I don't know what has gotten into mom and dad. They want to send me to a boarding school. What am I supposed to do I am so scared. I don't want to leave home and go to a new place. I want to stay, I've begged mom to let me stay with them a little longer but she said she couldn't let me, because my stepfather doesn't want me staying at his house. I don't know what I am going to do, God help me!!. My mom said that I need to start packing up my stuff and get ready for leaving in 2 days. From what I have heard from my friends, boarding schools are horrible.
I am so disappointed with my mom. I thought she would defend me but she didn't, instead she took my stepfather's side. It's okay with me though, I too don't want to stay with them now, because they are treating me like an outsider not, their child at least my mom's child.
I am so thankful that I have you dear diary. You are such a patient listener, not even my friends listen to me so patiently as you.
I have to go to bed now. I will be sure to fill you in on what happens tomorrow.
I am back from doing my chores. I have only ten minutes to write. I will fill you in on what I have been doing and what has happened quickly.
when I woke up this morning I had a lot of chores to do so I started on from there
When I finished mom sent me to the market to get some things. After I returned I was said to clean the back yard. After I finished cleaning the backyard I went to the basement to get my suitcase. I packed my stuff up and made my bed. Then I went down to eat dinner. Mom made roasted chicken with some rice. Dinner went very quietly, Nobody said a word. After dinner, I came back to my room wiped all the books and packed them. The room looked so empty, I couldn't hold back the tears. Tomorrow will be my last day at this place. A place where I had lived for 12 years.
My father had died when I was 11 and my mom had married my stepfather, Mark. And Mark didn't like me, he wanted me out of the house.
My I- phone which my dad had gifted me on my 10th birthday was my most cherished possession, except a few clothes and books.
I love reading and mom knows it so she gave me some good book to read so I wouldn't get bored at the boarding school.
I have to go to bed so that I wake up early tomorrow to enjoy my last day here.
today is the last day. I am so sad and distressed. I hope that the teachers and students at the boarding school are nice. I have even prayed to God that I get a nice teacher who is not angry and scary.
When I was going to the hall I passed through mom's room and from the gap in the door
I saw that she was crying. So, she does love me but doesn't want to show it. She was holding our family picture in her hand, which we had taken when we had traveled to London 1 year back when my father was alive. I looked so happy in it. I was a happy girl until last year. My father's sudden death was a great shock to me. I haven't recovered from the loss till now. It is very disturbing for me, I can't take the events of that day out of my mind. It's like it is stuck in my mind somehow. Every night I have nightmares about the death of my father.
I have to go and complete packing up.
Today Mark is going to be escorting me to the boarding school which is at a 3-hour distance from our house.
Mom is not well. I think had been crying all night because when I saw her in the morning her face was red and her eyes puffy. There were streaks of tears on her cheeks. I hate to say it but I cried in the night too. Not because I was leaving but because of the happy days I spent here in this house when father was there.
It's currently 5 :00 .My stepfather is out doing some last minute errand. He should be back in 1 hour. Then we will start. We are supposed to be there at 10:00.
I am very very nervous.
I have cleaned my room, said goodbye to the neighbors. Done my laundry and packed some thing to eat on the way. I've also packed my water bottle, brushes (hair and tooth), a mirror, my phone, a watch (for keeping the track of time), pens, notebooks, and other important items.
I kept my backpack and the suitcase near the front door so that when my stepfather arrives we can get going.
I decided to wear a white full sleeve shirt and a red knee-length skirt with black stockings.
I french braided my hair and pulled them in a ponytail and put a black bow with silver polka-dot on the back. Then I picked black sandals which looked good with the outfit.
I puffed some powder on my face and applied some strawberry lip gloss which had a light pink tint to it. When I was ready I ate my breakfast. Which was, two slices of French toast and milk. After eating I took a stroll in the back yard for the last time.
Then Mark arrived. And we headed to where the car was parked. I waved mom goodbye.
And Mark started the engine and we were off to the boarding school. Which is going to be my new home from now on.