Broken and Freed

I woke up sweating profusely,feeling scared and alone in the house.It was more of reality than a dream.I rushed down to my sister's room to check if she was there but she wasn't.Did she leave without a goodbye?I got to the kitchen and I saw a little white paper on the paper.On it written:

 Your food is in the microwave,sleeping beauty.I left early and i couldn't disturb your splendid sleep.xoxo.

I smiled and said in my head you should have disturbed the sleep,there was nothing splendid about it.

 It was a silent and lonely pathway,covered with trees.I just found myself there,I don't know where I am,what place it is but I know I was alone.The trees were making an incessant noise,I tried to keep my cool then I got frightened by the figure that appeared before me.Nicole!.

 ‘Nicole' I said softly but still scared.She smiled at me but it was weird and said ‘follow me',giggling.‘You are dead',I uttered not thinking before I talked.Then she laughed hysterically.‘Yes witch,you made that happened'.She said with disgust and frowned at me before I could talked she dragged me,piercing me with her nails which she cared less about.Honestly,I don't know why she is doing this to me.I had nothing to do with her death so why am I suffering for this?I cried at the pain and told her she was hurting me but she turned a deaf ear to me.

‘Hey bitch,wake up!'.I opened my eyes slowly and I couldn't depict how I got tied down to this chair in an abandoned house.‘What is going on Nicole?' I asked with teary eyes.‘You ruined me Stella,never cared about my emotions,always the center of attraction,why?',screaming out loudly.I am totally lost about what she is saying,ruined her??She was the quiet type in the class,not quite smart in books but in art,she is great that if she builds herself up because I guess she has a low self esteem.

‘You know I hate you but I hate my mom more' She said with a disappointed tone,teary eyes.She talked about the reasons she hates me and how I caused her death.How could a parent be brutal to her child's emotion.Her mom was the actual cause of it all.

Her mom always compare her to me,abuses her because of her average performance and still compare her to me.She never appreciates or see beauty in her daughter's drawing.Always after the dream she has planned for her daughter which is to be a lawyer. Any arguments they had,my name was always mentioned in it.She never lived her life peacefully because of comparison.Her mother made it hard for her.She gulped all it in and never voiced out,she never had friends because of the low self esteem her mom infested on her.No wonder she was all alone.I felt guilty and pitied her.

‘I am so sorry,Nicole.I never know all of these and how you were hurting.I am so so sorry'.I apologized deeply,crying but she was focused on the knife she unveiled on the table.‘Yeah,right.How would you know?you were loved by everyone and they always want to be your friend compared to me,I have no one'.

‘It hurts Stella to be discarded by someone who you think will love you for who you are and not what they want you to be.It was too much for me and I just had to end the pain'.

Stepping closer to me,she kneeled before and asked ‘What would you have done?'.Honestly,I don't know how to answer that and I began to cry profusely.Then she brought the knife closer to my neck,then to my face.She was just toying the knife on my body.I was so scared and begged her not to hurt.

‘I am sorry Stella' she said standing to her feet before I knew it she raised to knife about to kill me and I woke up.

I took out my food from the microwave.It was my favourite she prepared today but I had no appetite for it right now.I walked lazily to the sitting room and dropped my body on the couch.I had no intention on what to do right now,I can't sleep because I am to scared to continue the dream, I can't take a walk because I am to scared to end up in an unknown place like it happened in the dream besides it way too hot outside.I turn on the TV,changing from one channel to another,got tired of it and threw the remove on another couch.I closed my eyes for few seconds and Nicole face appeared in my head then I began to cry.The dream seemed like a revelation to me.I truly pitied her.She do not deserve all what her mom did to her,no one did.

I don't just want to lay on the couch doing nothing,I don't want to have any thoughts about the dream so I decided to lick some ice cream.I kept scoping the ice cream little by little in my mouth until I heard the door opened.It was my sister.She was already close to me,I stood up and hugged her tightly then I began to cry.‘I might have been involved in Nicole's death' I told her,breathing heavily.She told me to feel relaxed and explain while we both sat on the couch resting my head on her chest.I explained everything to her and she said in was not to be blamed.And she made me feel at ease

It was a terrible nightmare I don't want to have again.My worst nightmare.I could not believe I was part of Stella's pain.I confirmed all what she said in the dream to be true because her heard her mom was harsh towards her.Her death didn't hurt most people because she wasn't really noticed.I wanted to be her friend but did not know how to make one.I am not good at it.People always come to me.I felt so sorry for her.

Few weeks later after my dream,I visited her grave,dropped some flowers and pasted a note ‘I am sorry for being your pain,I hope you can forgive me'.