The first kiss after losing you

Xavier Matthews. 5’9, light-skinned, and as handsome as can be. Meeting him, I did the one thing I thought I’d never do again—I fell for him. It wasn’t something that happened right away; it snuck up on me like a thief in the night. I met him at a time in my life when I was broken, shattered by the loss of the man I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with and the heartbreak of losing what would’ve been our third child together. My life was a complete mess, a living nightmare that I couldn’t wake up from. Entering the dating scene was the absolute last thing I should’ve been doing, yet somehow, amidst the chaos, Xavier appeared like a beacon of hope.

         Our first date night was magical, and from that moment on, things started moving at a fast pace. The chemistry we had over the phone was just as strong in person, if not stronger. At first, things were a bit rocky as we navigated the newness of our relationship, but eventually, we got to know each other more deeply and started to go out more often. Our first kiss was something out of a movie, a perfect blend of passion and tenderness that left me breathless and longing for more.

As we stood under the soft glow of the streetlights, the world around me seemed to fade away. The gentle breeze carried the scent of blooming flowers, adding to the magic of the moment. Xavier's eyes locked onto mine, and I could feel the electricity in the air. His hand gently cupped my cheek, and I leaned into his touch as if I was in a trance. Feeling the warmth of his skin against my face, I thought of all the things that could happen in this moment.

         I knew that he was thinking the same by the way he smiled, softly rubbing his thumb across my cheek. To think I wanted to cancel our plans. I was happy that I didn’t. When our lips finally met, it was as if time stood still. The kiss was tender yet passionate, filled with unspoken promises and the hope of a new beginning. His lips were soft and inviting, moving in perfect harmony with my own. I could feel the depth of his emotions in the kiss, a mixture of longing and affection.

My mind immediately went to the night of my first kiss. Kissing Xavier gave me all of the feels that he could be the one. The way his lips moved against mine, sent shivers down my spine. I felt a surge of emotions, a mix of excitement, nervousness, and pure bliss. It was as if the world around us disappeared, leaving just the two of us. The warmth of his embrace and the tenderness of his touch made me feel safe and cherished. In that instant, I knew that this kiss was the beginning of something extraordinary, a connection that went beyond words and promises.

No one can ever replace my first love, and he will forever hold a special place in my heart, but after kissing Xavier, I knew that our story wasn’t over. It was just the beginning of something beautiful, something that had the potential to heal the wounds of the past and create a future filled with love and happiness.

After the kiss, Xavier gave me a soft, heartfelt smile that lit up his face. His eyes, still locked onto mine, showed a sparkle with a mixture of joy and tenderness. The way he gently rubbed his thumb across my cheek conveyed a sense of affection and reassurance.

Xavier's body language spoke volumes. He held me close, his embrace warm and comforting, making me feel safe and cherished. The gentle pressure of his hand on my back and the way he leaned in slightly, as if reluctant to let go, showed his deep connection and longing for me. His actions were a beautiful blend of vulnerability and strength, revealing the depth of his emotions without the need for words.

The world around us seemed to slowly come back into focus. The soft glow of the streetlights illuminated the quiet street, casting gentle shadows that danced with the breeze. The scent of blooming flowers lingered in the air, adding to the enchantment of the moment. The night was calm and serene, with only the distant hum of the city in the background.

With Xavier's eyes still locked onto mine, his smile reflected the joy and tenderness he felt. The magic of the kiss still lingered in the air, creating a sense of intimacy and connection that was almost palpable. The setting was perfect, a beautiful blend of romance and tranquility. It was a moment that I would cherish forever, a memory that would always bring a smile to my face.

Who would've known that just by installing an app, I would meet someone who could potentially be the man I want to build a life with. It all started with a simple swipe, and a casual conversation that quickly turned into something more. As we got to know each other, I realized that Xavier was unlike anyone I had ever met. His kindness, sense of humor, and genuine nature drew me in, and I found myself looking forward to our conversations more and more. Each date brought us closer, and with every shared moment, my feelings for him deepened. The night of our first kiss was a turning point, a moment that made me believe in the possibility of a future together. It was as if fate had brought us together, and I couldn't help but feel grateful for taking that chance.

Who would've known that just by installing an app, I would meet someone who I could potentially be the man I want to build a life with. It all started with a simple swipe, and casual conversation that quickly turned into something more. As we got to know each other, I realized that Xavier was unlike anyone I had ever met. His kindness, sense of humor, and genuine nature drew me in, and I found myself looking forward to our conversations more and more.

He even indulged my playful side. Whether it was engaging in spontaneous dance-offs in the living room, joining me in silly games, or simply laughing at my quirky jokes, Xavier always made me feel understood and appreciated. His willingness to embrace my fun-loving nature brought us closer together, creating countless moments of joy and laughter. It was in these light-hearted interactions that I saw the depth of his affection and the ease with which we connected.

His ability to make me smile, even on the toughest days, was a testament to the special bond we shared. Each date brought us closer, and with every shared moment, my feelings for him deepened. The night of our first kiss was a turning point, a moment that made me believe in the possibility of a future together. It was as if fate had brought us together, and I couldn't help but feel grateful for taking that chance.

For most people, meeting someone online would be a disaster, but I thank God that I met him. Yeah, the timing for allowing someone new to come into my life was a bad idea at the time, but it turned out to be the greatest decision ever. Despite the chaos and uncertainty, Xavier brought a sense of calm and joy into my life. He helped keep me on my toes and his presence was like a beacon of hope, guiding me through the darkest times. Every moment spent with him felt like a step towards healing and happiness. I realized that sometimes, the most unexpected encounters can lead to the most beautiful journeys.

         Two years later, I look back on when we first met, and I can't help but feel grateful for every twist and turn that brought us to this moment. I've both lost and learned. Life has its way of bringing the most unexpected encounter into your life, and I was going to roll with it. You get three great loves in your life. I pray to God that with you, we last a lifetime. Our love is a testament to the power of taking chances and believing in the magic of new beginnings.