theories, like it's not possible that tall people exist because there's no way someone can be that tall, and how short people aren't real if they're not young because, some dumb reason I came up with that day. I say random things, and half of the time I have no idea what I say.

I love anything and everything.

I also dislike anything and everything.

I see a mini notebook at the store, and I love it so much I already have the perfect story to match, but then it has a little design in the corner and it ruins the mood completely.

I never know what I'm going to think next.

Of course, I do think before I act.

Most of the time.

I try to anyway.

Anyhow, I love being anything and everything.

Back when I was Genderfluid, I felt like a god. Not literally.

I could choose and be whatever I wanted, and everyone was supportive!

Then, I became Demiboy with a hint of Abrosexual.

I never know what I feel like, but I'm mainly a boy. Femboy, I guess. I act like all my girl friends.

I also get to like whoever I want. Sometimes, I don't care about gender, or don't even notice it, so there's the Pansexual, but other times, I care about it, so there's the Omnisexual.

The two Ficto's come from my love of anime and books. Sometimes, fictional people are what you need the most. To me, anyway.

I understand how people think differently than me, and sometimes don't like how I act, but what can I do?

I act like a five year old that just ate five tons of candy sometimes, but other times, I act like a fancy person you see on TV talking like they're in a historical book.

I care and I don't care, I act silly then responsible.

My personality type is even ISTP!

According to Google, "ISTP is an acronym to describe one of the 16 personality types created by Katharine Briggs and Isabel Myers. It stands for Introverted, Sensing, Thinking and Perceiving. An ISTP is energized by spending time alone and having quality time with people they care about."

I do like being alone, sometimes, but other times I hate it and I want to talk to someone.

I notice small things, like the change in a person's voice, where their eyes are glancing at, certain little habits they have, stuff like that.

Yet I can't remember that I have math homework, or what we learned in class a year ago. I can't tell if an event happened today or yesterday, because my mind doesn't have a timeline.

I can pay attention without paying attention, get good grades on things I didn't study for, somehow answer one of those questions a teacher asks you when they think you're not paying attention, but I can't remember my friend's birthdays! I can remember so many Bungou Stray Dogs characters birthdays (Jan 19 Poe, Feb 4 Gin, Mar 1 Aku, Mar 10? Karl, Mar 15 Tecchou, Apr 1 Nikolai, Apr 29 Chuuya, May 5 Atsushi, Jun 19 Dazai, Oct 21 Ranpo, Nov 4 Kyouka, Nov 8 Bram, Nov 11 Fyodor, and Dec 7 Yosano), but not people in real life's birthdays!

I mean, sure, I wrote down their birthdays, but BSD is my everyday reference, and I recite their birthdays daily.

I think I'm obsessed.

But that's okay, because I know my limits.

The red line is my limit.

It's the point where I can't remember my friends' names, or what they like, or when I met them.

My friends are always there for me, and I want to be there for them as much as I can.

The red line is when I cast them away.

I hope I never reach the red line.