I opened my eyes to complete darkness. Was I dead? Was I in hell? In complete disorientation I didn’t know what had become of me. All I know is that I had a feeling life wasn’t going well so I must be in a situation that was on the unpleasant side of life.
“Mother?” I whispered.
The first thought to pop into my head as I lay here. Or could I be standing? No. I feel the surface on my back, not the bottom of my feet.
“Are you there mother?”
There is no response as I lay here. Where could she be, and I so wish to have her by my side. Anything to comfort me as reality starts to set in my mind. The fogginess starts to dissipate and realize what I had been doing, and ponder if I was indeed in hell.
“Nothing on earth can be worse than spending eternity in hell,” my mother would tell me.
I wonder if that is indeed true. I guess at least here I can die and pray to God I go to heaven. Or like many believe nowadays you go nowhere. It just ends. Reincarnation is not even a possibility for me. Why repeat this hellish life over and over again? I don’t care if you don’t remember your past life. If you do, I’m sorry that you do.
Suddenly, I can see stars, and a light breeze caresses my face.
“I’m outside,” I thought.
I sit up and see I’m in the middle of a field. It came to mind I was so exhausted I just lay down in the middle of the field and crashed. Immediately went under, part of me hoping I would never open my eyes again.
Why was I running?
Memories flooded my mind of the beginning days when ones like me who crave their freedom was losing them one by one. Just like everything in life it’s subtle, but little by little it’s put upon all of us. It’s like raising the price by a penny, then a nickel, then a dime, until next moment you are paying a buck more in a year’s time. This time it’s our freedom to just live our lives that were taken away since according to the higher authority we don’t know how to live. All we do is cause more ill to everything. Evil humanity must be stopped.
I was at first ignorant and just followed along with the changes, still just wanting to be left alone and live my life the way I want it to. But, when I started seeing what I enjoy taken away since it was harmful to others and the environment I started to pay more attention. I didn’t mind some of my habits changing, but it started to become ridiculous as I saw the miserable trying to make everyone else miserable. The leaders we had in the past that set forth to help everyone rise up was gone. Now, it’s the leaders that want to push everyone down to the point where they can easily rule over you. I had no interest in such a thing and started to voice my opinion. My opinion was eventually noticed, resulting in my innocent life changing to one of criminal living. I was becoming a cancer to the new utopia. I soon started to live days behind bars, but the new leaders were not in full control yet so many times I was released, but knew those days would soon come to an end.
“You are going to have to go into hiding if you continue to live this life,” my mother told me.
“What kind of life is that?” I told her. “It’s all being taken away.”
“Maybe it will be better.”
“You know better than that, mother. This has been tried many upon many times before, and never worked. I don’t care that they spout out they will do it correctly this time around. It just means more control and greed for them, and us living off the crumbs. Not the way I want to live.”
“You are living a dangerous path,” she told me with concern.
“My path is to correct this travesty,” I said. “And I’m not the only one.”
Eventually, the time came when I had to flee. Thankfully, I heard of a sweet lady by the name of Saundra that was taking in people trying to find a better life. She worked at a library that contained secret rooms to stay until you find a better place. I soon got in touch with her, and late at night I was able to sneak into the library and to the rooms down below. It’s where I stayed for a week before Saundra came to me one day and told me the good news.
“There is a land down south where the people will not stand for what is going on with this country. You need to travel to this land and unite with these people,” she told me. “Luckily, most of the journey can be made with little humanity around that will stop you. Only a few places you will need to be very careful what path you take. I pray you take the right path. I know you will because you are already taking the path as I speak to you.”
She gave me some goods to take with me and a few hugs of comfort as she wished my luck., It was late at night that I ran once again as I headed south to a land with people just like me. Ones that just wanted to live a normal life. How long will that last? Who knows, and it’s much better than caving in and living as a slave.
As I sat there it started to brighten as the sun rose over the horizon. The negative thoughts that first came to mind as I awoke quickly disappeared. I stood up and stretched as I prepared to move again. I was halfway there, and the other half is much better than the first part. Less people in this area so hopes were brightening. My life is soon to brighten.
The darkness dissipated and soon I was in the light. An expression that happens so little came to my face. A smile.