Love you baby

A couple on their way to the supermarket. He starts a conversation with his girlfriend.

He: Baby let’s get married. What about tomorrow? Or we can go today and start working on what we need to do to get married. Hmmm, what do you think baby?

She: Hahahaha, seriously you want to get married like tomorrow. Don’t you think its too early? What’s so rush baby?

He: Well does that mean you don’t want to be with me.

She: LOL. Baby, why would you even think like that. Just saying that it feels kind of early. I have already made up my mind to be with you forever and that should mean a lot to you.

She: I am not like other girls you have dated in the past. Baby, you still don’t believe about you being my first boyfriend, do you? You don’t even know how much I love you baby. I don’t know where to start. You are the first relationship I ever had.

He: MMMMM I don’t know if I am the first one(smiling sweetly). So you are sure I am the first one.

She: OMG baby YES YES YES YES

He: Okay okay ha ha ha

He: Then why do you think its too early.

She: (Thinking in her mind)

       ( Well I don’t know. I guess I kinda wanted the proposal to be romantic or filmy. I know I am being too dramatic right now. But still, I wanted a real proposal, not just lets married kinda thing. Wait, that doesn’t mean I don’t want to marry him. AGHHHHHHH why am I thinking so much?

He: Babe what are thinking. Why are you not saying anything?

She: oh nothing I was just.

He: Of course you were thinking about something. Now come on tell me.

She: Seriously nothing.

He: As usual you don’t tell me anything.

She: Baby what do you mean I don’t tell you anything. I literally share everything with you. I am most comfortable with you. You are the one who doesn’t talk to me. If I ask something you always shut me up by saying, “Don’t worry about it”. I hate it when you say that.

He: I tell you what's important but you never really pay attention.

She: Whatever

He: No Whatever.

She: Okay sorry sorry. I don’t wanna be fighting about stupid stuff right now.

Few minutes of silence

She: So baby you were saying about getting married. Do you like a big kinda marriage or something small.

He: I honestly do not like the big fuss about getting married. I like to make it small.

She: Yeah I kinda like something small too. (well, but I would hate actually having an average ceremony)

He: But I know you would prefer a big ceremony.

She: No not really.

This topic ends there

After that day he didn’t really bring up the topic again. So I started getting worried. Did he change his mind, does he not love me anymore, does he not want to get married anymore?

He used to keep saying let’s get married all the time. Now that I feel like I am ready he doesn’t talk about it. I don’t know what to do anymore. Maybe I should talk to him. But is it going to sound weird if I ask him to marry me? Umm, whatever I am going to do it.

So after all the thinking I wrote a small letter and hid it under this game. I hope he will respond to it. After that, I went to work. I was so anxious the whole time. I don’t know what he might be thinking. I was waiting for his text. But umm he didn’t say anything special. Just a normal text what are you doing, how is work kind of stuff. Honestly, it made me upset. I got home and the first thing I checked was the letter. It was on the same spot I left. I don’t know if he read it or not.

Strangely, I could not ask him if he read it or not. He asked me what I want to eat. I said pizza. SO, we ordered pizza and coke and that was pretty good. But My hear was still not calm. It was just like the times when we just started dating. It was exactly the same feeling. We were sitting together holding our hands, but he did not mention anything about my letter. I thought maybe he hasn’t seen it yet. But I don’t know.

Next day I went to work early in the morning. He was off that day. I was hoping he will say something today. And yes, he texted me at day saying he saw my letter. He said it was cute. I know it looks so old fashioned, but I feel comfortable expressing my feeling by writing. This is my way of showing how I really feel. He said that it was really cute. He said I love you too. And then I was like AND….

He was like AND what. I was like you know what I am asking about. Then he was like of course I will marry you. When he said that I started smiling like a crazy person. I hope nobody saw me like that. But I could not control myself. I guess it is healthy in a relationship to have this kind of feeling once in a while.

That day I realized how big of a fool I was. When he asked me to get married, instead of saying its too early and stuff, I should Have simply said Yes, I will marry you. That would have made him so happy. I am a fool. Being proposed is not just about having fancy decorations, rings, and stuff. Its only and only about true feeling. The fact that he kept asking me to get married was he always wants me to be with him.

Oh God, I love him so much. He is and will always be the love of my life. I love you, baby.