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Coming of Age Friendship Romance

PLATONIC

Author's note: This story is dedicated to the people who've liked someone out of their reach or one of their close friends. Remember that it's okay if you don't end up with them, you'll get your happy ending soon. Love, Jasey

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The ending is kinda eH- I rewrote this story three times and don't like the ending that much

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“I'm an independent woman. I don't need a man!” She cries passionately, and your heart swells at her enthusiasm. You cannot help fall in love with her even more. “How about we get some ice cream?” She asks you, and you nod. If it makes her happy, it’ll make you happy. She takes your hand, dragging you off the bench and to the ice cream store down the road. Jaymee rattles on about being fearless and strong, and you desperately wish you had some of her courage. If you did, you would be better at making your own choices, and confessing your feelings for her. Time and time again, you hide in your shell, not wanting to risk breaking your lifelong friendship because of three words. I love you.

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Jaymee jinxed it. She has fallen for a boy named Nate, who’s in your year. You hate the way she talks about him, but you remind yourself that this makes her excited, so you don’t argue. You have never been one for gossiping over boys, but when she does it, you want to listen. You want to admit you’ve never felt that way about a boy because it’s always been her. 

“He’s so cute, my gosh. I don’t just like him because of his looks though, he’s very sweet. I think you’d like him.” She smiles, and you agree, saying you would love to meet him. Deep down, you’ve never hated a person so much.

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Jaymee is hanging out at your place, gushing over her first date with Nate. You want to laugh because Nate and date rhyme, but shouldn’t be put in a sentence together. 

“He hasn’t kissed me yet, but I’m hoping he will soon!” Jaymee says, dreamily. You resist the urge to wince. ‘You’re so selfish.’ You think to yourself. ‘Jaymee is happy, and you can’t even accept that.’ Your best friend grins for the rest of the afternoon, unable to escape her happy mood. You watch her blushy cheeks and freckled nose gleam in the sunlight, as the afternoon sun shines through your bedroom window. You want to speak up, you want to tell her, you want to make your decision. Instead, you let Jaymee live in her bubble of happiness in peace. 

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You cannot sleep. You toss and you turn, and you flip your pillow around, but nothing works. Your mother called you earlier, demanding where her funds for her manicure were. She failed to come home the night before, and now she’s asking for payment. You are done with being dictated all the time. You are tired of hiding your feelings for Jaymee. You are ready to make your own decisions. But then, the next day comes, and you hand over your birthday money to your mother. It’s as if the thoughts of rebelling never existed.

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“Then he pressed his lips on mine, and it was so beautiful!” She’s at it again, announcing for the fifth time how wonderful it was to be kissed by Nate. You can feel your stomach churning. Your rage is bubbling up, but you keep it concealed. Jaymee is happy, you cannot afford to ruin her bliss. “I think he could be the one,” she continues. The sick feeling in your stomach only grows. “We might start dating after this. What do you think?” She asks you, content shining in her eyes. This is your chance to tell her how you feel. 

“I’m sure you will.” You force the words out in the most comforting manner you can muster. She smiles at that. You clear your throat, telling Jaymee she has to leave because your mum doesn’t know she’s here. You help her up, smiling that fake smile, and she hugs you, thanking you for being such a good friend. You feel so guilty. As soon as you shut the door, the only thing you can think of is a blond-haired, green-eyed boy pressing himself onto Jaymee. You bolt to the bathroom, feeling the bile rise, and you throw up into the toilet bowl. Why did you have to fall in love with your best friend?

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Perhaps it is better to come clean. Hiding in the dark is easy, but that doesn’t mean it’s right. You, of all people, should know that by now. Today, you’re at Jaymee’s house. Except you didn’t realise her new boyfriend would be here either.

“Hi, Nate Carpenter. Pleased to meet you. Jaymee says your her best friend?”

“That’s right. We’ve been friends for seventeen years.”

“Oh, how nice.” He smiles at you, but you can tell he doesn’t like you. Luckily, the feeling is mutual. Jaymee goes on a long rant about how the two of them met, and Nate’s facial expression is the definition of smug.

“It sounds like you’ve cosied up to each other nicely.” You remark, feeling an unexplainable amount of anger and disappointment building up in you.

“We have, haven’t we, Jay?” He winks at Jaymee, who giggles, and you bite back a snarl. “Of course, we’re not as close as you two, not yet.” He says casually, but you know he’s proposing he can do better. How could your best friend choose a boy like this? For the rest of the afternoon, you stare him down when Jaymee isn’t looking into his eyes lovingly. 

“I think I should head off.” You suggest, but neither your best friend nor her boyfriend looks your way. He is stroking Jaymee’s hair, and she’s snuggled in his lap. You decide to see yourself out.

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You call her in the evening, but she doesn’t pick up. Nate must still be over at her place, indulging her. You start typing out a text, writing, deleting, then writing, but more deleting. After a while, you decide to write it out on paper. Pouring your heart out, you write more than you could ever say to her in person. You are done with hiding, it’s time you made your own choices. Relying on Jaymee is no longer an option. As sad as it makes you feel, you know it’s for the best.

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“What’s this for?” Jaymee asks when you hand over the sealed letter.

“Well, it’s been weeks since I’ve seen you, Jaymee. You’ve ditched me for your boyfriend.”

“That’s not true!”

“When was the last time we hung out?” You fire back, and she doesn’t give a response, knowing you are right. Over the past few weeks, you’ve discovered the world does not revolve around Jaymee. Despite what you’ve thought all your life. It’s time to move on, and that’s okay, it’s all part of life.

“Do I open it now?” Curiosity is written all over her face.

“If you want to.” You wonder how long you’ve liked Jaymee, and how long it took to realise you no longer do. You know it’s been selfish, clinging onto Jaymee, who is louder, bolder, more outgoing, just because you don’t want to make your own choices. It’s time you’ve changed that, even if it means realising you no longer have feelings for her.

“I’m sorry.” You apologise to her, and she gives you a puzzled glance.

“Whatever for?”

“For holding onto you like a child. Ever since we’ve known each other, I’ve let you make the decisions. I’ve treated you like you were my saviour when you’ve always been my friend. And uh, I had the biggest crush on you for the longest time, but you have Nate now.”

“Oh. Wow. I- That’s a lot to take in.” She stutters, but she holds her arms out, and you hug her tightly. Your first love is something that will always stay with you, but you realise that moving on isn’t a bad thing.

“This is very sudden,” you blush, “but I thought it would be best to clear the air.”

“Is this part where I tell you I don’t love Nate, and it’s always been you?” Jaymee jokes, and you smile.

“We’d be living in a fairytale if that was the case.” You chuckle, a sense of relief rushing through you. You feel elated and happy that you’ve finally made your decision, and it’s worked out.

“Thank you for telling me.” Jaymee whispers in your ear, still hugging you tightly. You realise no matter where you go, and no matter how many decisions you make, with or without her, you and Jaymee will always be together, because sometimes love is platonic.

May 26, 2021 04:52

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im so sorry we havent talked in a while how r you?

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22:44 Jul 18, 2021

OMGGGGGG UR BACK AND I LOVE THE NEW NAME EEEEEEE Dw abt it! I'm pre good, online school still and will always suck tho, wbu? :)

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:)))))))))))))) <3 TYYY Sameeeeeeee XDD :)

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09:31 Jul 20, 2021

If I'm allowed to ask, why did u change it? :D

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22:24 Jul 20, 2021

Bc Brooke?? Sorry my friend, my brain is vv dead u might have to explain 🤣🤣

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Sapphire ~♚
15:55 Jun 09, 2021

JASEY!!! It's been millennia since we talked ahhhhhh how are you doing? <33

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22:24 Jun 09, 2021

HEY SAPH!!!! It has oml- Reedsy is slightly dead but that's alright I'm doing pre good, working my way through lockdown welp. How are you? <3

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Sapphire ~♚
17:18 Jun 10, 2021

Yeah oof :P ooh that's good! Not the lockdown- the you doing good XD I'm doing pretty okay! I'm working my way through assignments and asking everyone if they like doritos or cheetos more XD which one do you like more?

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20:47 Jun 10, 2021

That's good to hear! Hmm, I would have to say doritos, wbu?

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Sapphire ~♚
20:40 Jun 12, 2021

mhm! Ahhh i cant choose! Hot cheetos are good, but doritos are good too...wugwnrugwgiu But probably doritos.... but cheetos are good too.... I CHOOSE RUFFLES CAUSE NO ONE ELSE WILL XD

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01:30 Jun 13, 2021

Ahahaha the indecisiveness- I can relate

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22:11 Jun 07, 2021

Jaseyyyy!! your pfp -> 💖

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22:39 Jun 07, 2021

Awwww thanks, Amethyst! I love urs too! The quote is rlly cool :) hru?

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23:41 Jun 09, 2021

:DD thx! :)) I like it too I’m good :) and tired and slightly injured from slamming my hand into a pole, hbu?

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10:58 Jun 10, 2021

I- what did you do? I'm tired too gah I have a test tomorrow :/

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22:53 Jun 10, 2021

Lol XD was walking and I’m blind so I slammed my hand into a pole :’) Yeah :’( I just had one Sending lots o’ luck -> ☘️☘️☘️

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23:04 Jun 10, 2021

Be more careful next time, Amethyst 🤣🤣 Thank you! Hopefully I don't fail :o

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23:51 Aug 09, 2021

good :)) it's kinda cooling down a ~tini~ bit so that's a lifesaver since I don't have an AC lol~ hbu?

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08:23 Aug 10, 2021

Oh nooo did ur AC break? I'm doing pre good it's starting to get a ~tini~ bit warmer ahaha

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23:44 Aug 13, 2021

XD I don't even have an AC, since majority of the year is winter lol :> but I wAnT oNe iT'S hOt aHhH

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00:18 Aug 14, 2021

Ohhh I see rqgpn8v1i3prqe[h that must be soooo annoying

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12:06 May 26, 2021

Eeeeeee such sweet story :) While I agree with you in that the ending is a bit... qUestioNable, i do really like the story and the idea that not everything ends in happily ever after in the way that you want it to, and sometimes you just have to settle with contempt of what's already there, as well as the concept that platonic love through friendship is as much a powerful bond as romantic love. As always, a-m-a-z-i-n-g, and ily more than ever <3

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22:35 May 26, 2021

Writer's Block destroyed my ending- apologies. Thank you so much, girl ily <3

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06:11 Jun 01, 2021

Ofc anytime :)

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04:57 May 26, 2021

Jasey's brain is vv dead and having on and off Writer's Block so some feedback would be much appreciated. As said in the author's note, the ending is a bit... qUestioNable, nonetheless enjoy :)

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20:29 Mar 22, 2022

This is literally me and one of my friends. We've known each other since fifth grade, and during eighth I was like "Hey- I lowkey like you." I love this.

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20:51 Mar 22, 2022

Ahahaaha please I love that

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22:01 Mar 22, 2022

It was definitely somethin'.

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22:09 Mar 22, 2022

XD

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Tarushi Parmar
04:09 Jun 16, 2021

I loved this story❤ I loved the line "We’d be living in a fairytale if that was the case". Cause it's real that it doesn't always work out the way you want to or the way in love stories. I don't usually like romance , but this one was wonderful

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09:44 Jun 16, 2021

Hey, Tarushi, thanks so much for your comment! I agree, a lot of stories happen in a snap, the idea of two characters falling for each other instantly can be overused and/or unlikely in real life. I'm so glad you enjoyed this story, even if you don't like romance :)

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Tarushi Parmar
10:15 Jun 16, 2021

😊

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Tarushi Parmar
10:16 Jun 16, 2021

😊

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Tarushi Parmar
10:16 Jun 16, 2021

😊

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Aiden Otaktay
14:21 Jun 02, 2021

Great job! It was an awesome story

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22:12 Jun 02, 2021

Thank you so much, Aiden! Glad you enjoyed reading my story :)

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Aiden Otaktay
08:33 Jun 03, 2021

Ofcc :D

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01:25 May 27, 2021

You’ve done it again with your romance, Jasey. You always manage to impress me with this genre! In this story, you explored a side of love that I feel like isn’t written about enough: platonic love and friendship. I feel like it’s a lot more realistic than Jaymee throwing Nate out of the window and dating the protagonist. For a Writer’s Block story, this was great! Maybe add a bit more buildup until the last scene if you can. You could include things like second guesses, the drafts of the protagonist’s earlier texts, etc. I feel like this st...

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03:19 May 27, 2021

Thanks for the suggestion, Annabelle! I will see if I can add something in before the final paragraph :) Also "throwing Nate out of the window"

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11:52 May 27, 2021

No problem! And haha, I do love throwing things out of windows...

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22:59 May 27, 2021

XD

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13:50 Jun 29, 2021

yes yes, love defenestrating things XD

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Amel Parvez
06:08 May 26, 2021

It was a cute story. Great job:) <3

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11:14 May 26, 2021

Thanks so much, Amel :)

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Amel Parvez
11:19 May 26, 2021

Na, no problem, Jase:) <3

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22:34 May 26, 2021

<3

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