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Apr 11, 2021

Drama Fiction Sad

Author’s Note: HEY! I’m back! Hope you enjoy. Based on a dream, and we all know those are crazy. I hope you enjoy. Not sure where the rainbow theme came from. I just find these rare colour names kind of fascinating. 

Rainbow

A Dramatic Short Story by Ana Govindasamy

Trigger Warnings/ Disclaimers: Suicide, Death, Grief & Bereavement Themes

The day I lost my brother was the day my world caved. The day my rainbow disappeared. My name? Heliotrope Richards. His? Cerulean. 


Cerulean. That’s where he died. Drowning in endless cerulean. Endless cold. Endless endlessness, in the dark. Lungs filled with ice. Silent. Still. 


Alone. 


We were inseparable. I was expecting. But he; he was there. He was there when the father of my daughter walked out. Was there to sign the papers, and be Amaranth’s guardian. There through the sickness, the pain, everything else that came with my pregnancy, the delivery, even. Through our father’s death. 


That took a toll on the both of us. 

We knew it was coming. Still wasn’t any less of a shock. When Navy died, a part of us died with him. He had a funeral in July. Writing my eulogy was the hardest thing I’d had to do. I couldn’t look at a pen the same way for weeks after, much less a blue one. 


More of Cerulean died with our father then he let show. Much, much more. I wish it was earlier. Wish he’d told me. In his note he blamed it on never having time, what with Amaranth‘s birth.


I read that sentence, and guilt so strong, it might as well have been physical pain, reverberated through my heart, my head.


I thought our bond was unbreakable. I thought we had trust, could tell each other anything. Like kids again. That’s what it felt like during my pregnancy. During his break up.


I was wrong. 


Dad’s death. That was the turning. Or the bend. The drop? I don’t know. Because I don’t know how long he felt the way he did. He never told me. And never will. 


Secrets die. Just like their keepers. Whether you wanted them to or not. They die. 


If Dad’s death was the drop, what was his break-up with Jade? Was that the bend? Or just another drop of fuel, for the car that drove him off the edge? The start. That must’ve been Mom’s death. Garnetta Richards. That was the first turn. 


Did I never catch it? 

Did I assume that him and Jade would sort it out together?

Did I make a mistake?

Was I a bad sister?

Was I too wrapped up in myself?

Was I useless?

Did I?

Was I?


I must’ve been. If I weren’t, he wouldn’t have jumped. He wouldn’t have done it. He wouldn’t have. That wasn’t him. That was his problems. Problems worsened, no, created by me. 


If I hadn’t been, he would still be. 


After all, what’s a family with only two members? 


What’s a rainbow with only two colours? 


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That Asian Creep
06:27 Apr 12, 2021

Well written, nanba... I like how you named all the characters after colours which corresponds to the title 👏🏽

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Ana Govindasamy
06:39 Apr 12, 2021

Thanks, Sahana!

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Ana Govindasamy
03:07 May 04, 2021

NOTE FOR ALL Y’ALL WHO GO ON LIKE SPREES: I personally think that likes are nice, but comments and critiques are much more helpful! I kind of hate it when people just go on random liking sprees. I would appreciate it much more if you took the time to read and give feedback. Points are nice but at the end of the day, improvement is better!

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Md Guerrero
12:09 Apr 23, 2021

Really nice concept and structure. This was fun to read.

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Ana Govindasamy
12:48 Apr 23, 2021

Thank you!

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23:07 Apr 18, 2021

Once again, another captivating story! The last two lines really struck me. "After all, what’s a family with only two members? What’s a rainbow with only two colours?" This really resonated with me. I myself have a large family, but often feel separate, distant, or downright estranged from some of them. Great job, Ana!

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Ana Govindasamy
00:58 Apr 19, 2021

Thanks so much Mallory!

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Palak Shah
21:28 Apr 15, 2021

I love how you have named the characters after each colour of the rainbow. That was smart and innovative. You have done a great job with this. Well done Could you please also check out my story. Thanks a lot. ~Palak Shah

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Ana Govindasamy
21:35 Apr 15, 2021

Thanks! Sure, I’ll check it out!

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Angelina Jeong
04:08 Apr 15, 2021

Ooh!! Love this story!

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Ana Govindasamy
06:18 Apr 15, 2021

Thanks!

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Svara Narasiah
13:59 Apr 21, 2021

I love this, the names, the plot... I want dreams like that!

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Ana Govindasamy
15:34 Apr 21, 2021

Ahah, thanks Svara!

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