Izzy vs Izzy

Izzy this is all wrong, you never do nothing right. I don't know if you dumb, retarded, or stupid but you always do everything wrong. Izzy sister screamed at her. Well look do it your self Izzy replied since I'm all that. I didn't say you was it I said that's how you acting Izzy sister snapped back. I wonder if I can die and come back will my life still be the same? Will my family still wish I was someone else? When I go places, will people still stare at me as if I was the ugliest person in life? Will I still not have many friends? Will I still have these sorry men in my life as my children father's? Will my mom still choose drugs over me? Izzy fell in a deep sleep as her sister gave her a blow to the head. Don't ever get in my face like that, Izzy sister said as she watch Izzy fall to the ground. Go girl they called your name you won. The crowd was loud as Izzy walked across stage to retrieve her Grammy award winning trophy. Izzy eyes was big and in shock mode, as she watched the tears in her mom face. As Izzy made her way to the bottom of the stage closer to the crowd. Many fans started reaching up to touch her she saw everyone happy and proud of her. She didn't know what was going on because the world hated her guts. Whatever it was she liked it, the feeling she felt was finally love. As she began to put the mic to her mouth she heard a voice out the crowd saying I'm proud of you girl. As she began to speak she scanned the crowd to see if she could find that voice. Thank you all without y'all I wouldn't be who I am today Izzy began to tell the crowd as they screamed with excitement. This rap game only bring fame but who love me for me the crowd begin to scream we love you Izzy. I feel it, ok I love y'all to and she paused. I want to call a special lady to the stage someone who has been there since day 1. Made me who I am today my beautiful Wonder mom come here woman. As Izzy begin to watch this healthy drug free woman walk up the stage in a red sparking dress that fit her fit her coke bottle shape she smiled and tears started rolling. Y'all know it's a blessing to have a mom that supports you thru everything you do. I could be in the kitchen trying to put words together as a little kid. My mom use to bust the beat for me and I use to just be going and going then she back dough me and that's how I became the greatest rapper alive will female rapper because as wezzy say he is the best rapper alive. The crowd begin to get loud again to show they love for Izzy. As her sight got blurry and things begin to fade away she started hearing machines beeping and a bright light in her face she being to try to move her arms opening her eyes a little bit more she was introduced by a lady in a white coat and blue scrubs. Hello where am I anybody knows? The nurse came and told her boo you in the hospital I'll explain everything to you once everything is back to normal to took a pretty good blow to the head. Izzy laid her head back down and whispered to herself wherever I just was that's where I want to be and faded back to sleep. Machines went crazy every doctor and nurse came running but it was too late Izzy was gone. The justice of peace came and spoke some real worlds as he spoke I begin to cry. God plan for you is not your plan. Many people will judge you, talk about you, and many want like you but you never change whom you are for anybody but your self. As I looked in the mirror and seen who I have become all I could whisper is Izzy have done it again. As the old me laid in that hospital bed abused, hurted, and lonely. The new me was looking in the mirror. Living in the past was hell but in this new life I am loved not just by others but love by myself Izzy begin to say to her self in the mirror. See that old life I use to care about everyone feels but mine I use to feel like I was nothing. But that old me is dead I am beautiful, intelligent, smart, wise because I am whoever God created me to be. Izzy still begin to practice self love in the mirror. As she heard a sassy voice girl you ain't nobody you never going to be nobody so whatever you saying stop because it ain't true. Izzy sister started talking to her. Look you cursed me lowered my self esteem you did everything you possibly could but that was in the past in this life I woke up from a blow to my head by one I thought would love me more then anybody but now you will respect me you might not like me but we are sisters and you will respect me. Izzy started looking at her sister laugh to every word she said. Girl stop maybe I will love you maybe I will respect you, maybe your mom will come back off drugs just maybe in another life. Izzy began to just look around hope gone, faith gone,everything she just had said to her self in the mirror became lies to herself all over again. Why I can't be loved for me why I'm not liked. Maybe she is right. Maybe if I was born again my dreams would come true the whole world will like me just maybe in another life I would be a normal human with friends with family maybe I wouldn't be so bad off that my mom would of never been on drugs just maybe in another life time. Izzy begin to look out the window as the rain hit hard I'm ready for my new life