Feb 03, 2021

Romance Inspirational Sad

The things are tossed into my bags one at a time; my clothes, the frames I used to keep by our bedside, the books I used to keep on our bookshelves. Bluebell tries to climb inside, but I pick up his furry body and place him on the bed, earning a mew of complaint. As I hang the heavy luggage over my shoulders, I take one last look at the room we used to share.


My cold, slender fingers sweep the moisture out of my eyes. I don’t want to cry, not now. Not with you waiting for me at the door. The room looks bare now, only half of what it used to be. You pick up two more of my bags from the floor as we carry them down to my car, side by side but walking in silence.


When the last of my belongings are removed from the apartment we used to share, we have succeeded at erasing any traces of what we used to be. I find myself wondering if this was really necessary, as my eyes start to well up again. I wish it didn’t have to be this way, even though I chose all of this. It was never your fault, always mine.


I turn away from the car, coming face to face with you, barely inches apart. You pull me in for a hug, always the gracious one out of the two of us. I loosely wrap my arms around you, watching the cars pass our driveway over your shoulder. Bluebell weaves in between our legs, yet another thing I will be leaving behind.


When I realize we’re both stalling what is ahead, I pull out of your arms. I gently untangle my hand from your own, the tips of our fingers sliding apart. 


“I guess this is goodbye,” you tell me, seeing the moment for what it is. 


You are brave, you face your problems. Unlike me, I hide. I wish I was stronger. 


“You couldn’t have been a better partner to me,” I say, “You’re not the reason it turned out this way, it was all me. I’m sorry I ruined this.”


“It wasn’t your fault. You did what you needed to do,” the smile you offer me is weak, looking more sad than anything, “I hope you can find happiness, wherever that may be.”


I nod in return, managing to find a few last words.


“Maybe I’ll see you again, in another time, another place. But for now, goodbye.”


I turn away from you then, climbing into my car and starting the rusty, old engine. As I drive away from the house we used to share, I don’t look back at you. Not even to catch sight of your beautiful arctic-blue eyes one last time. It’s less painful that way.


🎈🎈🎈


There is always a certain feeling that comes along with driving on a highway, if you were here you would know what I mean. A feeling of leaving something behind while entering something new. The feeling that comes with reluctantly driving into a new phase of your life.


As I blankly stare at the gray road ahead of me, my mind and body numb, I can’t help but revisit the memory that led to me driving away from you today. When tears fill my eyes again, I don’t bother to wipe them away. They drop onto my jacket and jeans, seeping through the material. Chilling my already icy skin.


Of all the reasons I could have decided to leave you, this seems like the most surprising. 


After all, the only thing you did was save my life.


I still remember that night. I remember trudging through the thick snow up the mountain, aiming to make it to the top by noon. I remember us all starting to get dizzy-headed as we reached thinner air, our breath taken away. I remember being behind you on the rope leading us up the mountain, watching your boots as you expertly made your way to the peak.


I remember posing for pictures and holding our flag at the top, two hours after noon. Us all rushing down the mountain, struggling to make it to the bottom before the approaching storm and night hit. Hoping to be safely sheltered in heavy-duty tents when the snow warred with the mountain.


I remember night coming faster than any of us would have expected. Being at the back of the line, not likely to make it to the campsite anytime soon. Gasping for breath, my frozen limbs barely functioning. I remember you glancing back at me, the last stranded straggler on the mountain. Your eyes flitting between the path to safety and my figure that was being enveloped by the blizzard. 


But most of all I remember you taking a step back up the mountain, toward me. You deciding to put your life on the line for a stranger in a matter of seconds. I’ll never forget that.


Those hours we spent huddled under a protruding section of rock, struggling to keep warm as the wind cut at our faces, you stayed by my side. Doing your best to keep me safe from everything threatening my life. When the sun came up after the longest night of our lives, we were both still there. Hearts beating, lungs filled with air.      


You saved my life.


Too bad I was never able to properly repay you.


🎈🎈🎈


I know you never really understood why I had to leave you, no matter how much you tried. Sure, you said you understood completely, but I could see right through that. What hurt you most of all, I think, is that my departure seemed to be done without any reason. I wish I could have explained it to you better.


The truth is, after that night, I couldn’t look into your eyes without remembering everything that happened. The memories terrified me, forever trapping me in the past. No matter who you are and who I am, our story will always be one that brings tears to my eyes. That keeps me up at night whenever my mind strays to it, which is almost always.


I wish we could have met at a different time, in a different place. Where I could have introduced myself to you at work or the cafe I visit every day for lunch. Not on a mountain top where we were both fighting for our lives. I think I will stop climbing, at least for a little while. Sure, it was always both of our passions, but I don’t know if the trauma I endured was worth it.


I used to think I couldn’t live without you, and that might still be true, but I am going to try. I need to leave all this behind, even you. Maybe then I will gain room to breathe. 


“𝓢𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓰𝓸 𝓲𝓼 𝓪𝓷 𝓪𝓬𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓯𝓪𝓻 𝓰𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓹𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷 𝓭𝓮𝓯𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓻 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓷.” -𝓔𝓬𝓴𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓣𝓸𝓵𝓵𝓮


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170 comments

Frances Reine
16:29 Feb 03, 2021

Silence after this is only appropriate. And that's fitting because I'm speechless. Too good.

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Maya Emerson
16:33 Feb 03, 2021

Aww, thanks so much, Frances!

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Radhika Diksha
07:27 Feb 05, 2021

A power packed story. It was small but full of emotions and feelings. i loved it very much.

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Maya Emerson
14:09 Feb 05, 2021

Thank you, Radhika!

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Michael Boquet
16:25 Feb 03, 2021

Beautiful story. I like that it's straight to the point and that you focus on emotions more than setting. Very well done. Only thing I noticed, in the sentence: “You’re not the reason it turned out his way" do you mean to say 'this' instead of 'his'?

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Maya Emerson
16:27 Feb 03, 2021

Thank you! And yes, I'll fix that! :)

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Nainika Gupta
14:26 Feb 03, 2021

woah...Maya... *hushed silence* you have written a masterpiece, i am in awe.... amazing job, friend!! also for our collab will you create the dead/rich sister so I can start writing??!!! :D

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Maya Emerson
14:28 Feb 03, 2021

Thank you!!!!!!! And yes, but do you have any ideas for last names (I'm really bad at that). And they all have the same last name, right? Their former last names are now their middle names? :)

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Nainika Gupta
14:32 Feb 03, 2021

OMG MAYA IT WAS BEAUTIFUL :D and yes, their former last names are now their middle names - and they all have the same last name - uhh. Rivera Campbell Mitchell like any of these??

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Maya Emerson
14:33 Feb 03, 2021

Thanks! Okay, how about the first??

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Nainika Gupta
14:53 Feb 03, 2021

yeah sure!!

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Maya Emerson
14:53 Feb 03, 2021

Okay!

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Maya Emerson
14:29 Feb 03, 2021

:)

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Danny ~
05:43 Feb 03, 2021

Wow, I- ... How dare you make me tear up, it's beautiful :) I love the quote at the end, I loved the whole thing, it's amazing how you keep on coming up with these! Great job, Maya :D

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Danny ~
05:48 Feb 03, 2021

It might be my new favorite story by you.... Like I know how the prompt is so umm... Broad, and lots of people might've thought of writing about some near-death experience-y type of story... And with that topic, you managed to incorporate that into the story so well.... Like AHHHhh... It's creative, it's beautiful..... And not cliche, it's amazing :D

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Maya Emerson
05:52 Feb 03, 2021

Thank you soooooooooo much, Danny!!! That means a lot to me. :DDD <3333333333

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Danny ~
05:54 Feb 03, 2021

of course :)) it's very bootiful :DDDD <333333333333

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Maya Emerson
06:03 Feb 03, 2021

:DDDDDDDDD <3333333333

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Danny ~
06:06 Feb 03, 2021

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤍

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21:05 Mar 31, 2021

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy we haven't talked in foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrr gurl

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Maya Emerson
21:47 Mar 31, 2021

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :) eep I know lol How are ya? <3

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15:45 Feb 13, 2021

🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞🥞 IT'S A FEAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Maya Emerson
17:27 Feb 13, 2021

XDDDDDDD Thanks! Also, there's probably a ship in the next part of my reedsy-cast series. Hehe

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17:46 Feb 14, 2021

My pleasure! XD OMG Yay! And I'm glad that I'm not the one who started it...... hehe... I'm so excited to see who it is! Even if it's me, lol...

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Maya Emerson
19:16 Feb 14, 2021

XDD Hehe lol, I'll probably post it tonight. Just wondering, have you read part one yet?

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23:53 Feb 14, 2021

Okay! No, and UGH. I've been meaning to. I will the first part and the second tomorrow. :)

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Maya Emerson
00:14 Feb 15, 2021

:) That alright, yay! :D <3

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Black Rose
14:06 Feb 13, 2021

I like your story cause, I love the title letting go. After reading the title I remembered frozen movie's song let it go !

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Maya Emerson
17:26 Feb 13, 2021

Lol haha :)))

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Harper Sugg
19:40 Feb 12, 2021

A wonderful short story! I loved all of the feelings and emotions in the story. I would definitely recommend.

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Maya Emerson
17:34 Feb 14, 2021

Thank you, I appreciate it. :)

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Nigel Dougill
15:46 Feb 09, 2021

Having read this as a first time writer i realise now the level i need to seek. Really enjoyed your work

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Maya Emerson
15:49 Feb 09, 2021

Thank you so much, that means a lot to me. :)

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Kate Winchester
02:38 Feb 09, 2021

My story has the same title lol. Your story is beautifully written. I really like the picture of the mc driving away but also driving toward something new. I also love the way your words evoke emotion. :)

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Maya Emerson
03:03 Feb 09, 2021

Thank you so much, Kate! Oh, that's funny! I'll check out your story when I get the chance. :)

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Kate Winchester
03:16 Feb 09, 2021

You're welcome and thank you :)

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Maya Emerson
13:24 Feb 09, 2021

:)

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20:25 Feb 08, 2021

i has no words

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Maya Emerson
21:46 Feb 08, 2021

:DDDDDDD

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23:28 Feb 08, 2021

seriously, though. this story left me speechless. i. has. no. words. your writing way is beyond my abilities. actually, they're greater than that.

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Maya Emerson
23:31 Feb 08, 2021

Thanks so much! :))) <3 Are you kidding me... don't say stuff like that. It's so obviously not true. Urgh XD

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00:01 Feb 09, 2021

you're welcome so much! <3 well, it is true but you can lie to yourself if you want.

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Maya Emerson
00:04 Feb 09, 2021

<333333333 Well, I won't be lying. YOU can lie to yourself if you want... XD

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Mango Chutney
17:49 Feb 08, 2021

Ahh.. Good story. Love your writing style. So many emotions.. Especially the part before 'You saved my life'.

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Maya Emerson
17:50 Feb 08, 2021

Thank you so much, Shreya! :)

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Lillian Brooks
19:05 Feb 06, 2021

Wow. *sits quietly* It's beautiful. *struggles to find words* The way its written is just so sweet and simple, I love it. I don't know what else to say.

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Maya Emerson
19:47 Feb 06, 2021

Thank you so much, Lily!!! :)))

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Danny ~
23:49 Feb 05, 2021

Helllooooo, how're ya doing? hope you're having a good night/morning :)) What do you think of the new prompts?? :DD

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Maya Emerson
23:58 Feb 05, 2021

I'm doing great!!! You?? :))) I really love them! They're different than usual but I think they're really cool! Do you like them and do you have any ideas?

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Danny ~
00:01 Feb 06, 2021

Oh I have one....i want to finish it later :)) do you?? :D

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Maya Emerson
00:07 Feb 06, 2021

Ooh yay! I can't wait to read it! I have a few! :) Bill said you're gonna join our doc, are you? :)))

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Danny ~
00:08 Feb 06, 2021

Yeah sure :))

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Danny ~
00:43 Feb 06, 2021

I gtg.... Breakfast lol

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Maya Emerson
00:44 Feb 06, 2021

Okay, talk to you later! Have an amazing breakfast! :)

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Radhika Diksha
07:27 Feb 05, 2021

A power packed story. It was small but full of emotions and feelings. i loved it very much.

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Very powerful. I truly love this one. Nothing else can really be said.

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Maya Emerson
13:43 Feb 04, 2021

Thanks, Ethan! :)

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Nainika Gupta
02:13 Feb 04, 2021

hey hey hey are you gonna post the last parts of the collab??

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Maya Emerson
02:14 Feb 04, 2021

Yes, I'm gonna write them in a little. Sorry, I just have a big school project. Ugh :/ I promise I'll get a good amount done tonight though, since I work a lot at night. Sorry!

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Nainika Gupta
02:16 Feb 04, 2021

oh no problem - take your time :) just making sure

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Maya Emerson
02:17 Feb 04, 2021

Yeah, I'll do it really soon. Sorry, if I had a choice, school wouldn't exist. XP

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Nainika Gupta
02:21 Feb 04, 2021

aha i know - it sucks but....we need education! *me doing my one and only duty to American education*

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Maya Emerson
02:22 Feb 04, 2021

Haha I would still want an education, just not at school. It's so boring. XD

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Maya Emerson
02:23 Feb 04, 2021

I'm finished now, I'm gonna go to our doc. :)

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00:48 Feb 04, 2021

this is like the inspirational thing the teacher says and your classmates don't know what to say ". . ." GOOD JOB! i like the subtle romance in there but not too much. great job with the present tense, you kept all the tenses the same :O the quote at the end really brought everything together nicely. . . GOOD JOB! XD ~ Amethyst

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Maya Emerson
00:57 Feb 04, 2021

Thanks so much, Amy!!! :DDD XD

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