Leo believed the world was drowning in stories, and he was the man selling the buckets.
The apartment reeked of yesterday's coffee and something sour that might have been the takeout containers piled beside the sink. Books climbed the walls like ivy, their spines cracked and faded from a decade of neglect. The desk where he once crafted what critics called "a luminous debut" now held nothing but invoices for his latest marketing campaigns. Copy for toilet paper. Headlines for diet supplements. Words stripped of meaning, sold by the pound.
The laptop screen glowed with the familiar interface of The Gilded Quill website. Clean lines. Elegant typography. A photograph of his younger self, back when hope still lived in his eyes, gazed out from the "About the Curator" section. Below it, testimonials from literary blogs he'd never heard of praised his "discerning eye" and "commitment to emerging voices."
Leo's reflection in the black screen showed a different man entirely. Forty-seven years old, with stubble that spoke of too many mornings when shaving felt pointless. His novel, "The Weight of August," had sold eight hundred copies. The number lived in his chest like a splinter.
He refreshed the submissions page. Three hundred and twelve entries this week. Each writer had paid five dollars for the privilege of being ignored. Leo's Python script sat in a folder labeled "Random Generator," three lines of code that had made him more money than his novel ever would.
The phone buzzed. A text from his landlord about rent. Leo closed the message without reading it fully and opened a new browser tab. The online forums buzzed with anticipation. Writers dissected previous winners, searching for patterns that didn't exist. They spoke of "The Gilded Quill Standard" with religious reverence.
One post caught his attention: "Has anyone noticed the statistical oddities in the winner selections? I'm starting to track data." The username was DataDriven_Priya.
Leo snorted. Some people saw conspiracies everywhere. He closed the browser and leaned back in his chair. The radiator coughed like an old dog. Through the thin walls, he could hear his neighbor playing the same Chopin nocturne she'd been practicing for months. Still hitting the wrong notes in the third movement.
Tomorrow was selection day. His script would choose another dreamer, and he'd transfer another five hundred dollars he couldn't afford to give away. But the monthly subscription fees from hopeful writers more than covered the prize money. Hope, it turned out, was the most renewable resource in the world.
He'd built his empire on the certainty that nobody's writing mattered. That talent was just another word for luck. That the whole literary world was nothing but a carnival where everyone pretended the games weren't rigged.
Leo Marks had become the ringmaster of his own private joke, and every Tuesday, the punchline paid his bills.
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The email arrived on a Thursday morning while Leo was eating cereal from a chipped bowl. The subject line read: "Invitation to Discuss Your Curatorial Process - The Sub-Text Writing Group."
He almost deleted it. Fan mail always made him uncomfortable, especially when it came from groups with names that sounded like they'd analyzed his work with spreadsheets. But boredom won. He opened the message.
"Dear Mr. Marks," it began. "We represent a collective of serious writers who have been following The Gilded Quill with great interest. Your ability to identify exceptional voices has become legendary in our community. We would be honored if you would join us for a live-streamed discussion about your selection process. Our members are eager to learn from your expertise."
The flattery was thick enough to spread on toast. Leo read it twice. At the bottom, a woman named Jane Rivers had signed as "Coordinator, The Sub-Text." Below her name, a list of credentials that made his stomach tighten: PhD in Literature, formerly with The Paris Review, currently teaching at Northwestern.
Real writers. Ones who mattered.
Leo drafted three different replies before settling on casual acceptance. Of course he'd love to share his insights. Always happy to help emerging voices find their way.
The video call was scheduled for the following Tuesday, just after the weekly winner announcement. Perfect timing, Jane had noted. They could discuss his latest selection while it was fresh.
Leo spent the weekend crafting vague responses about "intuitive recognition" and "the ineffable quality of authentic voice." He practiced in the mirror, testing different angles for his webcam. The books behind his desk would suggest depth. The coffee mug would imply accessibility.
Tuesday arrived gray and humid. Leo ran his script at exactly nine AM, same as always. The winner: "The Color of Forgetting" by Trish Vance. He posted the announcement without opening the file and transferred the prize money to the account she'd provided.
At seven PM, he joined the video call. Twelve faces filled his screen, arranged in neat rectangles like a digital jury. Jane Rivers smiled from the center frame, her background a wall of perfectly organized bookshelves.
"Leo, thank you so much for joining us. We're absolutely thrilled."
The first twenty minutes went smoothly. Leo pontificated about the sacred relationship between curator and artist. He spoke of writing that "sang with authenticity" and "pierced the veil of ordinary experience." The faces nodded appreciatively.
Then Priya Sangar, introduced as a data scientist and fiction writer, cleared her throat.
"Leo, I hope you don't mind, but I've been conducting some analysis of your selections." Her screen switched to a presentation slide. "I've tracked every winner from the past eighteen months."
Leo's coffee went cold in his throat.
"The patterns are fascinating," Priya continued. Her charts bloomed across the shared screen like accusations. "Genre distribution is perfectly random. Word counts follow no discernible preference curve. Even the quality metrics I've applied show no correlation with selection frequency."
The other faces had stopped smiling.
"It's almost," Priya said, her voice carrying the weight of mathematical certainty, "as if the selections aren't curated at all."
The silence stretched like a held breath. Leo felt sweat gathering at his hairline. The chat window beside the video exploded with messages. Names he recognized from months of contest entries. Writers who'd paid him to ignore their work.
Jane Rivers leaned forward. "That's quite an accusation, Priya."
"It's not an accusation. It's data." Priya's next slide showed probability curves that looked like mountain ranges. "The statistical likelihood of these patterns emerging from human curation is approximately zero-point-zero-zero-three percent."
Leo's mouth had gone dry. He could confess now. Tell them about the script, the randomness, the beautiful simplicity of his fraud. But Trish Vance's name glowed on his desktop screen. The Color of Forgetting. A woman he'd never heard of who'd just won five hundred dollars and a feature on his website based on a story he'd never read.
"These are serious allegations," he managed.
"Then prove us wrong," Jane said. Her smile had vanished. "You announced this week's winner just before our call. Trish Vance, 'The Color of Forgetting.' You've had the story for a week. Surely you can discuss what made it exceptional."
The chat erupted again. Dozens of contestants demanding answers. Some defending him, others calling for transparency. Leo watched the messages scroll past like his reputation dissolving in real time.
"Read it," said a voice from one of the smaller video windows. "Read it aloud. Show us your brilliant curatorial eye at work."
The suggestion rippled through the group. Other voices joined in. "Yes, read it." "Prove you've actually read our work." "Show us what genius looks like."
A younger man in the bottom corner shook his head. "This feels like a witch hunt. Maybe we should give him a chance to explain."
"Explain what?" Jane's voice cut sharp. "The math doesn't lie, Isaac."
Leo stared at the unopened file on his desktop. His cursor hovered over it like a sword above his neck. He could refuse. End the call. Delete the website. Disappear into the anonymous masses of failed writers where he belonged.
But Trish Vance's name sat there, innocent and trusting. She'd wake up tomorrow believing a respected literary curator had chosen her work above hundreds of others. His confession would destroy that. Would brand her as the accidental winner of a rigged game.
"All right," he said. The words came out like gravel. "I'll read it."
Leo opened the file with the resignation of a man facing execution. The document bloomed on his screen: twelve pages, double-spaced, Times New Roman. Standard manuscript format. The title sat centered at the top like a gravestone inscription.
He cleared his throat and began.
"The Color of Forgetting, by Trish Vance." His voice carried the flat tone of a man reading his own obituary. "Samuel Whittemore had been fixing clocks for forty-three years when he realized he was losing time."
The first paragraph unfolded like a trap closing around Leo's cynicism. By the second, his sarcasm had begun to falter. The prose moved with the precision of clockwork, each sentence building toward something larger than itself. Samuel wasn't just a clockmaker. He was every man who'd ever watched his life tick away in increments too small to notice until they were gone.
Leo's voice softened despite himself. The story pulled him deeper with each line. Samuel's workshop, filled with broken timepieces waiting for resurrection. The way morning light caught the dust motes floating through his window. The gradual realization that his own memories were slipping away like sand through an hourglass.
The chat window had gone silent. The video grid showed twelve faces transfixed, their initial anger dissolved into something approaching wonder. Leo found himself leaning into the microphone, his voice gaining strength as he read about Samuel's desperate attempt to capture time itself, to hold onto the moments that mattered before they faded into the gray uniformity of forgetting.
"He opened the old grandfather clock in his living room," Leo read, "and found his father's war medals nestled inside the pendulum chamber, wrapped in tissue paper that crumbled at his touch. The bronze caught the lamplight like captured starfire, and Samuel remembered the weight of them in his small hands forty years ago, the day his father never came home from the parade."
Leo's voice cracked. He paused, swallowed hard, and continued. The story wasn't just about memory. It was about the terrible beauty of losing what you love, about the way grief becomes a companion that follows you through decades, changing shape but never leaving.
When Samuel finally succumbed to the forgetting, when the clocks in his shop fell silent one by one, Leo felt something break loose in his chest. Something that had been frozen there for a decade. He read the final paragraph with tears streaming down his face, his voice barely above a whisper.
"Time, Samuel understood at last, was not something to be captured or repaired. It was something to be honored in its passing, like a prayer spoken into darkness, like love offered without hope of return."
Leo finished and sat in absolute silence. The story hung in the digital air between them like a revelation. Nobody spoke. The chat window remained empty. Even the sound of his own breathing seemed too loud.
Finally, Jane Rivers broke the silence. "My God."
Leo looked into his webcam, his face wet with tears he hadn't expected. "The story," he said, his voice rough with emotion, "is perfect. It's better than perfect. It's the kind of writing that makes you remember why words matter."
He took a shuddering breath. "And I never read it. Not until just now. I never read any of them."
The confession spilled out of Leo like blood from a wound. He told them about the script, the randomness, the bitter satisfaction of proving that literary merit meant nothing. He explained how his own failure had curdled into this elaborate joke, this monument to his certainty that talent was just another lottery ticket.
"I built this whole thing to prove that none of it matters," he said. "That it's all just luck and timing and who you know. But somehow, by pure chance, I found the one voice that deserves to be heard."
The video call ended in shouting. Screenshots appeared on social media before Leo could close his laptop. Within hours, his name trended alongside words like "fraud" and "scam." The Gilded Quill website buckled under traffic from outraged writers sharing the story of their betrayal.
Literary blogs published retrospectives on his forgotten novel, dissecting every review with new malice. Podcasts devoted episodes to his downfall. A class-action lawsuit materialized by Thursday. Writers demanded their entry fees back, plus damages for emotional distress.
Trish Vance, meanwhile, became a sensation. Publishers flooded her inbox. Agents called at all hours. The story Leo had discovered by accident became the most-discussed piece of fiction online that year.
Within three months, the legal bills had consumed Leo's savings, the landlord had changed his locks, and the only job he could find that didn't require references was pulling espresso shots for people who recognized his name from the headlines. The coffee shop smelled of burned beans and industrial cleaner. The espresso machine hissed like an angry cat, and Leo's apron bore permanent stains from his clumsy first weeks. The hiss of steam became the soundtrack to his exile.
The package arrived on a Tuesday, delivered to the coffee shop because Leo's apartment had been repossessed. His manager signed for it with a suspicious glare, as if expecting more legal documents. Leo waited until his break to open it, sitting on a milk crate behind the dumpster where the alley smelled of grease and rain. Inside was a hardcover book: "The Color of Forgetting and Other Stories" by Trish Vance. The cover was elegant, understated. A clock face dissolving into watercolor.
Leo opened it with trembling hands. On the title page, in careful handwriting: "To Leo. You had to burn down the library, but you saved one book. Thank you."
Tucked between the pages of her story was a check for five dollars, made out to him. Her entry fee, returned with interest earned over six months.
That evening, Leo sat at the small desk in his studio apartment and opened his laptop. For the first time in ten years, he created a new document. The cursor blinked patiently in the white space, waiting.
He began to type.
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Another fantastic story from you Jim. I love how the cynicism breaks away as Leo discovers the beauty of the story he's chosen. A tale for all of us who maybe think our voices will never be heard. Lovely stuff!
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This was a great story you write in a way that no word is wasted way to go!
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I believe you are the winner every week.
Thanks for liking 'Smell of Death'
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Thank you. I definitely don’t feel like a winner every week, but encouragement like yours keeps me going.
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Jim, this is unforgettable! What a story. I love how Leo's cynicism dissolves in the face of a glorious story. Impeccable, vivid descriptions too. Impeccable work!
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Thanks again for reading and your comments that I always look forward to!
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At first, I wanted to write: 'That is quite an accusation, Priya…' - and no one could have done it better. When I saw the title “The Color of Forgetting,” I almost believed it was just another random piece, destined to be forgotten. But you surprised me with the depth of the winning story and the contrasting fates of the curator and the writer.
Not only sharp and critical, this is also a tale about how what must be revealed always finds its way to the light. I wish for your unique voice to find its rightful place, with the exposure and influence it deserves.
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This is the kind of encouragement that keeps me writing. Thank you for seeing something in it.
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