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Vic leaned back against the cement wall of the out-of-order restaurant, the bottle containing amber coloured liquid in his hand clinking as he set it on the ground. I watched as he bent his head back to touch the wall and shut his eyes tight. 



This was hard for both of us. 


The cemetery was only one block away. 


We would have to stop avoiding the obvious and go soon. 


But we couldn’t. 



I knew what was to happen next when I found him in my kitchen that morning. Not because there was a guy in my kitchen, he was always at my house, if he wasn’t, I was at his house. But because of the day. The time. His red eyes. 


Most people think I’m his sister when they see us. Maybe because the sister he has- I mean had is gone. We felt like siblings too. Me, him, and Marilyn. She would be the smart, older sister, Vic would be the not-so-innocent middle child and I would be the youngest. Although me and Vic could be twins, if you base it off our birthdays. He was only two weeks older, and we were born at the same hospital. 


I think Baby Victor knew the day he saw me. Even if he was only two weeks old. I think he knew I was the one. The one he would be inseparable with. The one he would eventually make his best friend, and then his almost-sister. 



What he didn’t know is the pain he was causing to the sister he had. 



Marylin was the girl everyone loved. Adults used her as a role model for their kids, boys would always ask her out, and people would beg to be friends with her, and she would make them her friends. She was popular, but not in the “Mean Girls” way. She was popular because she was kind, and sweet. And yes, I’ll admit, she was pretty. 


I remember when we were little, we would braid each other’s hair, paint our nails, you know, the girly stuff little girls would do. She was a nice person, but that didn’t mean she didn’t have a feisty side. Normal Marylin was nothing like Party Marylin. Party Marylin drank as many margaritas as she pleased, while Normal Marylin stuck to orange juice. Party Marylin got with any boy she chose, but Normal Marylin would never touch a boy if her life depended on it. 



I looked over at Victor, and I could tell he was still reliving the same memories. Tears filled his already red rimmed eyes. I could feel needles behind my own. 


I put an arm around his shoulders, shifting closer to him on the dirty gravel ground. The restaurant was closed, and had been for twenty years. It served as our spot to grieve before we went to the cemetery. I guess no one bothered to knock down the crumbling place. It emitted sad, lonely vibes, and had a calm environment. It was perfect for our cause. 



“Hey….remember when she egged your mom’s car and blamed it on us? We got grounded for two weeks after that.”, a small smile decorated my face as I thought about the memory. 


Vic put his head between his knees, the bottle in his hand again. I hated the fact that he drinks. But I let it slide. 


“And...and that time when she found a kitten in your backyard? Remember how she took it in, cleaned it up, fed it, and took it to the animal shelter because you dad was allergic?” I thought that would’ve made him smile. Or stop crying at least. 



Guys didn’t cry often, which I thought was weird. Well, probably because I was so used to mental breakdowns attacking me. Vic didn’t cry, but when he did, he made sure no one could see the tears dripping down his face. 


I was starting to get desperate. 



“Remember when-” 


“JUST STOP IT KEELY. STOP IT.” 



His outburst shocked me. He had lifted his head up to shout at me, and now you could see his face. His cheeks were wet, and his eyes were wide and red. His mouth was slightly open, his dark hair disheveled. 



“I thought I was helping-” 


“HOW? HOW IS REMINDING ME OF THE PERSON I LOST HELPING?” 


“I THOUGHT IT WOULD MAKE IT EASIER TO LET GO!” 


Now I was shouting too. 


“MAYBE FOR YOU. BUT ALL IT DOES FOR ME IS IT SERVES AS A KNIFE STABBING MY BRAIN LIKE THE WAY SHE STABBED-” 


“No.” 



I stopped him with one word. And it was quiet. Barely audible over his shouts. But he heard. I couldn’t let him say it. It would only make things worse. 


He slumped back against the wall. 



“I’m sorry.”, he whispered. 


“Me too.” 



I hugged him tighter, wishing this never would’ve happened. Wishing everything would be okay. 


Wishing she was here with us. 


I wondered if Marylin knew, or understood the pain she was going to cause us. I wonder if she knows now. 


Victor cleared his throat and sat up a little straighter, putting the bottle down. 



“I- I guess we should...get going.” 


His voice was hoarse and gravelly, as a result of the tears he shed. 


“Only if you’re ready.” 



He shut his eyes then opened them again. Vic stood up, the bottle slipping unheeded from his hand, and thankful not breaking. He then offered his hand to me, looking down with a sad smile. I took his hand and got up, brushing myself off. 



And it began. 


The dreaded walk. 


I guess you could call it the “Walk of Grief”. 



He took my hand in a death grip, needing reassurance that I was there. I squeezed back. 


We walked slowly. Down the sidewalk. Cars whizzed by us, inattentive of the pain we were going through. 



Then we saw it. 


The black, wired fence that represented the start, the border of the cemetery. 


The graveyard. 


Her resting place. 


Today marked the one year anniversary. 


One year.


It’s crazy to think it’s been one year. 


One year and we were still grieving. 


One year and we still can’t let go. 



Vic froze in his tracks. I stopped with him. 


We were in front of the entrance now, in front of the sign that had the name inscribed on it. 


Montgomery Cemetery 


The place we had been visiting every month.


The place that collected all our tears and listened to our woes. 



I took a deep breath, fighting the wave of nausea and tears slowly getting bigger in my head. 


Then I clutched his hand, and pulled him in. 


We didn’t need to look around for directions. Our feet followed the worn path in the grass that had been carved by us twelve months ago, when we first went. 



There. In the grass. 


Surrounded by bouquets of wilting flowers. 


Her headstone. 


I couldn’t help it. The tears came. 



What one was a pricking sensation behind my eyes was now a tsunami or tears running down my face like a waterfall. We fell on our knees, the stone before our eyes. I saw tears leaking out of Victor’s face too. 



𝐻𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝑀𝒶𝓇𝓎𝓁𝒾𝓃 𝑅𝑒𝑒𝒹 


𝒜 𝓈𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇. 𝒜 𝒹𝒶𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉𝑒𝓇. 𝒜 𝓈𝓉𝓊𝒹𝑒𝓃𝓉. 


𝐻𝑒𝓇 𝓂𝑒𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒷𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇. 



Vic cleared his throat then took a deep breath. 



“I- I broke my promise”, he said in a small voice. 


“What promise?” 


“My promise.” 



He looked at me in my eyes and a sense of understanding passed between us. 


Fresh tears rolled down my face. 


I slowly reached out a shaking hand and took his hand, turning it to one side so his wrist was exposed. 


My my eyes widened in sheer terror as I saw it.



It was there. 


The scar. 


The one that proved that he really had broken his promise.


The one caused by a knife of his own. 


The promise to not make the same mistake his sister did. 


I looked up at him, water blurring my vision. 



“She wouldn’t have wanted this.” 


He stayed silent. 



“She wouldn’t have wanted you to die in the same way she took her own life.”


January 31, 2021 01:17

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Kate Reynolds
23:22 Feb 07, 2021

OH MY GOD.......... THE ENDINGGSDLKGLSDBGJLSDBGLSDBG I really liked how you slowly revealed what happened, and I loved the descriptions, the details, and just everything in general!!! It really made the story feel more realistic.

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Sapphire ~♚
23:44 Feb 07, 2021

WOW! THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Kate Reynolds
23:47 Feb 07, 2021

NPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ONLY SPEAK THE TRUTH

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Sapphire ~♚
00:08 Feb 08, 2021

XDDD

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Kate Reynolds
00:12 Feb 08, 2021

XD

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Mango Chutney
23:01 Feb 07, 2021

Wow... when I started reading I was not expecting it to end that way ...!!! Good one ..

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Sapphire ~♚
23:04 Feb 07, 2021

THANK YOU!

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Amaya .
18:55 Feb 04, 2021

*literally just asks parents to translate Telugu writing in ur bio* perks of being Telugu :p also google translate actually does work for it audhfdkyusjhfgakdsfj but i won't reveal what it says in case anyone is reading this. creates an air of mystery :)

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Sapphire ~♚
19:25 Feb 04, 2021

You're- You're telugu....... O M G YEASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS Neeku telusa nenu okadhanay telugu ammai akunuka!!! WOOOOOOOOP #TELUGUGANG Also updated the telugu thing to something more iNtErEsTiNg I can't type in telugu so google translate is my calling. So if your parents read it and are like "what the heck?" it's cuz of that lol

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Amaya .
19:43 Feb 04, 2021

YESSS TELUGU GANGGGG i never knew there was anyone else! you thought you were the only Telugu girl?? SAME!! ooh okay I'll check it out same i cant read or write but i can speak and understand, so i could figure out the thing that you said because it was in English characters instead of Telugu characters, yk? iadsjfhkaufj yeah

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Sapphire ~♚
19:45 Feb 04, 2021

HAHAHA SAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ALRIGHT YOU ARE OFFICIALLY ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS GIRL JUST THINK OF ALL THE SECRET CONVOS WE CAN HAVE!!!!!!! LOL EXACT SAME SITUATION FOR ME XD Telugu lo ne favourite boothu ainte? Also, emiti sangatulu? XDD LMAO

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Amaya .
20:56 Feb 04, 2021

i know, right! it'll be super secret :) okay got all those words except for boothu. einte lethu. nah life boring gah unthee. studies, writing. anthe. neeku? lmao this is so funnn

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Amaya .
20:57 Feb 04, 2021

also na story review chastava? reviews cavalee. neeku time undha?

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Sapphire ~♚
21:00 Feb 04, 2021

IKR Emi ledu. Chala boring ga undi, school koda asalu nanu vadaltulethu. Chestanu, kani koncham time kavali :) Na friend ki telugu nerpisthe, kavali ni KAH-VAH-LIE ani anutundi XD

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Amaya .
19:44 Feb 04, 2021

hahaha i love the bio thingggg i figured it out again but i used google translate. :p

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Sapphire ~♚
19:47 Feb 04, 2021

Hahaha LOL that's okay I would've too XD

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Amaya .
20:18 Feb 04, 2021

:)

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Sapphire ~♚
20:19 Feb 04, 2021

:DD

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01:44 Feb 04, 2021

Oh Sapphire, I'm so happy you write so beautifully. I'm a fan. I loved this story. For the sake of trying to find something to critique, I wonder if you could change the sentences where you go into second person POV. I think "you" is in the narration twice. It may take the reader out of the story, or so I've learned. I may be wrong in this case. I'm still new to this critiquing for fiction. Overall, I found it to be a poignant and entertaining read. Great job! (I'll only post once this time. Ha ha!) Your Montreal friend, Trina

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Sapphire ~♚
18:09 Feb 04, 2021

Thank you so much for this comment! No, you're critique is amazing! I will look into that :) :D Thank you so much!

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03:21 Feb 01, 2021

Sapphhhhhh😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Howwww?? I'm cryingggggg In all seriousness though, this was beautiful. In the beginning, you were able to introduce new information without piling on and you made it fit well with the tone of the story. The title, the emotion, the thought process, the characters, everything was beautiful. It felt like your words were flowing off the page. This was very well done and you portrayed the true emotions of people who go through this. Seriously tho Sapph! Were you not the person who like, two or three days ago, told me you...

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Sapphire ~♚
15:42 Feb 01, 2021

🥺.....this made my day! Really? It....I- I did it? THANK YOU SO MUCH LUNA!!!! 🥺😭

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15:49 Feb 01, 2021

of COURSEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! Yess!!!!! You deserve ittttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Sapphire ~♚
15:54 Feb 01, 2021

:DDDDDDD !!!!!!!!!!

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16:04 Feb 01, 2021

:DDDD

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05:20 Jan 31, 2021

Eeeeeeeee THIS. WAS. SO. GOOD!! I loved it! *bows in front of KWEEN Saph* A little critique..... Maybe make the ending a little more dramatic? Like Her eyes enlarged in terror as Vic pulled out.... Like that :DD

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Sapphire ~♚
19:13 Jan 31, 2021

Yeah I will fix that soon! Thank you!

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04:08 Feb 01, 2021

Cool, Welcome! Btw, are you okay? I don't think you are...

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Sapphire ~♚
15:42 Feb 01, 2021

what? Oh I'm fine! eh. Lol Thank you for checking in :) How are you doing?

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16:08 Feb 01, 2021

Welcome! What's wrong...... you don't seem that cheery... boys? Who do I need to murder? Oh :) I'm good, my brain is just clogged up with math equations ;)

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Sapphire ~♚
16:23 Feb 01, 2021

Ha, I wish. Nah, if it were that, I'm sure they would be dead by now XD Idk....cheery? Hm no one has every described me as cheery so that's new XD Welp, I'm nto sure, I guess I'm doing fine :) Ah, math. WHY IN ALL OF THE UNIVERSE DO I NEED TO KNOW HOW TO SOLVE TRIANGLES WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET IT BE AN INNOCENT POOR TRIANGLE XDD

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Maya
19:11 Feb 12, 2021

If you want to play Skribble at 3:30 EST I'll put the link at the bottom of my bio. :)

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Sapphire ~♚
23:14 Feb 12, 2021

XD thanks for the notice :)

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Maya
00:17 Feb 13, 2021

XD

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Maya
00:29 Feb 12, 2021

What happened? XD Sorry, I'm confused.

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Sapphire ~♚
17:55 Feb 12, 2021

XD Basically, Ame has a problem with anything thats not PG, at it upsets her very much, as you saw over there XDD

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17:58 Feb 12, 2021

*CLEARS THROAT*

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Sapphire ~♚
17:59 Feb 12, 2021

XD I was upset and frustrated cause i didnt know what to say in those situations XD Im not as awesome as you and lunaaaa!! and no, ur not missing anything, it is what it sounds like XD

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Maya
17:57 Feb 12, 2021

Oh. But why were you upset? I feel like I'm missing something. XD

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Maya
04:35 Feb 11, 2021

Reedsy-cast out! :D

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Sapphire ~♚
17:59 Feb 11, 2021

WOOP!

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Maya
19:44 Feb 10, 2021

If you would like to play at 3:30 EST I'm going to put the link in my bio (at the bottom XD) :)

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Sapphire ~♚
23:27 Feb 10, 2021

:DDD Lol i couldnt XDD

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Maya
23:29 Feb 10, 2021

XDDD

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05:39 Feb 10, 2021

Hi Kweeennnnnn nnnn !! Ahhh I'm so excitedddd !! Okayyy! Sooooo *squeals in excitement lmao* I'm doing a reedsy fanfic thing!! Sooo please mention all these categories (if your fine with you being in it) Name: Hair colour (could be anything) : Eye Colour: Power: (im water) Secret Weakness: A secret about your character: How do you want your character to be? Like yourself? : Outfit: Weapon (if any) (im sword): Lemme know quick!!

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Sapphire ~♚
16:46 Feb 10, 2021

*GASP* YESSSSS KWEENNNNNN Name: Sapphire or Saphira lol Hair colour: Black fading to silver Eye colour: Silverrr Power: Able to control "Darkness" (If you read kotlc, then a Shade) Weakness: Failure A secret about my character: She's secretly related to the villain Personality: Like myself XD Also kinda enigmatic Outfit: Whatever you put me in, as long as its black cause apparently that's my characters vibe Weapon: A spear made out of shadows :DDDDD

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17:07 Feb 10, 2021

*Lmao YASSSS* WOWZAAA OF XOUTSE I READ KOTLC ITS LIKE TJE BEST SEROES IN TJE WHOLE WILD WORLD AHHHHHB I LURVE ITTTTF! *ahem ahem* I'm sorry, but wowwww yess girl!

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Sapphire ~♚
17:26 Feb 10, 2021

XDDDDDDDDDDD HAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA XDD YEASSSSS

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17:30 Feb 10, 2021

LMAOOOOO YASSSSSS

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Sapphire ~♚
17:33 Feb 10, 2021

XDDDDD

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Maya
18:53 Feb 07, 2021

Do you have any idea what happened to Bill?? He deleted at his stories and his bio. :(

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Sapphire ~♚
21:34 Feb 07, 2021

WHAT? Wdym?!!!

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Maya
21:53 Feb 07, 2021

He deleted everything and he isn't responding to anyone. Lily tried to message him in hangouts but he blocked her. None of us know what happened. :((( Nice new name!!! :)))

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Sapphire ~♚
21:56 Feb 07, 2021

OH NO WHAT OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOMETIHNG PROBABLY HAPPENED Oh nooo bill I hope you're okay :(((( Did i make you uncomfortable or mad? :((((((( 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 (thanks btw i love your pfp)

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Maya
21:58 Feb 07, 2021

I hope he's okay! I wonder what made him leave?? DDDDDD: Did you talk to him at all this morning or anything?? The last I talked to him was last night and he didn't seem upset then. :((( (thanks :)

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Sapphire ~♚
22:11 Feb 07, 2021

IM NOT SURE No, I just got on the computer right now. Same, the last I talked to him was yesterday :((( Maybe something bad happened :(( Maybe he's going through some stuff rn DDDDDDDD;

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Raelynn Wei
18:59 Feb 06, 2021

Hey, Saph! This story was just... *scrunches up face, trying to find the right word* It was beautiful. The emotion and the distinguishing between characters was perfect. The story really flows by easily and quickly, I love it. The emotion is so raw and real, it's perfect for the story. Amazing job! -L. Brooks

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Sapphire ~♚
21:47 Feb 06, 2021

Really?! Wow I- THANK YOU!

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Raelynn Wei
21:50 Feb 06, 2021

:D

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Maya
05:43 Feb 06, 2021

If you would like to be in the first part of my new reedsy-cast series could you fill out this form? :) https://forms.gle/GYJ6V5zaU7mQct5v5

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Sapphire ~♚
21:50 Feb 06, 2021

KK!

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Maya
21:53 Feb 06, 2021

:D We're on the doc right now. XD

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Sapphire ~♚
21:54 Feb 06, 2021

LOL

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Maya
21:55 Feb 06, 2021

haha XD

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Mira Caplan
23:44 Feb 05, 2021

My heart....... Is broken. And in shock. And shattered. And fractured. And in awe.

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Mira Caplan
23:44 Feb 05, 2021

Like ..... I don't understand how you are so good at writing. Especially sad stuff like this..... *Bows*

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Sapphire ~♚
21:55 Feb 06, 2021

Wait wait- R-really? I'm- wow I just- I- THANK YOU SO MUCH MIRA!!!!!!

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Mira Caplan
01:24 Feb 08, 2021

YES REALLY!!!!!!!! 😁

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Mira Caplan
01:24 Feb 08, 2021

YES REALLY!!!!!!!! 😁

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Sapphire ~♚
17:14 Feb 08, 2021

THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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03:12 Feb 05, 2021

Hi Saph!! I just posted my reedsy cast story!!!:D Would you mind checking it out?!

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Sapphire ~♚
17:54 Feb 05, 2021

TOTALLY!

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17:54 Feb 05, 2021

yayy thank youuuuuuu:D

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Maya
22:32 Feb 04, 2021

The skribbls now have a doc for chatting (kinda like Aerin's doc) and if you want to be on it the link is in my bio! :)

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Sapphire ~♚
22:56 Feb 04, 2021

ooooh nice!

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Maya
23:19 Feb 04, 2021

:D

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Maya
19:33 Feb 04, 2021

We're playing skribble again at 3:30 today, if you want to join the link will be at the bottom of my bio. :)

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Sapphire ~♚
20:22 Feb 04, 2021

*thread has been deleted so that there is no evidence and so that the person doesn't find this* XDD

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Maya
20:23 Feb 04, 2021

XDDDDDD

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I didn't have time to comment on this story, but now I do! Loving all of them so much Saph! Great job! <3

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Sapphire ~♚
18:11 Feb 04, 2021

:DD THANK YOU!

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Haha, no prob!

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Sapphire ~♚
21:22 Feb 04, 2021

:D!

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Maya
16:17 Feb 03, 2021

If you don't mind, could you check out this person's first story? https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/contests/79/submissions/53256/

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Sapphire ~♚
17:00 Feb 03, 2021

Sure!

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Maya
17:02 Feb 03, 2021

Thanks!!!

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