Wish you back

I sit on the bus heading home after a long day.

The rain beating down hard as I sit and listen. I pull out my phone and the screen lights up. I stare at the picture of you, your pretty face smiling back at me. It's been almost a year now. I get off at my stop and stand in the rain, letting it run down my face. Wanting to remember you the way you were before.

back..

I remember picking you up at your house for the first time. I was so nervous, but when I saw your smile all of that went away. We walked through the park holding hands. Your face lit up at everything you saw. I stare at you, admiring everything about you as you talk about the most random things. I told you something funny and you laugh. The laugh that I adored, the laugh that made my heart melt. You let go of my hand and ran ahead. You look back and smile warmly at me. I reach out for you but it's useless. Further and further you go, slowly fading from view.

back...

I walk home in the rain, not caring that I'm getting soaked. You were the main character in the movie called me. My everything. I walk alone, memories of us swimming in my head. I'll gather them up and cherish them in my heart. I enter my apartment, go straight to my bed, and throw myself on it. I stare at the ceiling tears falling silently. I lie in the dark room not knowing how to handle the pain.

back...

The wind blows through your hair as we drive down the city streets. You laughed as you stuck your hand out the window. Your laugh is like music to my ears. Once we got there I grabbed your hand. You asked where I was taking you, I winked and said it was a surprise. I took you to a hill overlooking the city. That was when I asked you to be mine.

back...

You were my story, you were the most precious thing in the world to me. I think about you day andnight, you won't stop taking up my thoughts. This feeling, this emptiness. It won't go away with any words, nobody can comfort me. Watering a dead flower won't make it bloom again.

back..

lying in the grass side by side looking up at the stars.

You say that the stars are beautiful. I look at you. Your brown eyes reflecting the stars, your cute outfit, and the bracelet on your wrist that matched mine. "Your beautiful," I replied. Blushing you hide your face in your hands. I laugh and put my arm around you. You slowly pull away looking at me sadly. You said you had to tell me something. You told me that you were sick and weren't getting better. I pulled you close to me. I told you that I would love you forever, no matter what. You held up your hand,

"you promise we'll stay this way forever?"

" Forever" I said linking our fingers together.

back...

Alone I cry. Pointless tears flow and hold me back. You made me promise to move on. Even though I deliberately try to fill my mind with other things, I can't get rid of your memory. I tried moving on but I always come back to you. Even the finger that made that promise not to be defeated all crumbled when you said goodbye.

I wish you back...

I went over to your house to see you. As I made my way to your room I could feel my heart beating against my chest.

I stopped in front of your door and wiped the tears from my eyes. I entered the room with a smile, you smile back at me and my heart aches. You look so fragile like you could break any second. You hugged me and said that you missed me.

I could feel my eyes tearing up. We talked the whole day about random things. You fell asleep after a while, I sat next to the bed and held onto your hand. It was getting late and I had to go. I quietly woke you up to tell you. I didn't want to leave and leaving is what I regret the most

I wish you back.

Maybe if I didn't leave, if I had stayed, would still be here?

I wish you back.

I rushed to the hospital as fast as I could. Your father called me and said you weren't doing well. I stumbled into your room out of breath. Your parents were standing over your bed talking to you. I walked over and they left us alone. I sat in the chair beside the bed. I held your hand and cried softly.

Your other hand grazes my cheek, whipping away my tears.

"It's ok, I'm okay," you say, looking at me gingerly.

I buried my face into your hands. They tell me you aren't going to make it. I nod and try to put on a smile for you.

As you smile back, my heart shatters.

"Love you," you whisper.

"I love vou too," I say, holding back tears.

I wish you back.

If anything can come back just by missing it. I don't know I can’t It's not easy to describe how I'm feeling.

I wish you back.

As I look at a picture of you and me, my heart breaks all over again.

I wish you back.

I'm still waiting, waiting for you. Perhaps I know you won't come back.

I wish you back.

I want this pain to end, this endless darkness to go away. I just want to see your beautiful smile one last time. To hear you laugh again.

I wish you back.

I want to feel your arms around me, and I want you to comfort me.

I wish you back.

I'm still waiting, hopelessly waiting.

I wish you back,

i need you back.