This is just the Beginning!

Submitted into Contest #46 in response to: Write a story about someone returning to their craft after a long hiatus.... view prompt

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Tik tik tik tik ! “Nope”….. Tringgggggggg “Delete”.

Tik tik tik tik tik tik ! “Nope”…...Tringgggggggggggg “Delete”.

This is the sound of me typing and deleting on my computer off and on. I’m not sure how many times I have done it, but trust me, I know I have done it quite a number of times.

Arggggg!……It’s so difficult!

Why is it so difficult for me to even start this story? How should I start? What am I going to write about? Oh My God! I have no idea at all.

Should I really be part of this writing community? Am I really capable of writing?

Should I or should I not submit my story?

Argggggg!….. It’s so complicated man!

Why did I even get this idea to write in the 1st place?

It has been like ages since I have written.

The only thing I write now are procedures, manuals and emails.

These are the only things in my mind now.

Do I still have the touch to write stories, as I used too, during my school days?

The time, when my mind was full of imagination… and stories will just flow easily.

The time, when I thought, I will be able to publish my own book, 1 day.

Hmmmm…. that was long ago.

Tik tik tik tik ! “Nope”….. Tringgggggggg “Delete”.

Tik tik tik tik tik tik ! “Nope”…...Tringgggggggggggg “Delete”.

I can’t even write the 1st sentence. Oh! Gosh!

What should I do?

This is all because of COVID-19. Arggggg!

I wouldn’t even think about writing, if I don’t have to sit at home due to lockdown.

I have tried learning new recipes via You Tube and try my hands-on cooking.

What else to do during this lockdown? Some dish came out okay, whereas some…whewww! Came out with unpredictable result.

Nope! Cooking is not for me. I should stick with simple dish that I always do.

I’m not a great cook.

Next…Hmmm…. What should I do?

I have completed all the household chores that was pending quite some time due to my busy work schedule.

Next…What should I do?

Shall I be a YouTuber? What am I going to add in the you tube channel?

Nope! I have no idea at all.

This is really boring! This COVID-19 is making me to think and think.

Arrrrrrrrg! What should I do?

I know, I have to work from home, but apart from that, I still have some time to explore. Hmmmm…. What should I do?

(After thinking for few weeks)

Finally, I decided to write. But where am I supposed to start?

Huh! I know…. Google! My life saviour!

You showed me Reedsy.

I don’t have any 2nd thoughts when I signed up. But after reading some of the stories. I wonder if I really wanted to write. This is when all kind of thoughts keep on coming inside my mind.

All the writers are so good! Do I really suit here?

Is writing really for me? Do I really want to do this?

Am I going to embarrass myself by submitting my story?

Arrrrrrrg! What should I do?

I have no idea! Hmmmm….

Something inside me keeps on saying that I should give it a try.

I’m not going to lose anything!

This is not the end of the world.

Let’s just try!

Let’s try by submitting my 1st story.

But what am I going to write?

Tik tik tik tik ! “Nope”….. Tringgggggggg “Delete”.

Tik tik tik tik tik tik ! “Nope”…...Tringgggggggggggg “Delete”.

It’s not easy! I have left this long back. Should I really write?

I can’t even find the right word to start. Probably I should just forget this idea.

Let me take a short walk 1st. (while thinking what should be written).

Not to forget, munching my favourite Pringles while walking.

And then, I Sat for a while and started to switch on the TV. Changing the channels from 1 channel to another. (while thinking at the same time)

But now, I have a chocolate bar on my hand.

Relaxing my mind… “Yummy”

I’m supposed to be on diet but here I am with a chocolate bar… ”Yummy”.

(After a short while……..)

Tik tik tik tik tik tik tik…..

Finally, my 1st sentence written without any deletion.

Yes! I wrote my 1st sentence.

Let it flow! Let it flow! Please god!

Let me submit at least 1 story. I’m not sure if I will submit more, but let me at least, take the 1st step by submitting my 1st story.

(After few hours)

Finally! I’m done.

(I took some time to read the whole story)

Hmmmmm… There is something missing but I’m not sure what.  

Hmmmmm…. Should I submit or not?

Argggggg…. I’m not sure!

I could feel something is missing but I’m not sure what.

I feel as if there is no life to my story. Hmmmmm….

Let’s give it a try! Let me just submit and see what happens.

(Few days, after receiving comment)

Wow! 1st comment for my story.

I never thought anyone would even read my story but someone just did.

Thank you! Thank you!

It really means a lot.

I’m not sure if I’ll be continuing with my writing or not but I’m sure I could improve myself in this Reedsy community.

Thank you to all who has given me feedback to improve.

With so many hiccups on my 1st story, I couldn’t even believe I am still here with my 3rd story

What more could I say?

My heart felt, thank you! To my new family “Reedsy”.

Will I able to write after this lockdown is over. I have no idea!

I’m sure, the moment I’m back to office there are high chances I have to leave my dream behind again.

A part of me, really hope I don’t have to go through this situation.

A part of me, really wanted to continue writing.

I really hope, I will be able to continue.   

Hopefully, I would achieve my dream of publishing my own book 1 day with the help of my new family.

Stay tune..... 

June 19, 2020 09:58

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8 comments

Sharath Sriram
13:03 Jun 25, 2020

Haha, this is such a cool story Arvi. I really do hope you get your 1st book published one day! :)

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Arvi Krish
00:19 Jun 29, 2020

Haha....Hi Sharath. Thank you so much :-) I hope so too

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Opeyemi Olajide
11:03 Jun 25, 2020

Very good work. You captured the true thoughts of every writer at every stage. It was a good reading experience

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Arvi Krish
00:21 Jun 29, 2020

Hi Opeyemi...Thank you! Really glad to hear that you had a good experience reading this story. Thank you once again :-)

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Shirley Medhurst
08:03 Jun 29, 2020

I really enjoyed your story Arvi - it was very clever, you really captured the mindset of us all at one time or another. You asked me to check for some grammatical mistakes, I saw the following: "all the household chores that was pending quite some time" (chores=plural so 'were pending') when my mind was full of imagination… and stories will just flow (tense, so stories would just flow) I find you can often spot mistakes if you read your story out loud - try it, it does work... Keep writing, I like your style

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Arvi Krish
02:24 Jul 01, 2020

Thank you Shirley! You really spent some time just to check... Really means a lot to me... After you point out the mistakes, I could actually see it myself... simple things that I overlook. I will try your method by reading it loud. Thanks for your suggestion. By the way, are you an English teacher by profession? :-) You are so good in spotting mistakes. God bless you. Thank you once again.

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Shirley Medhurst
14:36 Jul 02, 2020

Yes I sometimes teach English as a foreign language, (mostly for pleasure rather than a job)

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Arvi Krish
03:11 Jul 03, 2020

Wow! Nice!

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