My Best Friend that is Watching Above

Dedicated to Rainn

     “As I sit here and think of all the time we had together, and how it felt like you were in my life for so long, I cry to know you’re gone forever and that there’s was so little time spent with each other”, I write in my journal as I finally accepted the news I would’ve never expected to hear. Six months ago I found the most perfect puppy there possibly was. It was a dream come true, it was all happening so fast. I found the one, I was so ready to get him, and in two days I would meet my best friend. 

      The day had come, it was a long waiting game. My mom had to go to work, pick up my sisters, then me to go and get my puppy. It was exhausting having to sit all day knowing i’m about to have a dog. 

I was texting my mom after she got off work, some

-thing seemed off, she should’ve been home by now. The moment I heard her car, I ran outside getting ready to go see him but as I get out my door, I see my mom holding the most amazing, most adorable puppy I could imagine. Something in my head clicked and made me choose his name, I called him Rainn. He was so small and sweet, it didn’t last long till he started to grow. He was always so hyper and happy, he was a good dog to be around. He tore up the carpet and was the worst potty trainee, but he stopped his bad habits really quickly. 

       Me and Rainn would go outside and water the dirt then we’d run around the tree in our backyard for hours and hours till I had an asthma attack or until one of us fell in the mud, so mean it was bound to happen. Rainn would never leave my side, we were each others best friends. I couldn’t leave his side and Rainn wouldn’t leave mine. I loved having someone to just be there for and knowing I was the one they loved the most and looked up to. When Rainn started to loose his teeth, it was gross, he knew he had blood in his mouth so he’d go and bite me, not hard but just enough to let me know he was loosing a tooth, he lost two. He seemed so proud. His grownup teeth were growing in and it made him so much more hyper, it was fun for me but not my mom. 

        Around a week before he turned six months I let him downstairs without me for the first time since I had him forever, it was hard and it just didn’t seem right, but I had to clean my room. It took all day and I finally finished around 5pm, I went to go get Rainn. He didn’t seem like himself he just wasn’t hyper and wasn’t jumping on me because he was excited he didn’t do his little high pitch growl to say hi. He wasn’t acting like Rainn. I asked my mom if he was okay, she said yeah he’s probably just tired from being crazy today, I agreed. I carried him upstairs like a baby, he loved when I did that, I love doing it so it’s fair. He seemed to have an upset stomach. I went downstairs to tell my mom because the smell was horrible, she cane up to help me clean and told me he may have parvo. I was confused because he was never near feces, but I was super worried because I know the statistics of the percentage Parvo’s death rate was. 

Since were in quarantine this wasn’t a worse time for him to get sick, there were no clinics open. On the third night of him being sick we took him to the hospital and they told me, they have no clue what it was but sent us home with so much stuff I could start my own clinic. We seemed to get better, the fifth night we took him again because he started to look worse, they told us it’s distemper and that he got it from another dog. Rainn hasn’t been around other dogs so it made no sense again. The upcoming morning he looked great but he still hurt to move. 

       Saturday afternoon, my mom took him to the hospital without letting me say anything to her or Rainn. It wasn’t such a big deal until it being around four hours at the hospital. She called me crying saying he isn’t doing good and that I had no option but to put him down. I couldn’t believe it, “distemper can’t do this”, I thought, My mom proceeds on with, “he had liver failure”. I felt myself start to not breathe I went into panic, thinking i need to get out of this nightmare. I brought myself to speak again only to realize I can’t. My tears are overwhelming. I hang up and start to text her, asking questions going through everything wondering what’s actually about to happen. My mom is now with Rainn, as he’s about to take his last breath, and i couldn’t even be there let alone say goodbye. She told him I loved him and hugged him until his previous heart stopped. 

       God, I love that dog so much, people always say there’s no other dog like theirs, but there was actually no dog that could amount to Rainn. I lost my best friend the day before he turned six months. I didn’t really believe what was going on that day till Sunday night, I cried till Eight i’m the morning, and i decided to wright something to him, It was “I Love You Rainn”. I couldn’t stop writing, “As I sit here and think of all the time we had together, and how it felt like you were in my life for so long, I cry to know you’re gone forever and that there’s was so little time spent with each other....”

   I love you my sweet perfect angel, Rainn

mayli.s.