Waiting for Sheila

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Keith Manos                                                                                                   

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Waiting for Sheila

Kevin stood by the open window, hoping for cool air to splash his warm skin on this scorching day, but all he got was his shadowy reflection in the glass. He wondered if all husbands shared that perplexed expression that labeled them as married. Kevin exhaled through the screen, and he noticed three vultures circling in the distance. What’s dying? he thought. Why haven’t they swooped in yet? Wait, where’s Sheila? She should be home by now! He turned his attention back to the front of his house, and a wave of relief washed over him when he saw the neighborhood street was still empty. 

            He hadn’t missed her.

            He was waiting for Sheila. For her Toyota to pull into the driveway. Kevin pressed his face against the windowpane and enjoyed a brief chill against his cheek, concluding that this is how husbands should behave. That they should wait for their wives to come home safely and then share the amusing or troubling events of the day that had happened during that agonizing time of separation.

            Kevin hadn’t always waited like this. Their love was certainly different before. Kevin remembered Sheila naked beneath him, the way her heavy breasts swayed as he lurched into her, the way they trusted each other to complete their lovemaking without theatrics, and afterwards, how he massaged the white swell of her back, and the cooing she did as his hand journeyed up and down her spine. 

            Not like now – because now she demanded he go slowly and stop all that spastic pushing. The truth is each of them took turns giving orders. And Sheila didn’t moan anymore, turning her head away instead, her eyes closed, waiting for him to finish so she could slide out from under him and go into the bathroom where she ran water into the sink and brushed her teeth.

            Those first years they had shared stolen moments in the bathroom, giggling as they urgently undressed each other. They had ignored the damp rug against their skin when they collapsed breathlessly to the floor, their sweaty faces pressed against each other’s hard shoulders. Sheila locked the bathroom door now, making him wait until she finished. 

            Hovering at the door, he would ask, “Sheila? Almost done?” 

            “Wait,” she had said, her voice unapologetic.

            If the shower was on, he would move back into the bedroom and open the dresser drawer where Sheila kept her panties and bras. Until the shower stopped, he would fondle the fabric, enjoying the feel of lace and satin against his fingertips. He remembered how they looked on her when she undressed, how just gazing at her that way aroused him.

            Now he waited for her in their living room, sitting on a cushioned chair he had slid next to the open window, his eyes on the street where little pools of light from streetlamps fell on the gray pavement. He viewed his face in the window glass again, pale and pinched, and wondered if he looked that way to Sheila, worrying that maybe he had always looked that way to her – eyes that blinked too much, blotchy cheeks, a skull-like mouth. What did she see in him? He decided he would ask her when she returned, in a casual way of course, maybe as they sipped herbal tea and munched on crackers at the kitchen table. 

            Some nights, Kevin massaged Sheila’s feet as they watched television – Law and Order because they both liked seeing the defendant get convicted at the end. When did we stop doing that? Kevin pondered. He missed those evenings when they sat side by side on the sofa, their shoulders cuddling with each other, and wished he’d taken a selfie so he could Facebook their friends with the photo of the happy couple.

            On weekends he took her shopping, waiting patiently outside the dressing room while she tried on dresses or skirts. When the credit card bill came at the beginning of the month, however, Kevin had asked about her spending – only about what she had purchased, mind you, when she’d gone shopping without him; he’d gladly pay any bill; he was only curious. He was an academic. A college teacher who was always curious.

            “Does it matter?” she had said, making him feel guilty for asking. 

            Kevin recognized this as rhetorical and didn’t answer. He sensed it:  Her need to have the upper hand.

            He had caught her lying only once when he had called Thompson, Schmidt, and Crane asking for her, and he’d been told all the paralegals had been given the day off. However, he never asked her where she had gone that day. He simply wrote down the date on a steno pad he kept in the nightstand drawer next to their bed, waiting for the right moment to show it to her. 

            They had resigned themselves that they couldn’t have kids, and after a while, neither of them cared enough to find out why Sheila never got pregnant. 

            Rain splattered the window now, and he worried about Sheila driving that evening on the slick roads. True, she had been driving for over twenty years but still he was concerned. “I’m going out,” she had said. 

            Where? Although desperate to know, Kevin had learned not to ask anymore. It only started an argument, and Sheila had the advantage:  She could slam the door on her way out.

            For some reason, the rain reminded Kevin of the time last year when he had suggested they go on a cruise, either Alaska or the Caribbean, and showed her the brochures. They could travel over his winter break from the college where he taught or during the summer, whenever she wanted. Sheila, however, glanced briefly at the brochures and dropped them without comment on the kitchen table for Kevin to pick up later. No, he decided then, we should at least talk about a cruise, so he left the brochures on the table, giving her another chance to examine them. When he came home from the college the next day, they were gone.

             Possibly, Kevin considered, she was visiting her mother tonight. Kevin never did. He wasn’t allowed. “She’s not your mother,” Sheila had explained, and Kevin accepted the fact that she was right. Her mom was in a nursing home, the poor woman suffering from dementia. 

            “Maybe we need counseling,” he responded, trying to catch her off guard.

            But Sheila seemed prepared for this. “What could a counselor tell us about ourselves that we don’t know already?”

            Again, Kevin recognized Sheila was right. 

            Still, Kevin had tried. He had made reservations at The Abbey, the kind of restaurant where they replace your fork the moment after you set it on the table; where young men scoot back their heavy chairs, get on one knee, and ask their dates to marry them; where classical music plays from hidden speakers, and dim lighting reflects elegance and high menu prices. Sheila ordered the seared salmon, while Kevin struggled deciding between the filet mignon and the pork chops. She waited impatiently until he finally chose the steak, and afterwards as they waited for the check, he suggested they get a hotel room. For fun. He smiled mischievously and reached for her hand across the white linen cloth on the table. Sheila accepted his hand, declined the proposal, and did not smile back. 

            He checked the street again. The rain came in misty sweeps over the driveway and lawn. Kevin thought about calling her cellphone, but would that reveal his desperation? Anger her? What are you doing, Kevin – Checking up on me? Jesus!

            At a tavern one Friday night months ago, Kevin had lamented about his marriage to his brother – a confession really, which, in Kevin’s view, implied weakness.         Michael, his brother, apparently recognized this and told him to get counseling, to do something – anything, man. Michael declared that maybe it might be good if they broke up because then Kevin could date a hot college coed. He winked at Kevin and grinned.

            “And lose my job?” Kevin stammered. “Are you serious?”

            Michael eyed him over the rim of his glass of scotch. “Maybe marrying Sheila was a mistake. How much longer do you want to live like this? You’re not getting any younger, Kev.”

            Kevin kept his eyes on his Heineken bottle, as if it was a student’s paper he had to grade. “I took her to The Abbey. I suggested we go on a cruise. I pay for her clothes.”

            Michael leaned back and studied his brother’s face. “Yeah? And how did all that work out?” Michael was being rhetorical too, so Kevin kept twirling his Heineken bottle.

            His brother persisted. “Are you thinking about a divorce?” 

            “No, of course not,” Kevin had said, waving a hand in front of him as if he could swat the word away. But did he?Did all of this – her refusal to go on a cruise, the evenings she spent away, the locked bathroom door – mean divorce? “Do you think I should get a divorce?”

            Michael’s face showed in the dim light of the corner tavern that he was growing bored with helping Kevin. “Jesus, Kev, figure it out.” Michael finished his scotch.

            At the living room window Kevin craned his neck left and right and recalled Sheila’s laughter. That was when she was the most open really – how she lifted her chin to the ceiling as if her giggles needed more space in the room. Kevin resolved to tell more jokes, even knock knock jokes. Sheila still smiled, but they were those functional smiles, the kind patrons give their server at restaurants when they bring them their drinks. 

            The sudden glow of a car’s headlights bounced on the wet pavement, and Kevin leaned even closer to the window, his breath coming quicker now, making little circles of fog on the glass. He settled back in the chair, however, when a station wagon passed his house. 

            Was there a new show on television they could watch together? One they could make their own? 

            He left the chair and went into the family room, turned on the television, and checked the program menu to find their new show. But when would she be home? Kevin, of course, realized he would accept whatever she wanted to watch, so he turned off the television and returned to the window. Once again, the balmy air warmed his face.

            Kevin finally moved to the door and stepped out onto the driveway. He abruptly discovered he was shoeless as the moisture from the rain soaked his white socks. His eyes widened. The Toyota was parked in the driveway. When had she come home? He touched the hood of the empty car. The metal was cold. 

            Kevin’s priority shifted to search and rescue. He stepped closer to the street and scanned their neighborhood. His eyes fell on the Schoner home. Last summer, he had spied Sheila stroking Pete Schoner’s arm on the patio during the neighborhood block party, a look of admiration in her eyes . . . no, it was adventure – the mystery of what could be. Her eyes gleamed, and Pete’s had darted from her face to her chest.

            He had to find Sheila. Had she come into the house without him knowing it? He went back inside, and his feet grew cold against his wet socks as he padded across the linoleum floor of the kitchen and into the carpeted dining room. Even in the semidarkness of the room, Kevin could tell she wasn’t there. He reversed himself and walked down the hallway to the master bedroom. He paused at the door and listened. Was she sleeping?

            Kevin opened the door, turned on the light, and saw the empty bed where the mattress still sagged from his body’s imprint, the covers thrown aside – the same way he had left them this morning. He checked the bathroom, but Sheila wasn’t there either. Nevertheless, he turned on the shower so she wouldn’t hear him surreptitiously open the drawer where she kept her panties and bras. Why not? he decided. He loved the way they sent an electric surge through his blood, the memories they summoned. Kevin’s fingers searched the drawer, even into the corners, but felt nothing. He stared into the empty drawer for a moment and then checked her closet, which was vacant too, except for a row of plastic hangers across the bar. Had she left again? 

            Back to the window, Kevin decided with an air of finality. He’d wait all night if he had to.

About Keith Manos

Keith has published eleven books to date, including his debut novel My Last Year of Life (in School) in 2015, which was traditionally published by Black Rose Writing.  His other fiction has appeared in both print and online national publications like Wrestling USAStorgyOctober Hill Press, and Chagrin River Review, among others. In 2000, Keith was named Ohio’s English Teacher of the Year by Ohio Council of Teachers of English/ Language Arts. 

August 04, 2020 20:06

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