''Hey how you doing Brian. Are you okay?Claire said.
''I'm doing well okay.Brian replied.
Ackward silence.
Well I'm so glad you decided to come to dinner with me. I really appreciated it. Claire.
''Well I had nothing else to do so I figure why not .I might as well 'You know.Brian. replied.
Look I just want to say I'm so sorry. so sorry for the way I hurt you Brian. I never wanted it to be like that. It just me ,and you was just going through the somethings. We was going through things.I just didn't know how.....I just didn't know Claire.said.
You know , when I found out that you was cheating on me. I was n't mad .I before the events happen I cried until I couldn't cry no more.I had dreams of us . For us.
The dream everybody has. Big house four or five cars . We got kids. You like 3 kids. 2 boys 1 girl. As they get older Me, and You vacation around the world.
Us 90 years old rocking back and forth on a porch living our last days together.
I hope our last day together on this earth god will take us both.IT not fair to us both. cause one will suffered without the other one.
When I found out that .You killed the dream. I just lost it. i wanted to hurt you, .Wanted to know why. Then I didn't want to know why.
I wonder who was It? So many emotions was going through my head .
''Claire I love you so much.I swear we became official. I want to become everything .
So you wouldn't want another man for nothing.Or anybody .Brian said.
I don't know Claire I'm just lost or words .I don't even know what the next steps.
''Obviously That man was everything I could've never be.In your eyes. Fact you was giving all you had to another man. it kills me.Brian said.
''Dav---....Claire begin to say." "Un huh, don't say the man name in here. Not right now, Okay. Brian said
''Brian baby, to be honest I was scared. You know , to be frankly honest with you. Claire said.
''So fear push you in to the arms of another man.Having you risking your life, and everybody else life's. You could came and talk to me about your feelings.
''Yea it would hurt, but I rather you come and talk instead of sneaking. Brian said.
''You right ,I thought I wasn't good enough for you. Because i was having second thoughts. Yea I want the houses, kids, cars, the legacies. .Just not right now.
We got a lot f time on our hands. It felt like everything you was doing was on schedule.
You was controlling, over protective. Just smothering. me.
this relationship became a job . Instead of commitment.
You started to to talk at me then to me.
I felt down. The more you try , to push a life on to me that I'm not ready for the more I started to back away.Claire said.
''When I met him, We did everything I thought we should be doing. We laughed. we went dancing.
He lived for the day, You was living for the years.
I started to believe in that for a while. I was conflicted. Nothing was the same n more. The more I tried to break away.I just became more wrapped up in it. Claire.
I wanted to leave. Not to be with him. Just be single, and free. Away from broken hearts, No responsibility. No obligations to anything ,or anybody. Claire said.
''Let me ask you a question? Brain said.
''Did you you want me to catch you. ?
Claire got a guilty look on her face. She tried to answer ,but she couldn't.
''I mean you went a whole year, without me knowing anything. Of you cheating on me
Then, you bring him. Into our home.In our bed. The place where I pay bills at. We fighting tearing up the place.
''You know to be honest, When you was ''Screaming ,baby stop. I didn't know who you was talking too. Brian said
That even drove me even crazier. But after the madness I sat back and look at it. I think you want me to catch you.
You want an excuse to leave. Cause you was n't ready.
You was that finished with me. That could end it in a bad way. You could have murder,, crimes scars just everything bad.
But you didn't care no more. Obviously you didn't care about me,or him. Brian said.
You know if a time machine was available.I would use it urgently to erase the heartache . I cause you ,and myself. Claire said.
I'm not wandering no more. I know what i wan to to be ,and who to be with. I want to be with you Brian. Forever.
But there are some things we got to get right together.Claire said.
Communication is the key for us Claire.
This don't happen again unless we honest. If you have a problem with anything I do you can come to me ,and tell me.Brian said.
I'm sorry baby, for everything .I'm sorry we got to this point.Claire said.
Like you said baby we can' t change the past.I know pain full memories is hard to keep. But we keep it there so it we stay on straight.
I can't lose you twice. These months you been gone .
Have been stressful. Believe it out I have been having nightmares ever since you left. Brain said.
I love you Claire, I never stop.Even when I was mad at you. I' ll be mad thinking bout you know, Then the thought of you. Your face. All of sudden I just start thinking bout the good times we had. Brian said.
Claire reached over the table to grabbed Brian hands. ''That we going to have. Claire said.
''I don't wan to tell you I'm sorry for the thousandth time. I want to show you.
I love you Brain Claire said.
These past three months showed me .being free doesn't mean freedom.
I never been so lonely in my life.Like I walks, When we made love.
I got tired. I didn't want to remember being with you. I want to be with you.
I wanted to feel the warmth, and secured. that I was missing. the other guy was just relief ,but to be honest there was always questions mark. I just didn't know.
Thrill can be dangerous, you can be so high. Feel like on the top of the mountain. The when The thrill gets lost. You feel so s useless.
You sacrafice everything for seconds of power.Claire said.
She leaned over the table to kiss Brian.
I Love you too Claire.Brian replied.
They eat ,and drink. The rest of their night.They didn't worried. Bout nothing ,but themselves.
They are back together as one.
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