ALWAYS ON MY MIND

Someone looking up at the Stars

"Whenever you see the moon,just know have whispered to ;him,something that would always remind you of me,but the uncountable shinning Stars; I have told it would be you and always you. You remember? That day we met under the Olive tree in Mama's garden, the moon was the evidence that your beauty can't be hidden, even in the dark as it shone on your face, we were doing just the same thing "looking up at the stars" and wondering the beauty of God with useen emotions swimming in our hearts. this would always start our story afresh even till nighty-nine because the stars are forever there. That's you and that's me,we have formed not an Orion nor Pegasus but a " Umar" which means ' our love on Earth is never gonna die'.

You know that feeling meeting you for the first time "my love, my better half,my missing rib and my God's will". My heart leaped for love and my lips twitched as I muttered an 'Hi' to you but, sadly you didn't reply me , you just walked away to the other side of the garden leaving my stretched out hand hanging on the air.

I never found myself loving any other girl the way I loved you from the first. Mum had tried countless times to force me into marriage with Aliya her best friend's daughter but my heart was sure waiting for you and now have found you,am never letting go. I just knew something was wrong when you sat down on the chair in tears flowing down your cheeks. I felt concerned, so I had to go sit by you and without saying a word again, you poured out your heart to me, your pains that no one could see but your tears spoke about it. I cuddle you in my arms and you slept off for some minutes and suddenly spranged up in fear, realizing you've been with a stranger all those while you slept.

" Sorry ! Sorry!! Am so sorry" was all you could say as you bent down, pulled off your shoes and ran away from the garden, "ma'am pls wait, you dropped something" I said as ran after you but you were so fast that I could never catch up with you.

Days passed, weeks jogged away,months flew like the birds of the air,yet I never set my eyes on you again until two years after at Cole's wedding.

You tried to hid from me but I confronted you and you denied remembering me. I was just smiling because I wasn't thinking of losing sight of you ever again, I just wanted to know where you live,so I carefully drove after you as you drove back home that day.

The next morning I was at your gate waiting for the time you will be going out for jogging but unfortunately I also got to know from your maid who came out to trow away the rotten cabbage into the waste bin that, you are not just an introvert but also a damn serious one.

I wasn't ready to give up on you despite your rejection. I know you didn't want any man in your life but I just wanted to be that man you will give your heart to.

You always said No! but your heart always said Yes! to me, you kept asking your heart " what if he also leaves me?,he can't stand my shame and I can't put him into such,he deserves better" but my assurance to you was my life.

I always knew you were mine, the day you said "I do" to me on that alter where we exchange our marriage vows ,where our love was sealed in holy matrimony. Our marriage was the talk of the Town, my mum was so happy for playing the first role in bringing us together, she was the one who invited your family over for dinner the night we first met.

Our marriage will always remain a blessing to me, the light of the stars are unique just like you,you are the only woman that makes me feel the way I do and the joy within my heart is only because I have you.

do I say something?, I love you forever and am sure you will also know that, I truly do. epilepsy can't weigh you down,our love will always conquer it. Men who couldn't see the beautiful woman behind the shame of Epilepsy; thought they did well by leaving you, because of an illness beyond your control, it came into your life but can never come in between our love, we are gonna overcome it, the doctor said you will just be fine if you keep to your medications and know that your honey will always be praying for you, without loosing hope.

I received the pictures of our baby boy "John" he is so cute and looks just like you, I can't wait to be with my son, I can't wait to be with you Darling, if I were to have a "gini" seeing you would be my first wish and spending my entire life with you would be my last wish. If there were to be marriage in the After life, I would still fall in love with you and get married to you over and over again.

If I were to choose between living a thousand years in riches without you and living a hundred days with you, I will choose to live a hundred days with you , our love is more than enough for me with God for us.

Come rain, come sun, you know I will always love you more "wifey", I didn't just fall in love with you but,I also walked into love with you, with my wide eyes open, ready to take every step along the way,my heart was just made for you,love me as you could,I do believe in fate and destiny and I also believe we were made for each other. nothing can break us apart, our promise of love wasn't made on a feeble ground but built with our hearts on a solid rock,Where the Stars meet. I will always love you from here to the moon and back, am coming home soon to you and our baby darling, I will always be thinking about you and always be that "someone looking up at the Stars"