Opening it up: Methods of a stalker. Wartime tactics and lessons of emotional combat.

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Christian Creative Nonfiction Teens & Young Adult

Well.

How is everyone feeling now that the “conversation has changed”??


I”ll hop into the fire pit first. I really have nothing else left to lose:

Many and vast feelings include but are not limited to:

Crazed.

Confused.

Venomly capable of spewed frustrations flying out of a mouth I thought held pure words.

Confused. Again:

Is is still a dog eat dog world?

Or.

A cat eat cat world?

Was that the intention all along?

To nurture the kind of “eat you up” mentality that is eating us all alive?


Do you think “well done” or “well done”?


Sorry?

I sure am.

A lot.

I am sorry that the hate that continues to fill your heart was spread the way it has spread—like a bad virus, like a bad cold sore, like bad breath.


When a person comes in conflict with their own way of thinking, they mature emotionally and intellectually.


Cannot blame everything on illness-mental, emotional, physical……tactical….strategical….

Many strong persons risk looking “beautiful” to make a point. Do not remain stuck in the expectation-resentment loop.


A counterproductive loopdily loop.


Dialogue. It is the most basic social covenant. Yes. It is an agreement to cooperate. It is also requires a sophistication worthy of not engaging in a public display of relief☺️.


The difference between disappointment and resentment.

Legitimacy.


The strength, albeit crazed moments of thrown stuff, kicking the wall, and batting the ole eyelashes, is that a plan is not in effect. Not effective— never was in effect but had a ginormous effect nonetheless.


Attrition. break ‘em down. Bust ‘em up. Then put the ole feet up and relax and enjoy the devastation.


Call me crazy. I will not accept and if in my order a kick a tree or two, punch a wall is my safety plan of action. It is my safety plan. Of not hurting you and joining in your “plan” which had my demise enacted the moment the button or trigger may have hit “ok”.


Harm reduction. Consider this. The radically sane individuals are best able to avoid betrayal by one simple word.


No.


And to drive home the point, there may be a bit of craziness. But just a bit. It is actually a sign of health to know when things aren’t working in your life.


Stalk away as much as you wish.

Bring it on even.

Broad shoulders can hack it. Sane minds can too.

Sideways glances are seldom a good sign.


Nowadays a look can kill.

A. look. Can. Kill.


The only saving grace is it takes two to have a conversation-serious, funny, practical flirtatious etcetera, etcetera.


Mutual understanding takes a long time to mutually understand. That and good conversational habits including but not limited to:


Interrupting.

Story Topping.

Bright Siding (guilty as charged)

Being Right.

Being All Knowing (Jesus🙂)

Advice Giving.


A strong person does not seek to have events happen as they want them to. They accept and WANT them to happen as they do. Take it as it comes.


Ask a question.

Wait for an answer.

Contextualize your experience—crazed moments and all.


The caveat?


Betrayal.


The radically sane part of a person’s self that refuses.


REFUSES to go along with the insanity around them. It is a sign of health to know when things aren’t working in your life.


Remember that. Otherwise the collision course with despair continues. Dreadful stalking collision course continues.


Obsession. OCD. ADD. ADHD. Double DD☺️? All ways to invite a person “in” and then bob and weave them immediately away? in the interest of mind games. Who or what fills your cup? No. not that cup or cups☺️😉


Harm reduction. Is the key to happiness. But wartime tactics include:

Attrition. The dread attrition attack. The action or process of gradually reducing the strength or effectiveness of someone or something through sustained attack or pressure.


IE. The Slow Burn. Constant stress. The Act of Rubbing Together as in friction, erosion, damaging, slow destruction, weathering, undermining.


Attrition. Not to be confused with contrition. Contrition for sin. And once ya “put ‘em out there” have you received the response that YOU desired? I dunno. Seems rather risky. Stalking the response you hope to achieve is dicey business.


But hey, if you put ‘em out there, what conversation are YOU hoping to start, or end? Avoiding dashed hopes? Anticipation?

Anticipatory joy? Obsession.


Harm reduction is the key. Promise. If you go down, I’m goin’ down too. Really. What to do.What to do?


Try not making decisions for other people. That is a start. As in if you put ‘em out there— the double DD’s is your goal one of health care or come here, Come and get it? Persons are or can be naive. And all your anticipatory joy in the world will not stop what you chose to put out there.


Focus on what you can control.

Surround self with positive people.

Hunt for the good.

Hopeful people are always learning and take reasonable risks to support their growth.

Try it, you’ll like it!

Hey Mikey?!


Failure is inevitable. Inevitable.

When a person comes in conflict with their own way of thinking, they mature emotionally and intellectually.


(Well worth repeating)

Wellness worth repeating.

Again.

Before.

After.

The error.

The mistake.

The whatever of “puttin’ ‘em out there”.


It is ok to seek a silver lining.

Beats the alternative.

Increases creativity.

Creativity feeds positivity.


Really.

No stalking needed.

It sometimes exists in HOW you say something……

Double DD’s or no Double DD’s.

What is your plan is most likely yours alone.


Focus.

On what you can control.

The world is a big, big place.

A big place.


Care for it as you would your best friend.

Seek to be on the same page. The same page.

The Hows. (LK)

The Whys. (LK)


There are tons and tons of smart people in the world ready, willing and able to share the good with you. Really.


Find them.

Helps to avoid the trigger diggers. The ones who may hide behind the who, what, where, when and why. Shaking the trigger finger in your direction.


Avoid them. obsessed or Not. Fans or no fans. Of yours. It will only negatively affect your self wellness.


Wartime tactics and lessons: Head down. Heart open. Family is what you make it. And then.


Charge the mound☺️😀⚾️🏃🏃‍♀️🫶🏻🏃🏃. Together.











June 07, 2023 14:44

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