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Inspirational Fiction Contemporary

The garden was alive—wild, tangled, and full of ghosts.


Dolores ran, not like a woman of her age, but like someone being chased by time itself. Her arthritic knees protested with each step, a reminder of her seventy-three years, but she pushed on. The wind whipped through her silver hair, catching it in a dance that was at once wild and deliberate. It wrapped itself around her face, almost like the fingers of those she had lost—every touch, every strand, a reminder.


She could hear their voices. Feel their presence.


Every bloom she passed was a face, a memory. The roses were her daughter Lydia—red, vibrant, fierce. Dolores remembered the day they'd planted them together, Lydia's 16th birthday. "Mom, these will outlast both of us," Lydia had said, her hands covered in dirt, her smile bright. But they hadn't outlasted Lydia. Cancer had taken her at 32, leaving Dolores to tend the roses alone.


Her feet barely touched the earth beneath her; they hovered in the space between memory and flight. The garden had always been her refuge, but now it felt like a maze—one she could never escape, no matter how fast she ran. The flowers leaned in, not out of admiration, but hunger. They wanted to pull her back into the past, wanted her to stay, to linger with them, to join the dead.


She ran faster, her breath catching in her throat. A tightness that wasn't from exertion but from the memories suffocating her.


This was the garden she had built with him—with them all. She had planted each seed with love, watered them with hope, and yet, no amount of care had saved them. No amount of nurturing had kept death from claiming them one by one.


Her daughter, her husband, her friends—they had all grown here and died here. And she, she had been left to tend to their graves disguised as flowers.


Every thorn on the roses was a reminder of Lydia's stubbornness, her fire. Dolores had pruned them for years, hands bloodied, tears silent, always thinking of the girl who was supposed to outlast her. Sometimes, the thorns dug too deep, and she wondered if the pain was some form of penance, though for what, she couldn't say.


But the daisies—oh, the daisies. Those were Arthur's. White, pure, simple.


He had loved them. Said they reminded him of the innocence they shared before the world became too heavy, too dark. She had once laughed at the way he tucked a single daisy behind her ear, telling her she was too beautiful for such a plain thing. But now? Now, every time she saw one, it was his laugh she heard. And it broke her.


She remembered their last conversation, Arthur lying in his hospital bed, his hand weak in hers. "Promise me you'll keep the garden going, Dol," he'd said. "It's our life's work." She'd nodded, unable to speak past the lump in her throat. He'd died that night, and she'd planted a whole bed of daisies the next day, her tears watering the soil.


Dolores skidded to a stop near the pond. The water rippled, and for a moment, she could swear she saw her reflection—not as the old woman she had become, but as the young bride she once was—fresh, hopeful, untouched by the cruel hands of fate.


But then the image shattered, replaced by a face that wasn't hers at all. Her mother. Her mother, who had died with so many things unsaid between them, so many regrets hanging in the air like the thick humidity of summer.


"Why didn't you try harder?" Her mother's voice echoed in her mind, heavy with accusation, though she'd never spoken those words aloud. It was always in the looks, the sighs, the disapproving glances that spoke volumes.


Dolores remembered their last fight, two weeks before her mother's stroke. "You're wasting your life in that garden," her mother had snapped. "You could have been somebody, Dolores." The words had stung, but not as much as the realization that her mother had never understood her passion, her need to nurture and grow.


Dolores had always wanted to be more for her mother—better, stronger, more patient. But in the end, her mother had left before Dolores had a chance to ask for forgiveness or offer it.


"You never understood." "Neither did you."


Dolores stumbled backward, her heart pounding. She could almost hear her mother's voice, critical but loving, telling her to stop running, to face what she had buried in the soil beneath her feet.


But how could she? How could she face the weight of it all, the loss, the guilt, the anger that still sat in her chest, festering like an untreated wound?


She had been running from it for years—decades, even. She had believed that if she kept moving, kept planting, kept nurturing life in this garden, it would somehow make up for all the death she couldn't prevent.


But here, now, in this overgrown sanctuary, she realized the truth. The garden wasn't her refuge. It was her prison.


The realization nearly buckled her knees. She gripped the edge of a weathered bench for support, the rough wood biting into her palms. It was the bench where she and Arthur had sat every evening, watching the sunset and planning their future. Now, it stood as a testament to all the futures that would never be.


Tears welled up, blurring the flowers around her, turning them into a riot of indistinguishable color—life and death mingling together in a kaleidoscope of sorrow. She wasn't sure she could bear it.


But just as the wave of grief threatened to pull her under, something else stirred. A whisper, soft at first, like a breeze through the branches. "Look again."


Dolores blinked through her tears, forcing her gaze back to the garden. She knelt by a patch of wildflowers, their petals fluttering softly in the breeze. Her hand, trembling, reached out to touch them. These were new. She hadn't planted these.


They had grown on their own, taking root in the untamed earth without her guidance, without her permission. And that's when it hit her. Life didn't need her to control it. It didn't need her to nurture it into submission. It would grow, it would flourish, even in the face of loss, even in the presence of death.


Life would find a way. Always.


But this wasn't a peace that came gently. Dolores still hesitated, still felt the weight of all the lives she'd carried, the garden she'd tried to control. She stood, her knees aching, her heart heavy, and took a step forward—then paused, looking back.


The roses and daisies swayed in the wind, and for a moment, she felt the pull again—the urge to retreat, to keep running. But the wildflowers, they stood still. Calm. A quiet rebellion against the chaos of her grief.


The garden wasn't asking her to tend it anymore. It wasn't a place of penance. It was a place where life continued, even without her.


The peace came slowly, like the flowers she hadn't planted. It wasn't a rush, but a gradual, steady acceptance. One that grew without her noticing, like roots deep beneath the soil.


She turned back to the garden gate. She wasn't running anymore.


The flowers around her swayed, almost as if in approval. They weren't ghosts—they were memories, yes, but they were also something more. They were the proof that love, once planted, didn't die. It might change, it might shift, but it never truly disappeared.


Dolores took a deep breath, the air thick with the scent of earth and blossoms. For the first time in a long while, she felt something other than sorrow. It wasn't quite joy, but it was close—perhaps hope, perhaps peace. She wasn't sure.


But it didn't matter. She walked, slowly this time, through the garden. The flowers brushed against her, soft and gentle, no longer pulling her back, no longer demanding her attention. She let them be. She let herself be.


As she reached the garden gate, she turned back one last time. The garden stood, wild and beautiful, a reflection of all the life she had touched and lost. But it was also a reflection of the life that remained—the life that would continue long after she was gone.


Dolores paused, her hand on the latch. The weight of the moment pressed down on her, as tangible as the earth beneath her feet. She had spent so long tending this garden, pruning away the dead leaves, coaxing new growth from reluctant soil. It had been her anchor, her purpose, her penance. Could she really walk away?


The roses caught her eye—Lydia's roses. A petal had fallen, rich red against the dark earth. Dolores bent to pick it up, her joints protesting the movement. The petal was soft between her fingers, still full of life even in its separation from the plant. She brought it to her nose, inhaling deeply. The scent was Lydia's perfume, her laughter, her fierce determination to live even as the cancer ravaged her body.


"You always said I held on too tight," Dolores whispered to the roses, to the memory of her daughter. "Maybe you were right."


A breeze rustled through the garden, carrying with it the mingled scents of daisies and wildflowers. Arthur and the unexpected joys he had brought into her life. The simple pleasures and the unplanned beauties. 


She tucked the rose petal into her pocket and turned once more to the gate. This time, she pushed it open. The hinges creaked—she had oiled them religiously for years, but lately, she had let it slide. The sound was a reminder of all she had tried to control, and all that had slipped through her fingers anyway.


Dolores stepped through the gate, but she didn't close it behind her. Instead, she left it open, an invitation or a farewell—she wasn't quite sure which. The path beyond was overgrown, scattered with fallen leaves and twisting roots. She had neglected it in her obsession with the garden, and now it looked wild and a little daunting.


But as she took her first step onto the path, Dolores felt something shift inside her. It wasn't the lightness she had expected, not the sudden freedom of letting go. Instead, it was a deepening, as if her roots were finally pushing past the boundaries she had set for them, reaching into unexplored soil.


The memories were still there—Lydia's laugh, Arthur's gentle hands, her mother's disapproving frown. They weren't weights anymore, nor were they wings. They were part of her, as undeniable as the lines on her face or the ache in her bones. She would carry them with her, not as a burden, but as a part of who she was.


As she rounded a bend in the path, the garden slipped from view. Dolores felt a momentary pang, a reflexive urge to turn back, to make sure it was still there. But she resisted. Instead, she focused on the path ahead, on the play of sunlight through the leaves, on the feel of the earth beneath her feet.


She was no longer running, no longer standing still. She was moving forward, one step at a time, into a future as uncertain and full of potential as a handful of seeds.

October 13, 2024 13:44

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Angela Ewing
11:49 Oct 24, 2024

I loved the feelings, revealing in the flowers, the doubts and regrets we all feel after we are left alone. As a critique, I felt that it went on a little too long to dwell on the past, a little overwhelmingly sentimental, but beautifully written. Special to read.

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TJames T
17:40 Oct 19, 2024

Loved it, thank you for sharing. The second to last line made me trip a little, no longer running, no longer standing still. I think I get the gist from your the vivid trip through your imagination.

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