I'm Fearless

By the time I stepped outside, the leaves were on fire, the sky was full of stars, I looked at the moon and smiled because he was just like me ......with scars. I was walking in the dark, the wind was blowing my hair with it, I felt the coldness but it was less colder than me, it was getting darker and darker with my every step but I wasn't scared. Sometimes they ask me if I wasn't scared of the darkness? I stopped for a moment and smiled saying "I'm so much scared that I became fearless." I still remember that dark night which was full of my struggles that remained untold,my screams that remained unheard, my tears that remained on my cheeks and this scary world where every moment is like a nightmare.

My eyes is filled with fire because I'm fierce, I always walk alone because I'm fearless..........

Every night I cannot sleep, my heart cries whenever I think of that incident, my eyes are not able to hold tears when I remember that night, I start to tremble from fear when I hear my those screams.........I feel so terrible but I cannot do anything.

Every moment I breathe I want justice for myself, every time I look in the the mirror I see those scars......... reminding me of my terrible past.

Sometimes I do think why this happened with me? What was my fault? Why am I to take all the blame?

Where is the truth, the justice, the rights that everyone talks about?

Everybody questions my character,

everybody judges me, everyone blames me.........why? Because we live in a Male dominated society, from the years so far we are responsible for everything that happens with us......be it murder, violence, torture or rape!

We are repeatedly reminded of the position where we stand, where we act because we've no right to interfere with anything be it even wrong ! We're women........made for harassment, tortures, discrimination, violence, rapes and everything that is a crime.

Many a times I was forced to be quiet, to take in everything without any questions, I was going through hell but who cares? Even my family didn't supported because I was a women.

Now I'm not the same anymore........

I can stand for myself as well as for others, I don't rely on anyone's sword to save myself because I carry my own, I no more fear of anything because I've trained myself so hard to become what I'm today. I no more bent in front of anyone because I'm enough courageous to hold my heads up high enough, I'm no more afraid to look into anyone's eyes because now my own eyes carry fire in them, I'm self-independent and I know how to speak for myself .........I've more believe and confidence in me and that's why I'm fearless.

I am the type of flower that can still grow after a forest fire, I'm a mighty stone in the wild seas, I'm a fighter not by choice but a warrior at heart.

I had thousands of reasons to break down but I still keep on persisting in the shards of my broken peices.......I kept on surviving. I conquered my dreams and wore my scars like wings.

The bravest thing I ever did was to stay alive each day.

I am fearless not because I'm not scared but because I went on so strongly, despite the fear.

I have become one of my own best friends. I was so real in everything in this world of make believe. I always pretend to fit in this world but I rarely do. The biggest thing in me was that I could still see the sunset even on those dark days. I was full of wounds,riddled with scars bot I was still standing on my own. I was just like a broken thing that the world left behind. Everybody tried to burn me but they didn't knew that I myself was a flame rising from the stars that collided in the sky. I was silent most of the times but my eyes were full of storms and my soul full of thunder.

That night is still intact in my memory........ the full moon shining in the dark sky with twinkling stars dancing all the way to the moonlight,

leaves trembling with the stroke of the wind passing by.......a little cold, a little dark ..... I was walking alone towards my home,singing in my own tone suddenly was turned into screams.......I was covered by the shadows darker than the night, I cried, I was frightened, scared and full of scars.........my clothes all ripped and torn covered with the blood of my own........I screamed so loudly with all of my energy but no one came to save me..........there were eight beasts whose faces I don't know.......they came and went leaving me shattered and broken.........I fought for myself with all my strength but I was defeated but my eyes remained unconquerable and wild as it was never before.........everyday, every night I ask myself to rest in peace because I was like a body without any soul.......full of scratches and scars.

I wanted to fight but I was made to be quiet.........

I was lost not to them but to myself.

I decided to pull myself back and come back as an undefeatable warrior to win back everything that I lost back then.........with my eyes full of fire and my soul as fierce as it was never before. I came, I fought and I won.

Those who questioned me got an incredible answer that they will never forget throughout their lives. I wasn't born this way,I made myself evolved into who I am now. I've been all alone through most of my darkest days and that's why I'm fearless........

My courage rises everytime my fear approaches and that's why I'm fearless..........

I believe in myself more than anyone else and that's why I'm fearless.........

I've fought with my every fear alone and that's why I'm fearless...........