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Dear diary,

Today, everyone at school made a laughing stock of me. What’s wrong with me? I’ve just got a scar slashed across my face? And everyone calls me scar face. I just want the floor to open up and gobble me, maybe even reincarnate me into something beautiful. I want to have fiery red hair, not curly black. I want to have lightly freckled pale skin, not olive skin. I want to be beautiful, not ugly.


Dear diary,

I impressed everyone with my photography skills and my artistic style at university. Suddenly I feel like my life has changed: it is all due to you diary. You made me beautiful. You changed me. My hair flows down my back like ink of a tilted piece of parchment. My eyes are now fox-like and have an icy greyish green hue, like the first sprouts of plants in the snow. I love myself and it’s all because of you!


Dear diary,

I look into the mirror everyday and think: why did my diary tell me a lie? I’m ugly, not beautiful. Yes, I can cover the scars with makeup. Or use a hair straightener to straighten my hair but what about when I don’t have those resources? What will I do? I didn’t tell you about Derek, did I? I met Derek at photography classes in uni and he loved me. But when I slept at his flat, he was in for a shock in the morning. The scar sent him running. The same scar that deepens every time it’s hurt. You and I are the same diary: we are both liars and fakers.


Dear diary,

I know you won’t want to be speaking to me. Sorry if I upset you, called you a faker, a liar. Sorry. Well I’ll spill the beans. I met this guy at uni graduation and apparently he’s Dereks older brother. He works as a chef at a restaurant and I don’t know whether I should wear makeup to the date or not. I think I shouldn’t because if he’s Dereks older brother then Derek must have told him about me, right? I won’t wear any makeup, or should I? I will but leave my scar visible.


Dear diary,

I got dressed. The crimson on my dress faded with jewels and my best ever makeup drizzled off of my face. People stared, made rude remarks and called me a disgrace to woman: if only they knew the real reason why I looked like this. So, I punched a few walls, got a fine for vandalism and that wasn’t the end. I went home and found out, Gary was on my doorstep. He said, this is better said than left undone. My stomach churned when he told me it was a dare to go on a date with the ugliest girl. I couldn’t do anything but slam the door in his face and weep in front of the television with a tub of chocolate ice cream. No one can blame me! I was right, but I can’t say anything to you or you won’t be my antidote anymore. You won’t be my only family anymore.


Dear diary,


I got accepted into art therapy. I have twenty clients attending and hopefully the number will rise. I have old people, young people, kids! I met an old lady and we sat for one hour talking about life and marriage. Whilst we did that, we sketched whatever came to mind. I sketched two wedding rings and three doves for each family member I have left behind. Doris drew strawberries, attempted to anyway. Then, Ray. Oh, Ray. Ray is a handsome man who helps there and then. He helped me move my items to my studio and is now attending art therapy. But I know, I shouldn’t get my hopes up. I don’t wear makeup anymore for a start! So he knows what I look like.


Dear diary,

Before you have a go at me, no I’m not writing with any issues, I just want to talk. My sadness is hollowness. I can’t tell you what’s worse. Sometimes my hollowness is a shell, holding in a thousand oceans of tears. Sometimes though, it hold a thousand pieces of glass that are wedged in between , my soul and body. That’s the pain. Times like when my cat died, I didn’t cry. I just stood there. Or when everybody laughed and I couldn’t bring myself to do it. That’s the scariest thing. Sometimes I am somebody, somebody in pain and sadness. But sometimes I’m nobody, and I don’t seem to feel. I don’t want to exist at all... This is what I told Ray and he didn’t be rude about it, laugh, nor support me. He didn’t judge. He didn’t give sympathy. He just hugged with gentleness and tinges of comfort. That is what I want in a man, that is what I want.


Dear diary,

Ray and I have been together for sometime. He did the sweetest thing and got a tattoo of the same scar on his face, the same size, shape, length. I love him. As Aristotle alluded to, a man who does not enjoy the act of doing good deeds is not a good man; thus, for a virtue to exist as a virtue, it must stem from love and thus love must be the supreme virtue from which all others branch.


Dear diary,

Ray took me out for a milkshake and took me to the movies, which I insisted on paying for since this is 2020! Us woman don’t need to go the old fashioned way; well only if he’s making me dig too far in my small pockets! He proposed to me in the middle of the theatre, in front of everyone, well if you count the seats.


Dear diary,

We got married. We got married! WE GOT MARRIED! I would break your eardrums if I spoke any louder, oh who cares, you don’t have ears, your a diary! I am beautiful. I was always beautiful. I didn’t need fake people, I needed real people. We live, we love, we laugh. We are who we are! We are somebody beautiful. Nobody can change that, not even diaries.

April 06, 2020 16:41

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Eden Myers
17:09 Apr 11, 2020

This is so well written! Great job :)

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Yoomi Ari
17:13 Apr 11, 2020

Thanks:)

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Neha Dubhashi
21:36 Apr 09, 2020

So moving. It threw light on a scarier aspect of society. I'm glad that she had a happy ending.

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Yoomi Ari
22:08 Apr 09, 2020

Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed it! XXX

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This is really beautiful, honestly this should've been the winner.

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Yoomi Ari
18:43 May 21, 2020

Thank you! But honestly, Zilla Babbitt deserved this one. Her story was THE ONE! Thank you though😊

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Tvisha Yerra
02:50 Apr 20, 2020

I love her personality! I wish you wrote how she got the scar, I'm curious to know!

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Yoomi Ari
11:37 Apr 20, 2020

Thank you! Now looking back, I regret not telling how she got the scar. It is what it is! Thanks!

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Scout Tahoe
02:35 Apr 16, 2020

This is a heartfelt story that is bubbling with emotion. Fantastic job!

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Yoomi Ari
10:19 Apr 16, 2020

Thank you!😊

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Amel Parvez
07:40 May 25, 2021

it was AMAZING! it was sad in the beginning but yeah Thank God that she found herself a partner :) <3

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Avani G
03:08 Dec 01, 2020

Great job, Twilight. I loved the message of self-courage, and especially the roller coaster I went on with the mc. In the end, she realizes that self-love is most important, and that's what I love most about this story. In your bio, I realized you said that you were taking a break for a bit. I totally understand, but I hope to see you back on here soon because you write amazing stories. Wherever you are in life right now, I hope you are happy there.

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Aditi S.K
13:12 Nov 13, 2020

This story is really amazing.

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10:57 Oct 22, 2020

Woah. I was scrolling to older stories and found this. Fabulous. It feel like that sometimes. It would be lovely to know that why how she got the scar.

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Yoomi Ari
15:46 Nov 08, 2020

Thank you

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04:27 Nov 09, 2020

Your very welcome :)

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Sam T.
19:37 Apr 30, 2020

This was an amazing read, especially your descriptions of pain and emptiness, i could feel them... also i loved the girl's character, and Ray's as well :)

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Yoomi Ari
22:18 Apr 30, 2020

Thank you so much for your kind comment!:)

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Sam T.
14:49 May 01, 2020

💜💜

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Yoomi Ari
16:19 May 01, 2020

❤️

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Riddhi S.
17:39 Apr 24, 2020

Sorry for the late comment, but I just wanted to say that this story is so unique and truly beautiful. :)

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Yoomi Ari
18:30 Apr 24, 2020

Thank you!:)

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Chrystel Roberts
18:41 Apr 19, 2020

A beautiful story. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it.

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Yoomi Ari
22:40 Apr 19, 2020

Thank you so much for your kind comments! XXX

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Dhanya ~
11:24 Apr 17, 2020

This is really moving I'm glad that the character had a happy ending 😊 and the message of the story is amazing :)

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Yoomi Ari
16:47 Apr 17, 2020

Thank you so much for your kind comments:)

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Grace Hicks
02:40 Apr 17, 2020

Amazing story! It struck home. It's sad that we often don't feel beautiful. I'm glad she was able to find happiness and love. Everyone deserves that. Terrific job!

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Yoomi Ari
09:29 Apr 17, 2020

Thank you so much for your kind comments! I agree that often we don’t feel beautiful but we are on the inside! Thanx!

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Wendy Minore
12:49 Apr 16, 2020

I loved that! I was actually worried she wouldn't have a happy ending for a minute. What Day did was so cute though!! Love it!

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Yoomi Ari
13:47 Apr 16, 2020

Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed it😊

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16:41 Apr 15, 2020

This story is amazing and shares a beautiful message! Great job!!!

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Yoomi Ari
19:36 Apr 15, 2020

Thank you so much!😀

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Alexa Andino
15:46 Apr 15, 2020

Such a heartwarming ending. Great message. Loved reading it!

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Yoomi Ari
19:35 Apr 15, 2020

Thank you so much!😊

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Anitha Sankaran
02:57 Apr 15, 2020

I love happy endings. Beautiful story.

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Yoomi Ari
11:02 Apr 15, 2020

Me too! Thank you Anitha! I appreciate it.

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Camaro Thompson
00:51 Apr 13, 2020

amazing!!😍🤩

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Yoomi Ari
12:21 Apr 13, 2020

Thank you so much! ❤️

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04:48 Apr 07, 2020

Great job. In a way, I could feel her pain as she got rejected countless times. I'm just so glad she got someone in the end who was willing to stand by her. That's really beautiful.

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Yoomi Ari
15:47 Apr 07, 2020

Thank you! I’m glad because I didn’t know if anyone would feel her pain. Thanks!

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