Novas stress

DISCLAMIER-I changed up my Oc lore up a little bit so it might seem a bit different. And yes, I ship my Oc with the Lucifer from Hazbin hotel. (Yes, I have issue) 

It was just any normal day in hell my 2 kids were playing in the garden my husband was in his office dealing with paperwork. And here I am lying here in bed trying to figure out what to do. Mean me and my family have just got casted out of heaven. It's not the best thing for your mental health not goanna lie. But if I'm goanna be the queen of hell I might as well try to do things a queen of this place would do. I have been into dark magic and witchcraft lately and I have just been thinking hard of how to master it. 

Mean I know no one is perfect but I'm Natlie or Nova as a nickname. Yeah, my husband's real name is Sameul, but people call him Lucifer ever since we got casted out. And now people just call me Nova instead of Natlie because I'm the queen of hell. It's a whole bunch of BS in the Morningstar family. But back to my witchcraft journey. I think it's going great my husband on the other hand isn't happy that I put a hole through the wall though from one of my spells. 

I've looked through spell book after spell book and nothing and I mean NOTHING has turned out well for me. Like I swear it's like no matter what I do the spells only 100% work if I'm in battle. "Hey~ are doing alright in here" Lucifer says in a calm but curious voice wondering what the hell is Natlie is up to now. "Oh it's nothing Sameul just tired of failing EVERY SINGLE SPELL I TRY TO PULL NEVER WORKS" Natlie says yelling but also doubting she will ever be a good witch like everyone else in hell. "Okay one we go by our demonic names two stop beating yourself up love your stressing yourself over something you shouldn't" Lucifer says trying to easy~ her nerves a bit. "Easy for you to say I bet you could master witchcraft in like a day" Natlie says huffing and buffing knowing she's the queen of hell and wants to be perfect for her husband. 

I get that my husband is trying to calm me down and ease my nerves but that's kind of hard when so much has happened to you. It's only been a few weeks since our family was casted out and I'm here feeling like I'm going to throw up. I'm under so much stress so much anxiety I can't take it. I look over at my kids and they have no idea of what the hell is going on. I wish me and my family weren't suffering down here he knows how worried I am and how stressed I can get. My husband doesn't like seeing me so stressed to the point I might have a panic attack. 

"If you need someone to talk to you can always come to me you know that right" Lucifer says while looking at me with his eyes feeling like there staring into my soul. "I know I can always come to you when I'm feeling stressed it's hard to stay focus when you have had so much happen to in just a few weeks" I mention while looking at my messy hand covered in dust from the previous spell I tried to do that failed miserably. "Then talk to me you don't have to constantly hide things you don't want to talk about but we have been married for a while and we have two kids so what is on your mind love" Lucifer says as he lifts my chin up looking in his gaze wondering if I should either just cry and or hold back emotion. "I know we have been through a lot together but it's hard expressing my feeling and stress, and anxiety is all that's on my mind and if I'm the queen of hell that means I have to be perfect" I say as I drop on my complicated witchcraft items and tools on the ground with my eyes filling up with tears praying that he doesn't see them. But as I can tell he sees my eyes filling up with tears and I hate that he's seeing me this way. "Love I know there's more you're just choosing to hide your emotions because your scared people will judge you for it" Lucifer says in a firm voice staring at me dead in the eye. 

 "I'm not hiding my emotions love I'm just...yeah I hide my emotions because I don't want people seeing my weak side, I just feel like I have to be tough not only for our kids but for you for our people" I said in a sad voice knowing my voice would ravel my emotions and my husband meant good. But I sometimes feel like he can be nosey and never give me space. "Love you don't have to be good enough for our people there demons they don't deserve a good queen our children deserve a good mother and you are the one love you are the good mother they have you are not the awful and for me you have always been good enough for me since day one there is no reason for you to be hating on yourself" Lucifer said in a calming tone resurging her that she is a great person in a awful place. "But I...I can't do it love I can't seem to pull off any complex spell I work hard I study the steps and still nothing I have been studying dark magic for a while and witchcraft just these spells are hard love I know you mean good and you're trying to make me feel better but...Just I don't feel like joking around dear" I say trying to tell him that I can't do it and that I'm not good enough, but I know Samuel he is just goanna do everything in his power to make me feel better no matter if I like it or not. "But love you can't just give up because you hate that you can't complete a complex spell" Lucifer says in a desperate trying to tell me that I won't doubt myself. No matter what I do he will find something to make me happy and him telling me we will get through things together is all I want to hear.