"What about me."

Alana, Alana, Alana. That what this relationship is all about.' 'Mom said. Terrance. as he talking to his mother, bout his girlfriend.

''Mom, "Well what going on babe? she asked. You guys are fighting again.?

"Well .Yea. this time is it real. I"m not letting shit slide no more."Terrance said as he banged his hand on the table.

Miss Mary scolded him because she don't like no cursing around her house. or just period.

I'm sorry mom.'' Terrance said.'' Son you need to get a hold of yourself.

"I'm trying mom," I'm trying mom. Alana is so focused on school so much. She never have time for me. I call to see how she doing, she rushing me off the phone.Hell sometimes she don't even answer the phone sometimes. Terrance, said

''Mommy I love her so much.I know she have dreams of becoming a doctor. Lord knows I want her to accomplish her goals. I just want to see her happy. It destroying our relationship.

''What shocking she don't see that. Before she used to say I love you like she mean it. Her actions also showed.

Times I talked to her .I can feel it. I can hear the sigh's when she pick up the phone.Terrance said

I asked her question. she seem annoyed. I don't want to break it up with her. Because to be honest mommy. that break up would hurt me more. Than it would hurt her. She got her goals to fall back on and proceed with.

My dream is to be included in all of Alana goals. Terrance. said.

Terrance went to sit down at the table.

His mother went to sit down at the table with him.

''Listen babe. I know how you feel. You loving someone so much ,and they don't feel the same way.

It happens. I don't want you to put all your energy into the relationship. You guys are still young. Live life. Alana is ambitious young lady, you shouldn't interfere. With her dreams. Mary said

''Mommy I just want to love her. Terrance replied.

''If what you and Alana have is real love. It would never leave. Mary said.

Mary grabs Terrance hands. Hold it, and kiss it. Everything gonna be okay. Just focus on getting yourself in the right spot mentally.

Never force someone to be a figure of your imagination.

Let the person be themselves. okay babe. Mary said.

Terrance shakes his head. agreement with Mary. Kisses her on the cheek.

''Thank you for the advice mommy. Terrance said.

The next day Alana was coming out of school. Alana is fumbling her stuff with school. to put it in her bag.

Terrance stand across the street.Next to the Starbucks. Watching her every move.

Alana quickly run across the streets. As she was trying top catch the bus..

Terrance quickly ran to her and stop her.

Alana was startled.

''Oh my god. Terrance.......- What are you doing here? Alana said.I'm here to talk to you. Terrance replied.

''Come on my car is right over here. I take you home.

''Alana said okay. Terrance open the door for her. Let her in. Went around the back of the car. To look in the back window. To see if Alana would reach over to open the door,on the driver side.

Alana didn't move. Terrance grunted so loud, Aggressively open the door.

Got in the car. Quickly put the key in the ignition. then glance at Alana.

She had her head in the book.Reading.

Terrance face became angry. He started to scoff shaking his head

He sat back, Alana I need to talk to you. Terrance said.

Alana look up and said. ''One minute let me read this sentence.

Terrance took a deep breathe. Quickly grab the book and threw it on the backseat.

""Hey what was that for. Alana said. As she look confuse .Terrance become angry.

''Can I get a minute of your time.'YOUR PRECIOUS FUCKING TIME!!!! Terrance yelled.

''WHY ARE YELLING AT ME. Alana replied back.

''Cause I'm hurting ,and you don't seem to care.Terrance said as he voice breaking.

''Look Alana. Lately baby I don't know. what been going on man.I feel like we sinking. We not trying to save each other.Terrance.

''Okay I'm lost Terrance what are you talking bout? Alana said.

See that what I'm talking bout,

You call me by my name. You've been doing that lately too much .

When the last time you say ''Hey babe'' ,or Boo Boo. You called me by my first name is completely disrespectful. 'Terrance said.

''Listen what is this all about. Alana said.

''It about love, Alana. It about our love.What are we doing in this relationship. I feel alone. You don't call me ,talk to me anymore.

Hell when the last time we had sex with each other.Terrance said.

Alana drop her head.

I haven't help u more than five seconds the last 4 months. You be so busy with school. You mean you don't have no time for me at all. You claim you love me, you sure got a way of showing it.

You don't call me .I call you. Every seconds,minutes,hours, and Days. You are on my mind. Trying to understand. trying to be a better man for you Alana.

I feel like a moment. instead of forever..Tell me what are we doing now. I can go on another day without any answers. Terrance said.

''Alana look up. Babe I'm sorry, but I'm just following my dreams.

I would do anything to become a doctor. I'm just so close to completing this. I can't ease up. at this moment. Alana said.

For about a minute there was silence. Alana, and Terrance didn't even look at each other for .Terrance never looked at her he just stared out the window.

''What do you want to do.I'm not doing this tomorrow. waking up being in a one sided commitment relationship. Tears rolled his face.

''Do you want o break up?Terrance said.

Alana gasp''No I don't babe. As she said pleading with him. As she unbuckle her seatbelt. turned herself around in the passenger seat.

Grabbed his arm. Listen look at me.Terrance is not looking at her.

''I love you Alana ,I understand, about your goals. I just love you so much I want to married you. I want to be your last. If I had the money I propose right now. I just ---.I don't know. But being number 2 in your eyes. Is not sitting well. People make time for who they want to make time for.

Me stressing over you, is not healthy for me either. This relationship is not healthy. We just need to go on our own serperate ways. Terrance broke down crying.

'Alana started to cry also.

The sky started to get cloudy start raining. Terrance rested his head in his hands while laying on the steering wheels.

Alana reached all the way in the back seat to grab the book.

''She still crying .So is Terrance. Alana leaned over kissed him on the left side of his head.

Alana open the door. Terrance stop crying. Alana got out the car started walking to bus stop.

Terrance look in the mirror while she walk away.

Terrance just sat in his car ,and cried.

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