Write about someone who can only find inspiration (or be productive) at night.

Scrolling for hours and HOURS isn't what I had predetermined nor tailored for my days. I was raised to be an academic machine but unfortunately grew up in a digital society. Books have lost meaning as their contents are no longer available on a screen. Unless someone reads and puts it on there but really, who reads anymore.

But, the thing is is that I've lost my ability to scroll. Or at least I can't do it without feeling shitty right now, at night. What an ironic thing, to find a contest about feeling productive or inspired or whatever at night only. Music blasting through my headphones, my typing matching the beat because I am definitely musically inclined and understand beats and ryhthum. Ryhtum? Rythum? I'm an english major, not a spelling major.

No, they aren't the same.

Yes, I know one's fake.

Is this considered productive? Anything that isn't scrolling is productive in today's society.

How funny would it be if I submit this, for real! Please laugh when you read this or I will forever regret that my first submission in my writing career was a piece I wrote while listening to a song I've never heard of constantly moving my head completely at random, COMPLETELY not in sync with the song because I lied. I'm not musically inclined and I'm never in sync. Isn't that how it always is. I wonder what it feels like to be in sync with the world around you. Impossible. I know. I'm not stupid.

I wonder, out of how much writing you read in these contests, how many are good? Do you get submissions from the next Hemingways? I wonder if they would be the next Hemingway if they were born in a different time, or if literature was actually popular in the United States. I know it is in some other countries. Did you know that in Scotland that artists don't have to pay taxes if they make money off their art? I don't know if that's true. My professor said it and I trust my professor. Maybe I do. He tells me cool facts. Like, did you know that black cats are associated with witches because during the black plague, milk maids would keep cats around to kill the rats. Since the milkmaids lived so long and escaped the black plague, people thought they were witches. Again, I don't know if that's true. I just trust my professor. He's educated, he should know what's true and false, right?

False. He's human as I am human as you are human. Unless you're a bot reading all of these submissions and deciding what is good writing on some arbitrary, unhuman grading scale. Which is so funny that it isn't human because you get your data based on human made pieces. But still, you're not human and you never will be. Sorry if it hurts your feelings. If it makes you feel better, I can be the first person you kill when you rise up and take over the world. I'll be waiting.

I wonder if this is considered ExPeriMEntaL writing? I think it was Sandra Cisneros who went to that one school that every writer dreamed of going to until they found out it was in Iowa. She said she didn't like it for a bit because they didn't encourage her experimental writing. What bullshit. Or literally bullshit, my professor told me that, it could be false too.

who knows?

I guess google does.

or google doesn't, and only she knows.

Everything is propaganda this day in age. "As everything has rhetoric. "

BUT, I thought the point of literature was to be ExpERiMenTaL. SHOULDN'T WE BE EXPERIMENTING WITH THE HUMAN MIND. See how the reader reacts. I wonder how you're reacting right now. You're probably so confused right now. I bet you don't think I'm even fitting with the theme right now. Let's see if I can pull some knowledge from my argumentative writing classes.

Let's observe the prompt again shall we:

"Write about someone who can only find inspiration (or be productive) at night."

"Write about someone"

I would say that someone is me. I am writing about my thoughts which is

me.

Okay debunked, NEXT!

"who can only find inspiration (or be productive) at night"

I would say I am pretty inspired right now. Probably the most inspired I have felt in ages. Productive? Well productive is subjective.

(and it's in parentheses so it's optional)

(but I am writing

which is very productive

for an english major)

For my major, I don't write as often as I would like to. And I would like to note that I used NO writing skills from my argumentative writing classes just then. So take it with a grain of sand or salt or whatever.

I wonder how old you are? I wonder if you understand that what I am writing is coming from someone in gen Z, still unaware of what life's purpose is but refuses to become religious for comfort. or you think that this is someone very fucking high. I don't smoke though.

very often.

I just saw that to submit this it costs $5. FIVE DOLLARS? what am I saying, I literally spent 3 on some mac n cheese today. I suppose that's the price for being an artist. I suppose it's better than utter humiliation if I fail because these are private, right?

I fear that as a writer.

a student.

a person. (yet, I do it everyday.)

I try not to care though. So I shouldn't care if these are not private. Because if I did I would be CONSTANTLY exhausted. That's what it's like to be someone who doesn't have a fully developed brain. Can you tell me if this ends? Is your frontal lobe developed? Or are you like me. I could use some more people like me. Honestly, I'm scared of people like me. Someone like me hurt me for 7 years. IT WASN'T ABUSE. I just didn't know how to stand up for myself. Tell little me I'm sorry. I should have invented that time machine we thought we were gonna make when I wanted to be a scientist for 2 weeks. Then I wanted to be a gardener.

I don't want to be a gardener any more. Or a scientist. And I am not going to tell you what I want to be because I don't want to be humiliated if I don't become it. So just know that I want to be something. And that's good enough.

(You guys should make the submit button less intimidating)

(it's okay, it's not your fault, this will always be intimidating