Trapped.

I could trust you.

Or so I thought.

I thought.

Just thinking,

that maybe—

My whole life,

I've put my arms,

around you,

father

I trusted you,

I've loved

you.

Why?

How could you do this to me?

Oh,

how?

Like how could you do this to her?

I cannot believe

what a fool

I've been.

I don't know

how I never realized it

before

You're true 

blood

You're true

character

personality

who you were

inside

How?

Why?

What?

When?

Will?

I cannot imagine

this

No

No

No.

No, I cannot

imagine this

No.

No.

You tricked me,

thought that,

I was a fool—

which I 

was

How?

Can you do

this to me?

I cannot

No.

I cannot

I just cannot

imagine.

My whole

world 

came crashing

down on me

today

Today

was the day

I knew

how I know

If mother were here

she would make

sure...

If mother were here

of course, she won't

because

of you.

You thought

you could fool me

just like you fooled

my mother

No.

I've learned

How to

accept

this fate

this treacherous

this solemn

this truth

When day comes

when night falls

I roam around

Aimlessly,

wandering,

walking,

carefully,

not to fall,

down,

and down,

going through

a never-ending

black hole

made of fire,

made of flames,

made of all your hate

It swallows,

me whole

Me up,

like I'm nothing

I'm not enough

This never

ending blackness

this shade

it lasts forever

While it does

I'll be brave

enough

to leap

over it

When it did,

today

I will crush

it whole

break

it through

Kick it open

like I'm kicking

a ball

as I throw

all the negativity

away,

far away

This orb,

I'm living in,

your hate

your face

You thought

you were a tide

a wave 

You thought,

I was the sand,

who you could wash away,

far away

You imagined how it would be like

without me

without mother

just you

But I'll cross

this bridge

you've created

I will

demolish

this structure

this block

you've made

this inseparable

building

You are far,

from being,

the perfect 

image

I've seen

I will face

the music

this shield

you've created 

for yourself

Now that I know

your plan

your plot

what you

have been dreaming

of your whole

life

You thought

I will lay

down my arms

To serve

you.

To bow before you

to respect

to listen

to work

for you

to become

your slave

your maid

I've lifted

my gaze

to what stands

before me

to what has

been standing before me

all this time

If only

I looked

hard enough

to see

to closely see

what I 

what I could

what I can 

be

Even as I 

grieved

I've tried to 

grow

Even as I 

got hurt

I tried to

hope

Even as I

tired

I have 

tried

I thought 

that forever

we will bind

we will bond

we will be tied

together

forever

But 

I have been

cheated

lied

defeated

I thought

our strength

our love

will be victorious

I only

had you

And I thought you only

had me

But now I see

what I should have seen

because now I understand

what your plan

what your idea

was 

Killing my mother

taking her riches

forcing my grandparents

to give you their property

But you still murdered them

probably planning

to go the same

to me

Are you a man?

Are you a dad?

Are you a husband?

Are you a son?

How could it be?

How in this entire world could it be?

I had to be

related to you!

We may have the same blood

but that doesn't mean

I will stay with you

forever

No that won't be

I will make sure

that we will be divided

we will be separated

we will keep

our distances

we will be apart

I take back

all the promises

I have made

as a child

I was naive

I didn't know

what a rascal

you could be

I had loved

you.

Since I 

only had you.

Mother was gone,

no grandma,

no grandpa

I had no siblings,

I had no pets

so all I had left,

were you,

But you have failed

yes you have

you don't

know

what the purpose for

life

ever was

You think

achieved

of becoming

the richest man

in this world

But know

that isn't

what life

was ever

about

All these years

you lived

you thought

you were smart

you were wise

and knowledgeable

But you are just

a foolish man

you have not learned anything

Your life

is just like

the trashcan

wasted

soon to emptied

by someone

All the trash

inside the can

was all the things

these terrible things

you have done

to mother

to grandma

to grandpa

to your friends

and to me

These are all

the litter

the garbage

Actually,

no—

you

are the real garbage

in this trash can

the person

who makes the trash

really messy

really smelly

that much trashier

(if that was even a word, it would be the perfect word to describe you)

As I go,

I will leave

behind the "good" memories

I will leave behind

our jokes

our laughs

our vacations

our meals

our discussions

all the time

that I have spent

with you 

and this house

I will leave behind

everything you have bought for me

because I want to make sure

that when I look at things

it doesn't remind me

of your ugly

villainous

face

So now

I will step

out of this prison

this trap

this bubble

you have created

So now,

I will leave

this darkness

the cold

fragile

air

the dark

stuffed

atmosphere

I will emerge

like the sunrise

from working

hard for myself

I will crush 

this burden

that you have created

I will climb

these hills

I will make

I will build

from my foundation

I make

I will bloom

as I free,

as I escape

myself

from your shade

from this 

trap