Love conquers it all

Summer break is over.It time for another exhausting,fun,thrilling semester after the two months break we were given.Well,the break was interesting because I became someone's girlfriend so I had this sweet relationship goals with my boyfriend,Joshua.

Joshua and I met at a supermarket few weeks ago when I went to get some groceries for my mom.We actually bumped into each other when we both went for a pack of tacos simultaneously.A little spark occurred between us.In my mind I was wondering who this handsome guy was until he broke the little silence.‘I am so..sorry,you can go for it first' he said with his husky voice.“Thank you" I said smiling.I picked my pack of tacos and put it in my cart.I was about leaving when he called me though not by name.“Hey bumper”he called out,I turned showing a fake frown at him and within some seconds he closed the space between us and whispered to my left ear “you are stained,shouldn't get a sanitary pad?”.Oh my God!I am so embarrassed right now.He noticed my embarrassed face and told me.“It is nothing to be ashamed of” and I replied with a slight furious tone“I am not ashamed”.Then he asked “what are you going to do?”,I gave him no reply because I can work to the sanitary section with my stained ass so I gave him that pitiful face-look and he totally understood what I wanted.He took off his jacket and told me to use to cover myself while he would go get me the sanitary pad.I noticed butterflies fluttered in my stomach.Awn...sweet guy.I kept on smiling till he was back.So he basically helped me and saved me from embarrassment.From that day we exchanged contacts and became friends.We got to know each other better and we are a beautiful item now.

The school environment is still freshing as it has always been.Students driving into the parking lot with their new ride,coming out looking so good and fresh while I am here resting on my 2019 audi model waiting for my babes.We couldn't see each other during the summer holiday because we had plans already laid out for us then.Lizzie went to visit her dad over seas.Ever since her mom and dad got separated,she has been living with her mom and it is been long she visited her dad because he stays far from her and her mother.Her dad and mom separation wasn't a dirty one.Their relationship wasn't working so they went their separate ways but still talked and cared for each other and for me,mostly.Angel had this swimming competition during the holiday which she needed to practice for diligently because it would be a big win for her.Indeed it was a big win for her because she got a full time scholarship in our college.She made her loved ones proud.We were all happy for her and we are going to throw a congratulatory party for her.She doesn't know about it yet because it between I,Mirabel,Lizzie.Mirabel on the other hand went for a family vacation in Chile.

After five minutes waiting,I saw my babes coming towards my direction looking so beautiful.I miss them.We hugged,exchanged funny pleasantries and went for our first class of this semester.Lizzie was the only one not in our department but we offer some courses together.The day ended well with my girlfriends.

Joshua and I relationship has been good so far,full of love and romance though not to deep romance.He has been asking for sex but I always decline him which cause a little rift between us.He always ask the reason why I don't want to have sex with him and I told him I am not just ready for it.I got a call from him yesterday afternoon which I was anxiously expecting and later wished I shouldn't be anxious about it.It's been three days we spoke to each other or even chat until he called and we talked for few minutes.Those few minutes were devastating.Over the phone,he apologized about the fight so did I and then he spilled what has been eating him up.“Tory,I don't know your exact reason why you don't want sex in our relationship but I just can't hold,I feel it makes our bond stronger but...” before he could finish his sentence I interrupted him “sex!sex!!sex!!!.What's wrong with you Josh?Is the love I have for you not enough?why Josh?”.I can't believe I started crying because of a guy.“I am sorry Tory.Okay,we will work it out I promise.Please don't cry".He said with a pleading voice.At that second I ended the call.Luckily for me,my roommate wasn't inside so I let the tears to roll down from my eyes.Was it necessary?I asked myself alone in the room.

“Hey glowing girl" Lizzie called me but I didn't not hear until she flipped or strike her fingers in front of me.“Hey" I said with a tiring voice then she asked “You got something on your mind you want to talk about?"she asked but I denied and she wasn't buying it.Out of my three,it's Lizzie I am closest to.“You better spit it out or i'mma beat your ass" she said.“I am not in the mood to discuss it" I told and thank God she agreed with arguing about it.“Our duet are at the cafeteria,let's go drain our worries with some food and drinks" she said beaming.Lizzie is literally a foodie.

“If it's not working don't force it" Mirabel said out aloud staring at her phone.We all looked at her perplexed.She noticed and said it's a story she is reading on.And it about a guy who has high sexual urge and his girlfriend can't take it anymore but she isn't ready to let him go because she still loves him.The story made spill out what's on my mind since two days ago night.“Do you think a relationship can grow stronger without sex?" I asked the trio of them not directing the question at anyone in particular.

Angel was the first to give her thought.“I guess not.why?because it actually help to build bond between you and your partner.But wait,why won't you want to have sex with your partner when you both are active?"I rolled my eyes,because Angel is partially a sex maniac,she loves sex.“But it's actually depends,based on how strong the love you and your partner have for each other.Having sex with your partner doesn't mean your relationship will last,some partners sex life isn't that good and their relationship is still strong" Lizzie said.“My thought exactly"I said and then she gave me this suspicious look.“Spill it now,Toria" she said.“Okay babes,Josh and I have been having this big fight about sex in our relationship.I don't know what to do".I said sadly.“Why don't you want to give him sex" Mirabel asked.“Honestly,I don't really know why.Not that I am scared about sex.I am just scared of giving it all to him and it's not enough" I said.“Wait,what do you mean by that?are you feeling insecure in your relationship?Angel asked.“

So I explained to them why I felt insecured about my relationship was ever since I realized Josh ex who disflowered him want back.I knew about it when I mistakenly read their and I never questioned him about it.So I always think if I give in to him and I am doing it right with him he would cheat on me.But my girls cleared me I have that thought because I am over protective of him.Maybe that's because he is my love and I don't want to get heart broken.

“Victoria,loving someone is a risk because shit happens"Angel said.“The chat you saw might not mean a thing,you guys just need to talk some things out.Sex or no sex what matters is trusting and loving each other"Mirabel said to me.She is this playful girl but always serious when she is giving advice.

After the discussion I had with my girls,I called Josh we need to meet and talk about us because honestly,I am not ready to let him go.I went to his condo,the place we are to see.I got to his front door and i heard some noises inside.He was arguing with a girl.Who could that be?.“She is not as good as I am,right?.I know you still want me"the girl said.“My regret was loving you,Venita.You were never satisfied,you demand too much for everything.Sex,money,everything.You know what,I found someone who I know I truly love,she's is not a sex maniac like us,you made me feel sex was love but with her it made me feel weird like something is wrong with her anything she decline me of sex" he talked back at her angrily.“Oh good,for you both.I own you".she shouted back at him.He clarified her that she doesn't own him and said some shitty things to her.She left angrily without noticing me.I went inside and I saw the angry Josh,I apologized to him and told him about how I felt,the fear and insecurity.In fact,I told him about the chat and he explained the whole situation to me about his ex.I apologised to him again for not trusting and believing him enough he loves so much.And he assured me that if I am not ready then he is not.“Sex or not Tory,our bond ain't breaking or diminishing,I love you girl"he told me softly caressing my cheek.“I love you boy"I said back and kissed him.