Even I Can Not Fix This Mess

With the can of worms opened, pandora's box top lifted and exposed with what was in the box, with your feet planted firmly in the minefield that had warning signs of what was there and what would happen if you ignored them.

You still had to go in there. You still had to find out what was behind the curtain even though you closed your ears and shut out the ones that knew before you. It was your eyes that became wide open as you heard that loud click.

You saw the truth and ignored it. You knew the consequences, and you still had to take the risks. You were aware of the outcome of your decision, and you were smart enough to think before you leaped across the very wide gap, like at the Grand Canyon, but as you leaped, the gap became wider and more dangerous.

You were influenced into making hasty decisions, that would be your undoing. You found that following the crowd would be better than being the loner. You wanted to be the cool one or the one in the spotlight. You wanted to join others who had made the choice to be just like everyone else.

When after you became part of the crowd, changing who and what you are to what you are and who you are now, then it was too late. You know now that it was a mistake, and you still made it. This is one of those nonreversible mistakes, that once done it will haunt you for all eternity.

You were going in blindly; you were unsure of your decision and yet you were pressured and manipulated into being something you hated and would never have been or become when you were younger. You find that the hate you feel, the anger you feel is more so towards your own self and that you loathe the whole idea of life as you live in it now.

You are a majority of those who seek out a way to belong in this world, but changing the outside will never change the inside. The outside may look and feel different, but you are still the same on the inside. We are in a rush to change what isn't broken. To become self-medicated and self-absorbed in your own selfish completion. You will not nor don't want to sit down and make a simple decision not to into something that you make worse by speeding along at tops speed just to satisfy others true agendas.

You are no longer in control, the others have you in their grasp, choking the life out of you and then laugh at you, not with you, when your mistakes are revealed. You are the blunt of the jokes, you are the one everyone is pointing fingers at. You are no longer with them for they were still going to cast you out even after you decided you would change for them.

Everyone who knew did not let you know. Everyone who reversed the way things were presented and were shown to you, did not let you know that you were actually making a mistake. They were set on conning you into thinking you had to be the one who needed to change. You were being led off to something that would leave you, more vulnerable, more alone and lonelier. You would then know what they knew and what they hid from you.

The shock and humiliation would be unbearable. It would fall on you and there it would be an ending you had not foreseen. The ones who had made the mistakes before were willing to risk taking you with them when they fell and fall hard they would. They were not naive nor was your best interest being considered.

When the broken are not fixable. The matter grows and becomes larger than the original problem was at first. There was a solution for the problem that was very small, maybe tiny in size but then others found a way to convince you that their ideas of how to fix it would make it better and eliminate it.

Temporary solutions never fixed anything. The damage is still there, and the broken matter is still there, the one who was seeking a way to fix what they thought was broken are now with more anxiety and stress than they can handle or hope to handle.

Now with AI in all its selfish glory being added to the equation, how can one know whether it is solutions from a living breathing realistic person, not an automated voice on a computer screen. We no longer think for ourselves we are more dependent on those that do not actually exist and yet are controlled by those who have no purpose to heal the scars created by the same.

You are led to think you have to depend on these things like a drug, you become addicted and are unsure if you will ever be able to do or think for yourself again. You dive deeper into the cesspool of lies, deceit and never intended fixing of problems only to find that one fix is to only fix the former not the present mess.

You seek out answers that will never be revealed or shown. The quick fixes grow odder and more bizarre. You never know when to stop, you never know how to stop. You keep things bottled up and are made to think you have no way out. You become a greater mess, and you are left with nothing except a false sense of hope that is built up your decision to stay in, instead of fighting to regain your own identity.

When we take a flying leap blindly, not caring enough to question all and not willing to research all before we make the decision that will become unresolved, then we have no one to blame for that decision made except our own rushed selves.

See the warning signs and run away from it, read the writing on the wall. You can only miss out when you decide for yourself if the risk being needed to be taken are worth the consequences of your decisions and actions. Never let others influence you into doing something that thought would be wrong all along.

Never settle for less than the best that you truly deserve in your life.