God's Atheist

Chapter 1: Logic

I’m God’s atheist, the notion that Jesus died for my sins and the concept of Hell are ridiculous. I’m 71, when very young my mother taught, “Now I lay me down to sleep I pray to the Lord my soul to keep, if I should die before I awake I pray to the Lord my soul to take.” So as a toddler the belief in a higher power was instilled. Upon reaching puberty, the discussion of God would come up, and several friends commented,“ Where did God come from?” I certainly couldn’t answer but retained my belief. My junior year in college I aced calculus, advanced algebra and quantitative methods. I enjoyed the logic of math. One plus one always equals two, no gray areas. Please follow the logic of my thinking.

Chapter 2: God - The Most Discussed Subject 

We must agree that the issue of God is the most discussed by all of humanity. I was fortunate to be raised in a small Ohio town. Mom was in her forties and thought she had cancer. She always referred to me as her little tumor. Dad was born in 1897, mom in 1904. Growing up, we seldom locked our doors. What do I see today? Major cities with vast homeless populations. As a teenager marijuana was the drug of choice, today it's fentanyl.  I’ve witnessed numerous wars, the oceans being dumped with plastics that will never dissolve, vast corruption within the leaders of the world, an unending barrage of advertisements to buy, buy, buy. Our prison population is the largest in the world. The healthcare industry’s prime motivation is profit. I saw a poster of a future doctor reading on his first day of class, “A patient cured is a customer lost.” Cancer patients being pumped full of drugs that do not work, chemotherapy destroys the immune system and is 90% ineffective. Why is it administered? Money. I’ve watched mega church ministers preaching about Jesus. One needed a swimming pool for his $750,000 estate to baptize new converts. The wealthiest organization in existence is the Catholic Church because they’ve indoctrinated entire populations to tithe so they won’t go to Hell. I’ve seen Christians going to church every Wednesday and Sunday pointing fingers all through the week at the sinners. That prostitute is going to Hell, God help that drug user's soul. They’ll wish they’d listened to the gospel now they’re in Hell. I’ve known people full of jealousy, hate, and fear. Friends have committed suicide. I’ve also endured the dark night of the soul when nothing means anything because all hope is gone. I came very, very close. I’m intellectually in agreement with an atheist's thinking.

Chapter 3: Hell Is A Lie

Any rational thinking individual must reasonably say, “If God made this world, I want nothing to do with it because it’s insane.”  I taught an adult Sunday school for a decade and never mentioned Hell because I didn’t believe in it. My ingrained higher power belief simply became, God Is. How could the eternal God of Love make a place of unending torment? Hell is a lie and the concept was fabricated. Centuries ago, scholars, on Roman advice, agreed on the idea after Christianity was declared the empire's religion. Fear of Hell would help control the populations and have the potential to be extremely profitable.

Chapter 4: We Are All Bipolar

Our right mind, spirit, is based on love, and our wrong mind, ego, is founded on fear. Fear of what?  In the deepest part of our subconscious, God. Once we have accepted the truth that God Is, we start school. In this school, we’ll learn through experience the fruits of our ego: fear, resentment, anger, laziness, and hatred. We’re also taught the fruits of our spirit: love, acceptance, peace, energy, and empathy.  A peaceful mind is our natural state and once obtained, the economy, world affairs, crime and drug issues, become just mild interests. 

The Bible is a collection of 66 books written by 40 authors over 1,500 years. Many writings are simply not true.  Romans 9:21 states, “Does not the potter have the right to make from the same lump of clay one vessel for special occasions and another for common use?”  The potter is a reference to God, the vessel is us. “One vessel for special occasions” means Heaven. “Another for common use” means Hell. In other words, if one lives a loving life but was made for common use; that person is going to Hell and there is nothing to be done. This is complete nonsense. The Old Testament is constantly talking about a jealous and vengeful God. The terms omnipotent and omnipresent are used to describe two of God’s attributes. Omnipotent means all-powerful and refers to the belief that God has supreme power. God has complete authority over wind, water, gravity, and physics. His power is limitless. Omnipresent means present everywhere and refers to the belief that God is capable of being everywhere at once. Once again logic must ask, who would God be jealous of ? Me? You? The Beatles? Elvis?

The Disappearance Of The Universe was written by Gary R. Renard. It’s a record of 17 mind-bending conversations taking place over a decade between Gary and two Ascended Masters. They revealed some shocking secrets of existence that taught the miraculous powers of forgiveness. He’s sitting in his living room and two people suddenly appear on the couch. Male and female, Arten and Pursah. I thought, “This has to be fiction.” It's non-fiction. When I started reading Disappearance, a huge red flag occurred. The basis of Christianity for 2000 years is that Jesus died for our sin. Gary stated that this is not true. I had to come to a conclusion about this critical issue so I stopped reading and started praying. The answer came to me immediately after waking from a dream I couldn’t remember. I only knew it had been about my wife Mary Jo who had suddenly died seven years earlier. I somehow heard her say, “Bob, let's say you’ve been watching me moan for 10 minutes while experiencing a nightmare. Upon awakening you asked what the dream was about. I explained I’d been a serial killer who tortured for hours before granting death. Honey, did I sin against God?” “Of course not, you were dreaming.”” There’s your answer.” I resumed studying Gary’s manuscript.  

A Course In Miracles (ACIM-1333 pages) by Helen Schucman is in my opinion the most profound spiritual manuscript ever written. Schucman began receiving the material for The Course quietly from 1965 to 1973. She was an associate professor of psychology at Columbia University’s College of Physicians and Surgeons. Schucman said the book had been dictated to her, via a process of inner dictation from Jesus. Insanity crossed her mind so she asked this voice extremely difficult questions. To her amazement all were answered correctly. I have studied The Course for  fifteen years and have found nothing that is not logically true. ACIM explains how our ego came to be. We do not need saving from a non-existent eternal torment but from our own ego. 

Chapter 5: The Big Bang

We’re taught that astronomers believe the universe began as a singular point and expanded to the size it is today and still growing. We’re also taught the concept that most scientists believe that RNA was the first molecule to self-replicate and begin the process of evolution that led to more advanced forms of life. So this is the answer to millions and millions of aquatic creatures, birds, animals, and humans? These scientific theories only strengthened my belief in a higher power.  If you think about and study these two believed explanations of all life everywhere, they make no sense until you come to the amazing understanding there was a powerful intelligence behind the Big Bang. Christ. Jesus’s last name is not Christ, his name is Jesus of Nazareth. He understood perfectly that he was One with Christ. Christ is much more than a name, it's a state of being. We’re not limited human beings but unlimited Christ Beings.

ACIM explains that it is beyond its teachings to fully explain what Love actually is. With logic and reasoning we’re given glimpses. Let’s discuss a Love that is absolutely perfect with a beautiful purity that is immeasurably magnificent, immensely powerful, all knowing, all seeing, everywhere, outside of time, and forever unchanging. This Love cannot conceive of any loss and expresses an adoration and tenderness for all creation. Forever.

Chapter 6: A True Fictional Creation Story

“Whoa, why is this? Who am I? Another answered but not by voice. You’re My Son. What’s a Son? You’re my very first creation. What’s creation? You’re also My only joy. Astonishingly, He felt absolutely wonderful. This Being started to share His very essence  and suddenly He started learning  and comprehending  extremely fast. He mysteriously understood atomic forces, protons, electrons, neutrons, neutrinos, recurring and changing inorganic and organic molecules. He comprehended amino acids and the forces that regulate all. Vistas of astonishing beauty opened up for Him. He became ecstatic while gazing at forests, oceans, rivers, lakes, mountains, skies, worlds, suns, stars, galaxies, and universes. He was everywhere with this magnificent One. He asked, Who are You? I Am was the reply. He instantly comprehended His own name is Christ. 

He became aware this is His Father, Whose very nature is to give and teach all He knows, and He knows everything. Christ knew He was not in any way separate or different from God and understands He is not a part of God but an extension of the whole. He knew love must be shared, and the love that is shared in His Father’s universe is exquisite and beautiful. Christ supremely became as powerful, compassionate, wise, knowing, limitless, and most importantly as loving as His Creator. They are inseparable and continue to co-create vast galaxies and universes. Due to the infinite wisdom of I Am, they stopped short of creating life to populate all that is. They envisioned aquatic life, myriads of different flying species, animal life, and the harmony of the interconnected environments all would live in. Their creations were also to be gifted with the ability to co-create, each after their own kind. This would happen in a nanosecond, just as Christ had been created. God has created Christ to be exactly like Himself and to share His eternal love and joy in a state of unencumbered, boundless, and unimaginable ecstasy. Any question the Son asked was instantly answered as Their communication was perfect. 

Then somewhere, somewhen Christ asked a question that was not answered. What? Why? The question was like,” What else is there?”  I Am did not answer because there is nothing else but God’s perfect creation. The Son experienced a previously unknown feeling, fear. He falsely perceived His perfect communication was forever gone thus the ego mind was created believing it was separate from God and completely on its own. Christ instantly created a universe of His own where He could hide. The Big Bang occurred, composed of billions of fragments. He made the first human bodies as a fence to keep God out. Their minds have the same ability to learn, create and share but without unlimited power. The idea of duality could not be carried out in God’s Reality, so Christ created a universe of illusion and entered it as if falling asleep and dreaming. 

Because They were no longer perfectly communicating God thought, “My Child is asleep and must be awakened.” But there was a major problem. Whatever God places His attention on becomes as if it is real. If God entered the dream to redeem His Son, then the dream could become real to Him as well, and He would also be trapped. There would be the risk of both the Father and the Son becoming eternally separated from their true Home and losing Their Identity. To solve the problem and allow God to keep His attention focused on Reality, the third creation occurred. The Holy Spirit. The Voice for God would be the bridge between the two states of existence and the answer to the perceived separation. The Spirit was created with the miraculous ability to observe God’s perfect Heaven while also viewing the Son’s imperfect dream. The Holy Spirit entered the original Christ Mind and showed Him God’s perfect creation had remained unchanged and was his true Reality. Christ chose Love and woke up in the Heaven He’d never left.

Christ now reasoned, “I must help the children I’ve made who are sleeping.”  Thus, Jesus enters into our dream illusion. “Jesus will be born of a virgin, and he’ll  perform what my children will call miracles.” “I’ll ask the Holy Spirit to descend on Jesus in the form of a dove after his baptism. He’ll immediately be led into the desert and live for 40 days and nights without food or water.” He knew His children would mistakenly think the reason was to be tempted by a Satan which doesn’t exist. “I’ll have Jesus trained in the wilderness to only listen to the Holy Spirit; thus his ego will be completely eliminated. Jesus will be the only one in time who will perfectly manipulate his dreaming. He’ll walk on water, feed the multitudes, explain magnificent spiritual truths, heal the paralyzed, the blind will see, the deaf will hear and best of all, he’ll raise the dead. This will prove that death is an illusion.” He knew unfortunately His children would think he died for their sins. My Father understands nothing about my false universe and doesn’t even know what sin is. “I’ll have the same Holy Spirit Who healed Me, have Jesus thoroughly understand he is One with Me as I am One with Our Father. My creations will eventually understand the same Truth.” 

Jesus said while dying, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” He knew God doesn’t forgive because He sees nothing to forgive. This was proclaimed to place into the collective human consciousness the beauty and importance of forgiveness.

Chapter 7: The Meaning

It’s become clear that we’re destined to be Co-Creators with God. This insight came despite my ego’s persistent screaming that such a belief is insane. After awakening  from our dream because we’d achieved perfection in forgiveness our magnificent education will begin. Jesus explained in ACIM that the only difference between him and us is what is potential for us is his Reality. He has God and nothing else. He set in motion  2000 years ago the Atonement principle, the knowing that the one problem that ever existed was perfectly solved. We are not separate from God in any way, never have been nor ever will be. 

Gary Renard explains, “Imagine you’re watching TV and you forgive a news story you see. The Holy Spirit then spreads your forgiveness throughout the mind that projects the universe. This act cuts through unconscious guilt in all your past and future lives. As you practice forgiveness, the Holy Spirit collapses time, erasing the lessons you would have needed to learn. You might think, “This is boring, nothing’s happening,” however something extraordinary is happening. Perhaps a close friend was planning on stealing from you tomorrow, but this doesn't happen because you’d already forgiven a closer friend who had stolen. A lesson learned does not need repeating.”

Our ego is like an onion, peel away a layer, and it still looks and smells like an onion. The more we forgive vast layers of the ego are being peeled away. After our final forgiveness lesson, the ego is gone and there's no reason to reincarnate in our dream. God will awaken us in a cosmic instant and we’ll forever behold the perfection of the glorious Heaven that was created for all.

Chapter 8: ACIM Fourteen Core Beliefs

1. This world is not real. God did not create this world nor even know of its existence. The entire universe is an illusion dreamt by the Son of God.

2. Pure non-duality: Anything that comes from God must be exactly like Him. God could not create anything that is not perfect, or else He wouldn’t be perfect. 

3. Consciousness is the domain of the ego and was conceived after we dreamt of separation.

4. Spirit is unchanging, perfect, and eternal. This is the state of Heaven.

5. Truth is not different for everyone. Truth is truth.

6. There are no levels in Heaven. All conflict arises from the concept of   levels. We are either enlightened and back in reality with God, or still dreaming of separation. Only life in Heaven is real.

7. Life in all its myriad forms or possibilities is already scripted at the instant of separation. The only choice is in our mind, where we decide to identify with the Holy Spirit or with the ego, when interpreting each moment.

8. Life in this world is insane. Nothing makes sense in this world. The world was made as an attack on God.

9. There is only one higher self, the Holy Spirit. Also known as the Voice for God, our memory of God, or the reflection of God’s love in our dream.         

10. Collectively, we are the Son of God. God created only One Son of God. 

11. There is no evil or devil, only illusory madness projected by our ego mind and thankfully, they are not real.

12. Every attack is an attack upon ourselves. We project our unconscious guilt onto (dream) figures or situations that seemingly attack us. So now they are guilty, not us.The cause of our guilt arises from our imagined separation from God.

13. Life is a lesson. Every opportunity is used by the Holy Spirit to teach forgiveness to undo the ego mind.

14. Time and space are illusions, and Spirit has nothing to do with them.  

        God Is, Bob